- Wednesday Mar 19, 2008
I love how i'm just rearing to go every morning at work and can think of ten million things to do to kickstart my exercise routine, but by the time I get home at 5:00pm the only thing i'm ready for is bed. I'm having a busy day at work, but it's going alright, I don't really have much to complain about. My boyfriend's back so he's ensuring that the dogs are getting their exercise. He was absolutely astounded to see our little one, Zoe, had grown to what he called an 'enormous size'. I blamed my mother, saying she spoiled her when I was away on vacation. Then I said that because of my classes I hadn't been able to take enough time to walk her every day. Finally, after all that, I admitted sheepishly that I hadn't done a very good job of looking after the dogs and it had nothing to do with my mother or my classes or my friend's recent misery. I just didn't rise to the plate this time. He was okay with it, but I do recall him saying that she wasn't going to stay the size she was at, and ever since he's been running her quite laboriously. Well, it would be laborious for ME...
I'm walking to the gym tonight, then on the treadmill and walking home afterwards. We'll see how long it takes me, i've never actually walked to the gym before. Anyhow, it's over a week since i've been to the gym or done any sort of workout (I feel almost like i'm in confession at church -- Father, it's been two months since my last confession...) and I have a bad feeling i'm going to be sore tomorrow.
Rating for Monday - 5/10 (am I ever going to have a good day?!!)
Rating for Tuesday - 6/10 (only because I didn't have to work yesterday) __________________________________________________________________________
"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years." Abraham Lincoln
- Monday Mar 17, 2008
Another Monday here and almost gone...
The weekend was good, although I was fairly sick throughout Saturday and didn't do a whole lot besides dishes and laundry! I feel like I need an extended break (again) or a back massage or something. Probably the back massage would help.
I finally got groceries yesterday too, but celebrated by allowing my boyfriend to get soft ice cream for both of us from downtown. I did however balance this out by asking for plain vanilla and topping it with my own low-cal jar of peaches. It was actually pretty good. Go figure! I am going out for dinner tonight with a group of friends, then we are hitting the theatre for 'movie night'. I'll have to watch what I eat tonight because i've already had a lot today for lunch. I bought bread...and peanut butter...need I say more?!!
Friday - 7/10 (was in such a good mood because boyfriend was coming home)
Saturday - 4/10 (not a great mood because boyfriend was going out Sat night without me)
Sunday - 6/10 (pretty decent mood; got some things done)
Total exercise for March - 2 hours. Okay, i'm just going to stop doing this, okay? 'Cause, it's seriously bringing me down everytime I have to look at this number. Two. 2. Deux. Deuce. Duo. Pair. It's disgusting. And you know what else???? I'm pretty sure i've gained weight these last couple of weeks. Well, what did I expect???
- Friday Mar 14, 2008
Oh, I am so tired today. I got my 'monthly' last night and am seriously feeling the effects this morning. My hands won't stop shaking and my whole body seems to be layered in a cold sweat. I'm trying real hard to stay at work today, to persevere, but I just don't know how much longer I can take it! Oh well, hey?!
I had a long day on Wednesday, drove a total of about 8 hours and took in a seminar at another hospital. It's part of my course studies in management and leadership. I really enjoyed it, but it drained all of my energy for the rest of the week and that kind of sucks. The good news is that my boyfriend's coming home tonight!!! Yay!!! I can't wait, it's been almost three months since i've seen him. I just hope I don't bring him down with the pain i'm in!! :)
No exercising. What else is new?! I know my friend is eager to hit the gym though, so who knows what the weekend will bring. I am also eager to continue my running for the upcoming 5k, but I know that today it is probably not going to happen. Too much going on around here! At least i'm in a good mood though!!!
Rating for Tuesday - 4/10 (no exercise, extreme amounts of anxiety) Rating for Wednesday - 5/10 (no exercise but a good day all in all) Rating for Thursday - 3/10 (yeah, Thursday was bad)
Total exercise for March - oy, still 2 hours. I guess I suck at this exercise thing...
- Tuesday Mar 11, 2008
My friend's mother passed away yesterday morning, suddenly and pretty much without warning. They are still (last I heard) unsure of what caused her death, whether it was a stroke, or pneumonia, or what. I am so sad today, I feel so terrible for her family - they've gone through a lot of loss in the recent years and to have to deal with yet another - I just don't understand. I don't understand how some people can be so fortunate to not know death and others know death all too well.
No exercise, spent time with friend instead. Today, either she will call me after work or I will spend the evening studying for my seminar tomorrow. Off to bed as early as I can ('cause boy i'm tired today)and up at the crack of dawn to start my journey.
Rating for Monday - 3/10 (too much bad news yesterday)
Total exercise for March - 2 hours.
- Monday Mar 10, 2008
I'm a little tired today, not sure why because I should have gotten lots of sleep overnight - I went to bed at 10pm and didn't wake up until almost 7am. Maybe I got too much sleep. Anyways, the weekend was okay although I did nothing for exercise besides walking around on Saturday while shopping. Of course, I do not and will not count that as exercise. Friday was a whopping 8/10 because I managed to drag my butt to the gym for an hour. Saturday - 6/10 (no gym) and Sunday - 4/10 (no gym and a LOT of eating).
