- Tuesday Dec 14, 2004
One beautiful December evening Huan Cho and his girlfriend Jung Lee were sitting by the side of the ocean. It was a romantic full moon, when Huan Cho said "Hey baby, let's play Weeweechu."
"Oh no, not now, lets look at the moon" said Jung Lee.
"Oh, c'mon baby, let's you and I play Weeweechu. I love you and it's the perfect time," Huan Cho begged.
"But I rather just hold your hand and watch the moon."
"Please Jung Lee, just once play Weeweechu with me."
Jung Lee looked at Huan Chi and said, "OK, we'll play Weeweechu."
Huan Cho grabbed his guitar and they both sang...
"Weeweechu a Merry Christmas, Weeweechu a Merry Christmas, Weeweechu a Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year." ______________________________________________________________________
Did I say I was on track yesterday?
Everything was going alright. I had a mug of tea, my regular piece of toast for breakfast, I made chicken with couscous and cooked carrots and celery, and had salad as well for dinner. Then I had dessert. An ice cream cup. Which is still alright, because they're low cal, low fat, and I think one cup is around 100cals. But then BF left and took the dog for a walk. Why didn't I just go with them????? NOOOO, instead I needed to have another ice cream cup. Why didn't I at least go downstairs (walk a measly 20 stairs) and do some exercising??? Instead I flitted between sitting on the couch and walking over to the chocolate jar. I had three pieces of chocolate before forcing myself to stop grazing. But that's not all...
About one hour later, bored and with nothing to do (of course, there's cleaning, laundry, wrapping, and dog grooming to do), I decide that i'm still hungry and make myself one of those microwave individual pizza things. And yes, I ate it all.
I feel terrible today and I know why. Mondays are my toughest challenge so far, just getting back on track after Sunday. I guess from now on i'll have to try and limit what I have on Sunday so that moving into Monday won't be so terribly hard. I almost feel like crying, but I know that it won't help and I know that this doesn't mean i'm a failure - but I sure feel like one right now, you know? I can sure forget about my wonderful low of 128.5 now.
The important thing is to keep going. Don't worry, I know, i've said it myself hundreds of times. And I will. But I just want to wallow in my misery and self-pity for just a little longer today.
Plan for today: 2 mugs tea, 2L water, vitamins, toast for breakfast, baby carrots, chicken with couscous, salad, cook dinner because there aren't enough leftovers (same thing as yesterday), do laundry, clean kitchen, wrap gifts, take dog for walk. If time after this (ya right), start cleaning living room and dining room area, and haul clothes upstairs where they're supposed to be, instead of on the stairs.
Have a good day everyone - this will be a great week!
- Monday Dec 13, 2004
I had an alright weekend, although yesterday I managed to throw all caution to the wind and have myself a mini-binge. I had a balogne sandwich on rye bread for lunch, then two pieces of pepperoni pizza, then a smokie on a piece of rye bread, and then two servings of chips. It's bound to happen, so i'm not going to beat myself up. I'll just try that much harder this coming weekend to ward off those evil spirits that have my taste buds at their mercy.
Anyhow, back at it today of course, and it looks like it may be a good day. It's only 9:15 here, but i'm going to go ahead and say it anyways. Tonight i'm cooking chicken, I have to do laundry and dishes, do the grocery shopping and keep on wrapping gifts. I got the rest of my shopping done on Saturday and now I have one gift left. Now I just have to wrap everything! This week i'm going to clean BF's place up so that we can start to look forward to Christmas instead of always thinking about what we still have to do/clean/prepare. At least the cleaning will be out of the way then. Since i'm off on Friday, i'm going to start my christmas baking as well. I'm on track this week ladies. Which means nasty TOM will rear it's head and threaten to throw me off. But this week, i'm ready for anything....
- Friday Dec 10, 2004
Oh Happy Day!
What six colours are on the classic Campbell's soup label?
Blue, red, white, yellow, black,& gold ______________________________________________________________________
I need to take measurements again, but i'm lazy so it will have to wait.
Yesterday, again, was a success. I'm on a roll (knock on wood): 1 mug tea, 2L water, 2pc toast, 2oz mozza cheese, 1c soup, a few baby carrots, 1c coffee with 1t sugar, 1 porkchop with 3/4c of corn, cooked carrots, and mushroom soup mix. I fully intended on making chicken, but when I looked in the freezer there was none to be had. I'm just about out of vegetables, too. And bread. It's grocery shopping time.
