- Wednesday Jun 25, 2008
I guilted myself into running on Saturday at 2:00 in the afternoon, amidst rotting heat and mega mosquitoes and steam rising up from the roads. Serious!! Okay, maybe i'm exaggerating a little...
I walked the first 1k because I thought it would be beneficial in warming me up and providing me with the sustainability to manage 5k that day. After the 1k "warm-up", I was sweating profusely and swearing at just about anything that crossed my path. Thankfully, there were no passerby, only the blowing grass and a scurrying gopher here and there. So they got an earful. At 2k, I stopped for a break because I was overheating and it just was too hot for me. I contemplated turning around and walking home, making it a total of 4k instead of the prearranged 5k. Instead I crawled on, unable to see myself living with the failure of not even making it 5 kilometers. On I ran, diligently, shuffling through whatever mental anguish I could put myself through. At 3k I again stopped, this time I was certain there would be no more running for me. I admitted defeat and walked the rest of the 5k home (actually, it was closer to 6k, but who's counting?!) and once I was home was quite proud of myself for actually sticking it out and working through my disappointment in myself.
I guess we have good days and bad days.
Sunday I went shopping and got locked out of the house. Don't tell, but I know how to break into my house and had to do so on Sunday since my boyfriend was away playing fastball. Anyways, it left me with scrapes and bruises all along both my forearms, and a VERY tight and sore abdominal area for the next two days! When my boyfriend got home, we took the dogs for a walk.
Monday I was on holidays!!! I did lots of cleaning, laundry, vacuuming, etc. and I got my legs waxed FINALLY. I went to watch my boyfriend's fastball game, and when we got home we took the dogs for a walk.
Tuesday I was on holidays!!! I did lots of cleaning, laundry, vacuuming, etc. and that took me almost the ENTIRE day. My boyfriend and I went for supper when he got home, then we took the dogs for another walk. Our walks are approximately 4 to 5k long.
Wendesday I am on holidays!!! I am STILL doing laundry (this has got to be the 30th load), but managed to squeeze in a doctor's appointment this morning for an upper abdominal ultrasound. FINALLY. My boyfriend has a fastball game tonight that I will probably go and watch. My slo-pitch team is having a BBQ today, but I don't think i'll make it.
Thursday I am on holidays!!! I have to take my car in to get fixed (oh, I think it's going to cost me an arm and a leg... anyone want to donate to my cause? "Legcramps Needs to Get Around Town Using Things Besides her Feet, cause She is Lazy and Has Nothing Funny to Say") If it's nice I want to drive to the lake and sun-tan.
Friday I am on holidays!!! Nothing planned yet for friday... yippee, will it be an ACTUAL day off???! Can't wait!
- Friday Jun 20, 2008
Well, crappity crap crap crappay...
Of course, that means I did NOT run yesterday or today or at all since Tuesday. OOOOhhh, crappy crappy. I can sure piss myself off sometimes, you know? We did take the dogs for a walk though. I was all geared up ready to run, but we had just eaten hot dogs for supper and I could feel the mixture of whole wheat buns and hot dog meat choking my chest in an attempt to give me a bad case of heartburn. I just couldn't make myself run, no matter how much I tried. Plus, I was breathing heavily just from walking up a short incline. I was in no mood for running yesterday, lemme tell 'ya. I think i'm lucky I didn't physically hurt anyone yesterday because of my mood, to be completely honest with you. Yesterday, the word crappity crap crappay meant a few different things to me; it described my effort at running, my mood, the unfortunate series of events that happened upon a friend of mine... I think I summed it up when I said to her: "Just when you think you're rising up out of that big tub of sh!t, someone else sh!ts all over you again". Please 'scuse my french, but it is sometimes very true and although it's very unfortunate it's a part of life that we all have to endure at some point in time. Doesn't mean it ain't crappy.
I'm busy today shovelling all that crap back into the lagoon...
- Thursday Jun 19, 2008
I'm pretty sure that I died at some point during the two slo-pitch games I played yesterday. Somewhere in there, maybe after the first inning of the first game. It was so humid and hot! I love the warm weather, I would just have rather sat around watching ball instead of actually having to move. I outplayed myself though, hitting some pretty good line drives and... well... that's about all I did. But that's okay, I managed to race around the field a few times and drink what felt like about 6 gallons of water. I was in and out of the bathroom all night :)
My boyfriend and I even took the dogs for a walk after we got home, he from his fastball game and I from my slo-pitch games. The dogs were happy. I was not. Halfway from home I decided I HAD to go to the bathroom again. I somehow managed to make it home, but it made for a VERY uncomfortable walk!