I'm glad it's Monday. I know some of you may be asking what the heck is wrong with my head for being glad it's Monday, but i'm finding that I am far more structured and I can stick to my diet during the week rather than on weekends. So i'm not sure how much I like weekends anymore. They sort of screw up any progress i've made during the week. Plus, I zone out on the weekends and accomplish nothing. I've been trying to buy groceries for two weeks now and I keep putting it off to the weekend - and it never gets done. This is the third week i'll have *needed* groceries.
It's going to be a busy week - tonight and tomorrow night I have to review my work for the seminar on Wednesday (which I need to drive about 7 hours in total for that day - yuck); Thursday night is kickboxing and Monday and Friday will probably be the gym/walking/jogging routine. I'm doing pretty good with it so far so I hope to keep it up. A friend said that she would enter the 5k race with me this year. I hope she does, because it's extra motivation to work at it if there's someone else to help and provide support. And if we do really well this year, maybe i'll even try the 10k next year! That would really be an accomplishment for me.
Total exercise for March - 2 hours. Oh, shut up.
- Friday Mar 07, 2008
I am glad that I decided to go out for supper last night with friends. It was very stress-relieving to hear about everyone else's problems instead of stewing on my own. Not that I don't feel for my friends and their problems....well, you know what I mean.
Um, what else did I do yesterday...
Yeah, I don't really know. My mind isn't following proper thinking process today. I'm supposed to go to the gym tonight so it'll be another jogging routine day since I can't seem to get them in at any other time of the week. Other than that...not much to say other than that i'd rather be sleeping.
Rating for Thursday - 7/10 (no exercise)
Exercise for March - 1 hour. Still.
- Thursday Mar 06, 2008
The clinic called me yesterday afternoon to let me know that my ultrasound appointment is scheduled for June 25th. JUNE???! Are you kidding me?!! I'm pretty sure that's what I said to her on the phone. What a waste. What a waste, what a waste, what a waste. I feel like i'm on the verge of breaking down, like this was the last straw. I went to the gym last night and did a light jogging routine. Okay, it was very light. Yes, I jogged, but not for very long. And very slowly. Almost like a fast-walk if you want me to be completely honest. And I think I complained the entire time I was there about having to workout. I can't believe my friend wants me to go again on Friday, i'm surprised she didn't write me off right there on the spot.
I am hoping that supper out with friends tonight will lift my spirits somewhat. But for right now, I need ibuprofen. So just let me complain, okay?!!
Rating for Tuesday - 7/10 (I made it to the gym, but I was extremely owly)
Exercise for March - 1 hour. Unbelievable.
- Wednesday Mar 05, 2008
So, I might be a sac of whimp, but I won't know for sure until I go for an ultrasound. The doctor told me that everything he tested me for turned out normal, so he wants to try doing an ultrasound. I have to wait for them to phone me to make an appointment. By that time i'll probably be back to normal!! People piss me off. Not you guys though :).
Gym tonight. I was going to take it easy, but screw that, i'm starting my 5k workouts again. Not that they're incredibly hard or anything.
Geez, i'm in a bad mood. I want to beat up a garbage can, but the ones here at work are too small. I wouldn't get any relief from it.
- Tuesday Mar 04, 2008
Thanks so much for all of your comments yesterday ladies, I really appreciate your concern and support. Although some of your entries terrified me, I realize that you're only educating me on the worst-case scenarios. I don't have a lot to say today, my doctor's appointment is at 4:30 and until then i'll be in limbo. Honestly, if he doesn't have an explanation for me, i'm going to whoop some serious doctor butt...
I feel depressed today, but I think maybe i'm just playing the poor me card. There isn't anything to be depressed about. I'm okay. I'm just scared: scared that it will be something serious, and scared that i'm just a sac of wimp and nothing's wrong with me at all.
Rating for Monday: 6/10 - I did the dishes yesterday, that's an improvement.
- Monday Mar 03, 2008
That "something bad" that I was dreading was going to happen last week happened on Friday night. I developed severe chest pains which at first I thought was just a really bad case of heartburn. And, in theory, I was right. The more I tried to let it pass, the worse it got. Finally, the pain was so terrible that it was making me physically sick and i'm sure I vomited the entire three meals I had eaten that day. I called a friend who came over with tums and flat 7-Up. They didn't work and around the same time my right arm lost some strength and the fingers in my right hand started tingling and going numb. After panicking and then ruling out a heart attack, my Dad and the friend who had come over decided it was in my best interest to force me to the hospital.
In conclusion, it was probably a gall bladder attack. But it sure felt like a heart attack. Wake up, legcramps. Wake up. I don't know why it happened - when I researched online I found that it normally occurs in Native Americans or Mexican Americans. I am neither. It occurs in overweight people. This is why i'm posting my weight today - I am not overweight for my height (5'6"), though I am pushing it a bit. I've been eating regular meals for a long time, nothing out of the ordinary. It's weird. I wonder if I brought something back with me from Mexico.
I'll find out more tomorrow when I see the doc about the test results - bloodwork and a chest x-ray. Chances are, he'll say i'm fine. If I ever go through that pain again, i'm going to go to his house and wrap my hands around his neck. Although, that probably won't hurt him because my right hand will have lost all its strength...
Taking it easy, going to read your entries and get through the workday today. Tonight I need to review my homework. No exercise :( March is starting off just great.
Rating for Friday: 2/10
Rating for Saturday: 5/10 (at least I moved around a bit and ate well because I was too scared to not eat well)
Rating for Sunday: 4/10 (my laziness caught up with me)