Today: 1pc toast with light margarine, 2 mugs tea, 2L water, 1/2 c soup, 1/2 tuna salad sandwich. Dinner will either be porkchops again or a sub on the way to wallyball tonight. 2 hours of that and i'll be wiped for the entire weekend.
This is how my day went yesterday: I got home around 5pm, started dinner, changed, suited up to go outside, took the dog with me and shovelled the driveway. By the time 6pm rolled around, BF was home from work and helped me out with the last of it. We got that done and then went inside to eat. After eating, BF took off to volleyball (we play at different times) and I suited up again and took Chewie for a walk. Well. What a walk it was. The sidewalks were piled high with snow and every road I chose to walk down seemed to be the busiest street in town! So we really roughed it, ploughing through the snow. Sometimes I would walk on the edge of the road and Chewie would choose to walk in the snow. We walked to my mother's and picked up some things I needed for the wedding next weekend, then headed back home. I was dead tired and sweating by the time we got back, and BF was already finished volleyball and back home! It was close to 8:30pm by then. No cleaning for me. Anyways, I got ready for volleyball and headed to the gym. It took half an hour for them to get the nets up (that just shows how 'recreational' our league is), so our games got pushed back as well, and I finished around 11pm. I was dragging my butt for the last 15 minutes! When I finally got home, I literally fell into bed. No relax time for me yesterday, and today doesn't look much better. Hope you are all having a wonderful Friday! Have a great weekend!
- Thursday Dec 09, 2004
What six colours are on the classic Campbell's soup label? ______________________________________________________________________
Day 3 of 13.
I had a wonderful day again yesterday, though not without some temptation: 1 cup fruit punch, 2 mugs tea, 2L water, 1pc toast with light margarine, 1c salad without dressing, 1oz turkey, 1/2 tuna salad sandwich, 1c soup. I also tried bites of a perogy, a meatball, and a few pieces of buttered popcorn. All said, I think I avoided temptation quite well yesterday.
Plan: 2 mugs tea, 2L water, 1pc toast, 1c soup, salad with chicken, carrots.
I need to do some cleaning up. The kitchen and the living room are in dire need of straightening, and Chewie's back porch definitely needs the vacuum rolled over it. I have volleyball tonight, but it doesn't start until 9pm so hopefully i'll get some cleaning in before that. I also have to pick up a camcorder tonight, cook dinner (chicken) and take Chewie for a walk. Here comes that feeling of hopelessness again.....
Watched the Bourne Supremacy (sp?) last night. I thought it was pretty good, just as good as the first one. We took Chewie for a walk and tried to wear him out. Unfortunately, I got worn out way before he did, so we had to run him back and forth between us so that he'd get more exercise. He was very excited about going for a walk last night because it was snowing and the ground was thick with it. He jumped around and played in it the whole time. That little puppy loves snow! I shouldn't say little - we weighed him last night on my scale and it shows that he's 35lbs already! Four months old. Imagine when he's a year old. I'm guessing he'll be around 60lbs in no time.
Here's to today - that it will be just as good as the beginning of the week was. Good luck all!
- Wednesday Dec 08, 2004
When you are sad.....I will dry your tears. When you are scared.....I will comfort your fears. When you are worried.....I will give you hope. When you are confused.....I will help you cope. And when you are lost....And can't see the light. I shall be your beacon.....Shining ever so bright. This is my oath.....I pledge till the end. Why you may ask?.....Because you're my friend. ______________________________________________________________________
Yesterday was so great: 2 mugs tea, 2pc toast with light margarine, 1c salad with ranch dressing, 2c baby carrots, a grilled ham and cheese sandwich, 1c coffee with 1t sugar. 2L water.
I went shopping and got a good amount of my christmas shopping done, and when I got home I even wrapped most of it. That makes me feel so much more in control of everything now.
Plan for today: 2 mugs tea, 1pc toast with light margarine, 1c soup, 2c salad, baby carrots, possibly a sandwich from the cafeteria. My lunch is paid for today, some sort of Christmas thank you from our employers. Works for me, but i'm not having anything I don't want!
Chewie was out at the farm the other day and got kicked HARD by a cow. Sure, he knows not to go near them now, but man I thought he was a goner. He was bleeding from the mouth and one of his eyes was dark red and puffy. Poor little thing got a lot of cuddling from me, that's for sure!
I couldn't help but weigh myself last night, and it read 129! At night! Stay strong everyone!
- Tuesday Dec 07, 2004
I found a penny today, just laying on the ground. But it's not just a penny, this little coin I've found.
Found pennies come from heaven, that's what my Grandpa told me. He said Angels toss them down. Oh, how I loved that story.