I am supposed to run again today. I hope I manage to get out there. It's warm and windy, but i'll take that over a cold wind. Should be a nice day today. Then one more day (Friday) and i'm on holidays for a week. I. Can't. Wait.
- Wednesday Jun 18, 2008
Sometimes life walks by you and just when you think they're long past they turn around and smack you in the face. And sometimes it's totally the opposite and you end up wondering why you weren't woken up by a good smack in the face because you're pretty sure you needed one. Yesterday, life smacked me in the face. But it's okay, because now i'm awake, see, and not floating through life half-asleep. Anyhoo.
After work yesterday I got home and figured it would be raining later on and that I wouldn't be able to run. It put me into a bit of a bad mood, and to make matters worse my boyfriend had *stuff* to do and didn't want to eat yet(he had just finished a piping hot bag of popcorn just before I got home). I found myself something to eat, then when he wanted to walk the dogs I bowed out, pleading exhaustion. Yes, I really thought I was exhausted. I was going through a certain amount of mental anguish in having made my decision to NOT run, and I didn't even feel like walking the dogs anymore. Nevermind the fact that it had still not yet started to rain as I had initially predicted.
In an attempt to soothe my battered mind, I took a relaxing bath and read Runner's World. Well, that just made me feel even worse about not doing anything, so soon after I picked up the magazine I quickly put it back down. I decided during that bathtime that I would wake up early the next morning and go for a run, to make up for my procrastination (or some other word that is much more cruel) of today.
When my boyfriend returned from walking the dogs, he advised me that he was going to visit a friend of his. My immediate reaction was anger due to the fact that he would now interrupt my slumber upon his return to the house. Then I thought: 'Self, why don't you use this anger as a driving force in getting you outside for that run you keep fretting about?'. And so I did. I had already taken a bath, but I changed into workout clothes, put my runners on, filled my water bottle and headed out the door. I was gone for an hour.
The start of my run went well - I had warmed up in a decent amount of time and was ready to start running. I had a quick stop halfway to the halfway point (lol) where I managed to swallow down a few drops of water - the rest of course running down my chin onto my shirt. I will never take a water bottle with me again. Once I was turned around and heading back the way I came, I went through a bitter mental argument. My body wanted to stop. My brain would not allow it. I would push through for a few meters and it would happen again. The fight between my body and brain continued during the middle stretch of my run, when finally I found myself near the end of the run and all the whining inside my head just suddenly stopped and I could run in silence. Granted, I had a few walk stops during this time, but was quite amazed at how I kept running after a quick walk break. I checked my time on the computer once I got home, and realized that during the time my body was fighting with my mind, I was running my fastest pace of the entire run - at just under 6 minutes per kilometer.
Today is slo-pitch and it's hot and humid out there. We have two games tonight, so i'm sure i'll be falling into bed afterwards...
- Tuesday Jun 17, 2008
It was so beautiful outside yesterday after work :) I went for a walk with a friend of mine right away and was able to enjoy the sun for a little while. It was wonderful! I hope it is that nice next week when I am on vacation. We didn't really walk with too much effort, just a nice relaxing saunter through the neighborhood so we could chat about just about everything and anything.
When I got back home, I jumped on the stationary bike to do my cross-training. I made it 10k in about 23 minutes, a nice easy pace. I was sweating a little bit when I was done, but not so much that you'd think i'd run a marathon or anything. I will eventually have to work up my cross training so that it is a workout, but for now I like to take things slow and easy!! It's all about the endurance!
When my boyfriend got home we ate quickly then took the dogs for a walk - another nice, relaxing walk. All in all it was a pretty relaxing day, although there was constant movement. I'm hoping for a little less constant movement today!!
The plan is to run today - 4k or 30 minutes, whichever comes first (I really hope it's the 4k)...
- Monday Jun 16, 2008
Wow, what a whirlwind of a weekend. I think i'm almost glad it's over, but I sure would enjoy some time off!! Well, I just have to get through this week of work and then i'll have a week of vacation. Not planning on going anywhere, but the break from work will still be nice.
It was a very long day on Saturday - my boyfriend and I travelled for 5&1/2 hours today to attend a funeral. It meant we were up and out of the house by 6:30am. We got back home around 5pm, where I proceeded to zonk out on the couch for about half an hour. I then made myself get up, changed into my sweats, and went for a run. I was able to make it 4k in 31:33, so I think i'm getting a little quicker which is sort of exciting :). It started to rain on the way back and I got thoroughly soaked from head to foot. Took a quick shower then headed out to a friend's birthday party until about 11pm when my boyfriend and I decided we needed to go to sleep.
