- Monday Sep 03, 2007
Thanks everyone for your encouraging comments! Even though I only ran the 5k race I feel like i've accomplished a lot and i'm ready for the next hurdle life throws at me.
It's busy around here and i'm guessing it will stay that way for a few weeks. Work starts again tomorrow and I don't feel like going back. Once you get a couple days off it's really hard to re-motivate yourself to go back to work. Or it is for me, anyways.
So i'm spending the day with some friends, doing some baking (low fat bran muffins and carrot muffins and some self-indulgent chocolate muffins), and putzing around the house with other things like laundry and cleaning. It's a good day - sunny outside and I feel somewhat relaxed so that's good.
I made a terrible mistake and weighed myself the other day. Oy! I didn't think i'd ever see that number again. I just can't even bring myself to admit what it was - but it was bad. Weighed myself again this morning and I was down a few pounds. I guess reality kicked in. I'm going to have to make it a habit to weigh myself, otherwise things just start getting out of hand.
I'm re-joining kickboxing this fall, but will enter the fitness workouts and not the competitions - i'm not ready to get beat on quite yet. I'm hoping this will knock me into shape (it did last time) and get me ready for a wedding in October and a hot holiday in Jan/Feb '08!
Here's to fresh starts!
- Friday Aug 31, 2007
Hi all. So, the race is now over and i'm back to regular routines.
I was feeling terrible on Saturday, the day before the race. I'd gotten my monthly and being that it's always terrible, I was incredibly close to calling off the race. In the end, I decided not to. I figured it wasn't the time or what place I came in that was important - it was doing something that i'd never imagined myself doing - running long distance. So I told my boyfriend to look for me around the 45 minute mark, and I set off.
The first 20 minutes went by quickly. I had a couple quick stops during this time. Then came the park road. Here is where I struggled the most. I don't know why or how it came about, but I felt like stopping after only a few minutes of jogging. I stopped a few times here and then, towards the end of the road I stopped running altogether and just walked back to the highway. Once I got to the highway though I started running again and it was fine. So who knows what happened there.
I made it to the finish line in 36:28. I was proud of myself for finishing, especially when I thought it would take me 45 minutes to do it!
Next year, i'm doing it again. This time my boyfriend might join me. Next year, i'll have a better time. Promise.
Going to try a little run tonight and then going on a road trip with Dad tomorrow. Have a good weekend!
- Thursday Aug 23, 2007
I'm going to try the run again tomorrow night instead of tonight. My hip is still a little sore (mostly just stiff), so I might just jump on the bike instead and call it a night.
I missed lunch today because of meetings, so went a little hog wild at dinnertime and now i'm stuffed. As always happens with me, my diet needs yet a little more tweaking to ensure i'm getting enough nutrients throughout the day so that i'm not stuffing my face at night.
Going to read through your entries now. Have a good night!
- Wednesday Aug 22, 2007
Okay, so I decided tonight that I was going to do a trial run to see where i'm at. And even though my hip gave out on me (about 3/4 of the way into my run) I did alright. My goal for this 5k run was initially going to be 30:00 minutes. I know there's no way I can get there now, so I changed it to 40:00 minutes. And I figured, if I could get 5k in under 40:00 minutes, I would be happy. So I ran tonight. And then I had to walk. And I got 4.5k in 36:16 minutes. So I figure, on Sunday, if my hip decides to give way again, I will have a decision to make. Either I walk the rest of the race, or I run it and take my chances. Whatever I do, I think I should make it in under 40:00 minutes! Yay me! (Sorry, but I take what I can get). And, if I decide to run it anyways (and suffer the consequences later, as usual), I might even get there in under 35:00 minutes. So, a good day, in my opinion.
I was close to continuing the run tonight, but in the end decided that tonight was not the night - Sunday would be the day I would have to make that kind of decision. No need to injure myself and then not be able to run the race at all.
I had some difficulties in the beginning of the run with getting enough oxygen in, but after a while I got my groove and didn't have much of a problem from then on. The biggest worry will be my body and whether the knees and hips will stand up to the plate or not.
I think i'm going to try again tomorrow, depending on how i'm feeling. I'll let you know how I do.
Dinner was pasta, pasta sauce with beef, and toast. Lots of water. Toast again after running (not that I deserved it, but this is MY life after all!!)
- Tuesday Aug 21, 2007
Oh, this is truly horrible - I am not ready for the race and there isn't enough time in the world to make me ready.
Now, is it horrible, or is it not? I can't seem to decide. On one hand, it IS quite terrible that I did not train as well as I thought I would. But then again, I have the habit of starting things without keeping the incentive to finish them. I am forced to finish this race because i've been pledged by friends, family, and co-workers alike. There is no excuse I could possibly come up with to get myself out of running this race. So, perhaps the lesson learned here is that it's not about the 'starting' or how well you train or work or study, it's about having the strength and courage to finish. And believe me, it will take a lot of both strength and courage for me to finish this race - probably crawling along the finish line and having everyone there to support me watching my slow advance towards hell and pitying me. Wholly and totally, pitying me.
I think I am okay with this. I think i've already made peace with myself and decided to overcome this obstacle and move forward to the next. And what does that mean for me? That means entering yet another race after this one. I don't know when and I don't know where. But sooner or later, I will have to be ready for a race and I will then be able to run it well and FINISH well and feel that I can add something more to my resume.