He said when an Angel misses you, they toss a penny down. Sometimes just to cheer you up, to make a smile from a frown.
So, don't pass by that penny, when you 're feeling blue. It may be a penny from heaven, that an Angel's tossed to you. ______________________________________________________________________
Day 2 of 13.
Yesterday I 'gave myself a little rope' (thanks smiley!) and had two bowls of soup instead of the chicken and corn that I was planning. I made the soup myself, with a little help from a litre of low sodium chicken broth. I made vegetable soup, and once I had the first bowl I couldn't help but pour myself another! I still made the chicken and beans actually instead of corn, and i'll probably have that today. Other than that, I was on plan yesterday and even had 3L of water!
Plan: 2 mugs tea, 2L water, 2pc toast with light margarine, salad and chicken, carrots.
Again I brought 1.5L of water and a mug of tea to work with me. I bought these 5 calorie certs the other day and opened them up and got a wickedly strong smell wafting towards my nose. Oy! They're black licorice flavored! I hate black licorice! What am I supposed to do with them now? Darn, such a good thing gone to waste, just like that.
I am not going to be ready for Christmas. I'm going out of my mind with panic. Oh, it hurts just thinking about everything I still need to do.
- Monday Dec 06, 2004
In April, Maya Angelou was interviewed by Oprah on her 70+ birthday. Oprah asked her what she thought of growing older. There on television, she said it was "exciting." Regarding body changes, she said there were many, occurring every day...like her breasts. They seem to be in a race to see which will reach her waist, first. The audience laughed so hard they cried. Maya Angelou said this:
"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."
"I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights."
"I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life."
"I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as "making a life."
"I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. "
"I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back."
"I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision."
"I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one."
"I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back."
"I've learned that I still have a lot to learn."
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." ______________________________________________________________________
I had a pretty decent weekend. Friday night for the stagette they pre-ordered food and I didn't have much of a choice in eating. There wasn't any salad either. It was all deep-fried stuff: onion rings, cauliflower, zuchinni, mozzasticks, mushrooms. And it was all with dip. I didn't have any dip, and I picked out 4 onion rings and a couple of other items, then called it a day. Not much for dinner, but i'd rather not eat anything than eat junk like that! I hate hate hate deep fried stuff (besides french fries, of course). Saturday I took it easy as well, had a ham and cheese sub on brown and a bowl of soup (chicken rice), then later on had another bowl of soup (cream of broccoli). Yesterday I had a 6" sub for lunch AND for dinner, and a bowl of soup afterwards. I also snacked on around three servings of chips while watching movies. I can't say that was great, but the weekend was far more a success than in other instances that I won't name.
Today's plan: carrots, 1pc toast with light margarine, chicken, possibly with corn, salad with mushrooms and light ranch dressing. 2L water. I brought a mug of tea and 1.5L of water to work with me.
I will stay on track today. I have only two more weeks until BF's brother's wedding. The countdown begins. Today is Day 1 of 13.
- Friday Dec 03, 2004
"You can say any foolish thing to a dog, and the dog will give you a look that says, 'My God, you're right! I never would've thought of that!'" --Dave Barry ______________________________________________________________________
Chewie gave me a look last night that said 'My God, I'm right! I AM smarter than you!'. And then I whistled at him and he cocked his head and stared at me. It's supposed to be his call to come. I think we're going through the terrible three-month's.
Yesterday: BF ate the rest of the chicken and potatoes, so I made hamburger helper for dinner and added a 5-grain bun to that. I drank 2L water and 2 mugs of tea.
Today: 2pc toast with light margarine, 2 5-grain buns and a large salad, possibly with grilled chicken. 2 mugs of tea and 2L water.
I changed my weight, but I probably shouldn't have. I weighed myself not this morning, but last night just before jumping in the shower after volleyball. I weighed 130 even then, so I know I must be under that, but I don't want to guess so i'll just change it to what my weigh-in was. Volleyball was great last night! I even remember getting into my car to go home afterwards and thinking I wouldn't want to play with any other team. We just clicked, and even though I think we only won half our games, we were playing really well together. I got two huge spikes, was set up perfectly for them, and laid to waste the opposition. It was such a great feeling, especially since my spiking has been lacking in everything, including talent.
Tonight is the stagette; hopefully i'll be able to get some dancing in, and tomorrow i'll be christmas shopping in the city. The weather is good today - 6 degrees celsius is the high, but it will probably start raining later on, which means it might get icy tonight.