Woke up early again on Sunday because my boyfriend was in a fastball tournament. Most of the day was spent sitting around and watching fastball. I also had a two-hour nap in the afternoon!!! :):) Did some laundry and then went to bed - it was another long day spent outside and I was totally beat!
Today I am supposed to be doing some cross-training so I think I will work on the stationary bike and then go for a walk with a friend.
- Friday Jun 13, 2008
I would have run last night, but it rained.
Okay, the story doesn't quite go like that. It was drizzling when I got home for work and I wondered if it would be nice enough outside to go for a run when my boyfriend got home. We ate supper quickly, then suited up the dogs and headed out. It had stopped raining during this time, so I thought we would have no problems with our run. But, when we got onto our regular route though, I quickly changed my mind. Everyone and their dog was out on this road last night! There was NO WAY I was gonna run in FRONT of them! Are you kidding me?!! So then I wanted to head back home right away and go out to the spillway to run there instead, but the dogs were having a ball and it smelled so good with the newly fallen rain, and there were no bugs or wind....etc, etc. so we ended up staying put and enjoyed a nice relaxing walk with the dogs instead.
I was going to get up early this morning and go for a run, but that didn't happen either. I think I hit the snooze button about 45 times this morning and lay in bed wide awake instead.
My boyfriend has a fastball game tonight, so I will be going with a friend to watch him play - that probably means no run tonight either. I'm on a roll! Let the procrastinator in me rejoice as it is in the lead!
- Thursday Jun 12, 2008
Not much new to report - yesterday slo-pitch was cancelled because it was raining fairly hard, so my boyfriend and I spent the night indoors watching t.v. At one point I left the house in search of a running magazine but after scouring our small town I came home empty-handed. Well, actually I picked up In Touch instead and read all about the star-studded beach bodies of today. I just wanted something to read while I took a bath anyways, who cares what it is?!
Eating is good, i'm not keeping track (and I should be), but i'm concentrating on getting outside and running right now, so the diet comes in second place for now and probably until the race is over in August.
Things got a little tense for me this morning at the office - but then I remembered to try and let things go, and I feel much better now. It actually works. I hate to say it, but I think i'm finally realizing that everything comes with hard work and effort and FOCUS.
So go on and FOCUS out there - and be your best today!
- Wednesday Jun 11, 2008
I managed to make it outside yesterday to run. Of my 4k in 30 minutes goal, I made the last half - the 30 minutes. I actually made it 3.5k in 30 minutes, and that was along with a whole lot of heavy wheezing and limping from severe calf pain. Fortunately, the calf pain went away during my run, but the wheezing did not. Oh, right, i'm out of shape. I forgot...
My boyfriend tried to pace me after the turnaround point of the run, and while I managed to match him stride for stride, it only lasted about 60 seconds. And, he bounces a LOT more than I do, so his strides are slower yet he moves further with each stride. I don't know, I guess I can't explain it because what I just said doesn't really sound right, but whatever. Anyways, I have this really funky-cool stopwatch that shows me what my pace is at all times. I couldn't check it while I was matching strides because I was using every ounce of energy I had just to put one foot in front of the other, but I checked it out on the computer once I got home. We were running at a pace of 4:41 minutes per kilometer. I'm sort of glad that I only made it for 60 seconds, because if I would have kept going at that pace, I would surely have ended up in the hospital...
Slo-pitch tonight, if weather permits.
Someday, if weather and the confines of my body permits, i'm going to just run and run and run. For like, 32 minutes or something CcRrAaZzYy like that.
- Tuesday Jun 10, 2008
I have been aching to get back to running and yet the procrastinator in me has decided that now is just not the time. Why? No reason, really. I took back my stationary bike on the weekend from my Dad because he doesn't have space for it anymore, so last night I set it up in the living room and jumped on for a quick 5k. At least I did something, right?!! And it wasn't all that incredibly quick, since I haven't been on a bike for a long time and it worked some muscles that still hurt today. Anyways, I needed to incorporate some cross-training into my schedule, so here it is! Today it is MANDATORY that I get outside and run (jog :p) so I plan on grabbing an energy bar after work and just doing it. That's right NIKE, Just Do It...
I will plan on 4k in under 30 minutes. That really isn't all that great, but whatever. I need to start somewhere. My stopwatch misses me and so do my runners. And my lungs? Well, they weren't liking the running thing all that much in the first place, so they'll just have to learn to suck it up. Literally.
Run, fatgirl, Run!!!!