My boyfriend is home and that means confusion and chaos for me. But I am working hard to get through it all and it's working for me at the moment. I am much calmer and more noticeably organized than I was the last time he was home. I actually remember to wash the dishes each day. Now THAT, dear girl, is an accomplishment.
- Friday Aug 10, 2007
Still running around like a chicken with its head cut off...
Next year I will surely not take for granted the time during which my coworkers are on holidays. I will relish the time i'm given.
The race is fast approaching. Will I be ready? There is no possible way that I will be able to run the entire race. I've already resigned myself to that fact. That does not mean that I won't try, though. So we'll see how it goes and i'll train while I can and you know...just accomplish what I can and move on.
I don't really have much else to say, plus I have to get back to work anyways. So I hope everyone out there is doing great and if not - learn from MY mistakes!!!!
- Wednesday Aug 08, 2007
I knew i'd be kicking myself in the butt if I even mentioned the fact that July would slow down a bit. Gosh! I don't think i've stopped since I wrote my last entry. Yesterday after work I finally just slumped down on the couch and napped. Right after work and for a good couple of hours. Then I ate and went to bed.
Today I have a headache that is progressively getting worse and i'm not in a great mood. And i'm tired again. I'm getting nothing done!!! I hate these phases - and it's always like this for me. A good three weeks of nothing because i'm too drained to even pick up a dirty sock from the floor.
And so much to do - I need to start practicing my runs. I only have until the 26th to ensure I will be able to run this race. Oh, God, when I most need the motivation it totally deserts me! From where do I pull the energy I need???
- Friday Jul 27, 2007
I received a wonderful gift from above on Monday while playing ball. I *thought* I had just gotten another legcramp (yes, GG, I suffer from legcramps a lot!) but in fact it was closer to a charlie horse. Does everyone know what I mean? Cause I don't know how to explain it. Worse than a leg cramp though, but maybe that's only because i'm so used to leg cramps. Anyhow, so i'm still hurting from that and it's friday already! I can feel it in my lower calf though - it's really pissing me off!!
Oh well. Tonight I plan on doing some writing so will not be partaking in any form of exercise tonight. I also would like to look at getting another digital camera since the one I have now is broken beyond repair and is beyond warranty as well.
Now that it's the end of July, things are starting to slow down for me. It's not always go-go-go, and i'm hoping that will allow me to enjoy what is left of the summer and go into the fall with a calm mind and spirit. I've prioritized things that are most important to me, and i've come up with five altogether. That still might be too many, but we'll go with it for now and see how far I get before I burn out - again! Anyhow, I chose writing, learning and running. The running is obvious and i'm sure i've already mentioned to everyone here that it's important to me to determine what I can and cannot do in regards to running. I've also started to write in the last few years and am finding it to be a lot of fun and is making me open my eyes to certain areas of my life that I didn't realize were even there. The learning part has things to do with music and languages. I'm working on this part of my life, but it is definitely something that I want to embrace.
Breakfast: toast with strawberry jam Morning: yogurt Lunch: soup and a dinner roll Afternoon: mocha and a nutri-grain bar Dinner: possibly eating out due to the digital camera wanting thing.
- Wednesday Jul 25, 2007
Eeeeek, I need some jogging motivation fast!!! I haven't been out since Saturday, and I have to run the 5k on August 26th! Oh boy, I think i'm going to be letting some people down - namely those who have pledged me, like everyone at work plus my family and friends. Geez. I gotta get in the groove - send me some 'get moving' messages - please!!!
Breakfast: whole wheat toast with strawberry jam Morning: yogurt Lunch: salad with ranch dressing Afternoon: mocha, nutri-grain bar After work: another mocha Dinner: whole wheat toast with margarine, iced mocha
I'm so wired off of caffeine right now it's not even funny. I need to eat something too - had to watch a ball game tonight so I didn't make myself any supper. Now i'm pretty hungry. Bad move.
- Tuesday Jul 24, 2007
I was feeling so lonely on Sunday, my boyfriend had gone out of town to work and i'd been by myself for days. It was such a beautiful day outside too, so I decided that I was going to go suntanning. I decided on the right spot, and was about ready to take off when I realized that I didn't really have a good bathing suit to take with me. So I picked another location where i'd be able to stop off at a store to pick up a bathing suit. I tell 'ya, all my excuses for not going were being thrown out, one by one! It was great. Then, all of a sudden, I felt a terrible loneliness. It was so horrible that I had to sit down for a minute to wait it out.
I have these problems every now and then where life just seems to be far too overwhelming for me to actually accomplish anything. When I don't have a set schedule to follow, I end up doing nothing and feeling horrible about it. It just doesn't seem to matter what I try, my brain sort of shorts out and thanks for coming out but you can go on back home now.
Now what I did next is a first for me. I called one of my friends to see if she wanted to come with me. I hardly ever invite people to do things with me, so this was definitely something new. I really was desperate! Anyways, thank goodness she was going to the lake too, and we went together. All that sun made me feel 100% better about everything. The next day at work I felt on top of the world and breezed through the day like nothing! So after work I picked up some vitamin D and i'm going to try it out for a few weeks and see if it helps.
Breakfast: whole wheat toast with strawberry jam Morning: yogurt Lunch: tossed salad with ranch dressing Afternoon: nutri-grain bar Dinner: whole wheat pasta, tomato sauce, green peppers and salmon
Total July exercise: 11 hours & 31 minutes