- Thursday Dec 02, 2004
"Oh, you hate your job? Why didn't you say so? There's a support group for that. It's called EVERYBODY, and they meet at the bar." --Drew Carey ______________________________________________________________________
I don't want to complain in here, but i'm really p'd off right now. I'm stuck in a tight spot, catch 22, and right now I really hate my job. The lines of communication have gone dead, and i'm stuck sitting at the other end of the phone repeating over and over 'hello?'....'hello?'.
Yesterday: 2L water, 2 cinnamin buns, 2pc toast with light margarine, 2oz roasted chicken and 1c potatoes, 1c salad with mushrooms and light ranch dressing, 1 mug tea.
Thanks becca, the cinnamin buns are gone now. I told BF that if he didn't eat them I was going to throw them away. He ate them, pdq too!
Today: 2pc toast with light margarine, 2oz chicken, 1c potatoes, 1c salad with mushrooms and light ranch dressing. 3L water, 2 mugs tea.
I brought a mug of green tea and 1.5L water to work with me this morning, and I plan on not leaving at lunchtime until all the containers are empty. I even remembered to take my vitamins this morning.
I was having problems this morning logging on to the site, so that's why i'm journaling so much later. I have 2.5 hours of volleyball to play tonight, whoosh i'll be exhausted after that. I also have a decision to make tomorrow....
I have a stagette to attend on Friday night. We'll be going out for dinner (i'll order a salad), but we'll also be kicking it up in the bars. My choices are: limited number of drinks, no drinks at all, out and out drinking binge. The problem with all of these choices? Limitations are not my strength, nothing at all means i'll be getting hassled for brown-nosing (BF's mother will be there), drinking binge - well, we all know what the problem with that is. I made the decision yesterday to not drink at all, but my mind changes as fast as lightning strikes the earth. I'm just at such a loss right now - I can't make decisions very well and this is a big one for me.
Well, I suppose time will tell. Have a wonderful, strong day today my fellow diarists.
- Wednesday Dec 01, 2004
A little girl had been shopping with her Mom in Wal-Mart. She must have been 6 years old, this beautiful red haired, freckle faced image of innocence. It was pouring outside. The kind of rain that gushes over the top of rain gutters, so much in a hurry to hit the earth it has no time to flow down the spout. We all stood there under the awning and just inside the door of the Wal-Mart. We waited, some patiently, others irritated because nature messed up their hurried day. The little voice was so sweet...
"Mom, let's run through the rain," she said.
"What?" Mom asked.
"Let's run through the rain!" She repeated.
"No, honey. We'll wait until it slows down a bit," Mom replied.
This young child waited about another minute and repeated: "Mom, let's run through the rain."
"We'll get soaked if we do," Mom said.
"No, we won't, Mom. That's not what you said this morning," the young girl said.
"This morning? When did I say we could run through the rain and not get wet?"
"Don't you remember? When you were talking to Daddy about his cancer, you said, "If God can get us through this, he can get us through anything!"
The entire crowd stopped dead silent. I swear you couldn't hear anything but the rain. We all stood silently. No one came or left in the next few minutes. Mom paused and thought for a moment about what she would say. Now some would laugh it off and scold her for being silly...Some might even ignore what was said. But this was a moment of affirmation in a young child's life. A time when innocent trust can be nurtured so that it will bloom into faith.
"Honey, you are absolutely right. Let's run through the rain. If GOD let's us get wet, well maybe we just needed washing," Mom said.
Then off they ran. We all stood watching, smiling and laughing as they darted past the cars and yes, through the puddles. They held their shopping bags over their heads just in case. They got soaked. But they were followed by a few who screamed and laughed like children all the way to their cars.
Yesterday: too much pizza, 6" ham and cheese sub on whole wheat, toast and peanut butter, coffee, cinammin bun.
Today so far: toast with light margarine, cinammin bun.
I need to make dinner tonight because otherwise i'll be eating that microwave pizza 'til the sun goes down. Went to grandma's house yesterday and brought back cinammin buns and 5-grain dinner buns. Like I needed more bread products. The coming weekend is fast approaching and i'm feeling like i've got nothing to show for the week. There has been no hard work on my part, no effort shown to exercise, no dog walking no nothing! Chewie was out at the farm all day yesterday and was so tired when he came home that he layed on top of me and fell right asleep. Gosh, he was even snoring! There was no way I was going to get him up to go for a walk. I'm glad he's at least getting HIS exercise....
I think that pizza is making me feel really blah today. I HAVE to stop eating that stuff. Mind over matter....
Okay, all I need to do to get back on track is drink some water. It's that simple. So start gulping.