- Tuesday Jul 20, 2004
Hello all. My day yesterday was another rollercoaster of emotions. I have to learn to let some things go; not everything can be the way you want it to be...
I played ball last night and worked off some major calories running around. It was extremely humid last night, so you can imagine how much I was sweating. Put our team together and who needs a lake??? We just formed one ourselves. Ew, picture that. Swimming in sweat. Yuck.
Afterwards I had a shower and watched a movie. I wanted to sit in the pool again, but once I was home I was not leaving for anything, that's how darn lazy I am!
Today is looking nice so far, the skies are clear and very blue, and the sun is streaming down. I'm inside where the a/c is running out of control and i'm freezing, but i'm hoping that when I go outside for lunch it will be nice and warm and i'll be cozy again for a while. Tonight i'll be watching fastball out of town. I want to do some cleaning because my Dad is coming to visit on Saturday and I desperately need to clean up! So maybe some of that tonight, if I can get my boyfriend to help me.
That's all - pb & j on whole wheat bun for breakfast, chicken and veggies for lunch, chicken and bacon wrap for dinner (had one yesterday - darn they're good! And low carb!) and an orange for luck.
- Monday Jul 19, 2004
The weekend was a rough one for me. It figures too, because it was probably the most beautiful weekend weather-wise that we've had this way in a long time. I got sick on Friday afternoon and had to leave work early to go home and sleep. I didn't do anything on Friday night besides watch t.v. I ate a whole ham and turkey 12" sub all by myself, and sour cream and onion chips because I felt sorry for myself. Yes, emotional eater I am.
Saturday my boyfriend had to leave to work out of town until Monday; I tried to get up and move around but I was still sick and just not in the mood. I had a chicken sandwich and fries for lunch and for supper. I then was starting to feel better, so I phoned up a friend to go for coffee. She was on her way to another friend's place for a housewarming, which upset me because I wasn't invited to this housewarming party; to be specific, I was the only person from our 'group' of friends that wasn't invited. I got really upset (emotions were running wild that night) and felt even more sorry for myself. I just tried to go to sleep as best I could, and when my boyfriend showed up at my doorstep the next morning, I fell into his arms, crying my heart out. He listened to me cry for a bit, then basically told me to suck it up and we went golfing.
Last night, because of the heat, we decided to buy a paddling pool. Found a nice enough one, set it up in my boyfriend's backyard and filled it up. It was great! So nice after walking around golfing in 30 celsius heat! We must've sat out there for hours! I slept really well last night, and now here I am, ready for Monday! Well, not really 'ready' because i'm still kinda tired and i'd rather be sleeping, but you know what I mean! Okay, stop rambling!
- Friday Jul 16, 2004
I feel not great today.
I'm retaining fluid like crazy, must be 'that time' of the month. And yesterday I did not do very well at all. And i'm going to blame my boyfriend for that. Yes I am.
He suprised me and came home yesterday, was here by lunchtime. I was very pleased to see him! What a great suprise! We went out for lunch and I had breaded chicken bites, a few fries and water. I ate half and saved half. Then my boyfriend told me I should try and get the rest of the day off. And I pretty much was able to. So I drove over to his place and -0-0-0-0- ate the rest of my lunch. I'm not sure why. There was probably around 700 calories just in lunch. Then we played some catch and went for a cruise. He had to play fastball last night, so we grabbed something to eat on the way out of town. I had a cheeseburger, a few sips of rootbeer, and water. I only ended up drinking about 2.5 litres of water yesterday. That was all I ate thank goodness, besides a few seeds while watching ball, but that was definitely enough to do the job. When I got up this morning, I was 2 pounds heavier than the last time I weighed. Okay, I know I need to exercise more, but I WAS eating fine up until yesterday. Two pounds HEAVIER? It's just not fair.
It's hard to keep that motivation going strong now, especially since it seems to be so NOT worthwhile anymore. My goal is to feel good, but if it means having my spirits drop everytime I see a gain - then it's not happening, is it?
Re-evaluation time. Again.
- Thursday Jul 15, 2004
Hello all! I had a good day yesterday, and I can feel the weight slipping off. Tomorrow morning is weigh-in day, and I hope I don't screw up today!
I ran around during slo-pitch yesterday so much that I thought I was going to puke. No lie. One inning while walking out to left field (they throw me around everywhere!) to play, I almost turned around and walked my old tired body home! I pitched after that, thank God. It was a little too much for me, but i'm sure I needed the exercise.
Yesterday I had a whole wheat bun with pb & j for breakfast, grilled chicken, brocolli and cauliflower for lunch and grilled chicken and corn for dinner. During the game I had 2 beer. I thought I deserved them, for being good for a couple days (!!) and also for drinking 4 litres of water.
Today i've had my bun for breakfast and i've got leftover chicken and corn in the fridge for lunch. I brought 3 litres of water to work with me and i'm hoping to be able to finish them, but so far I haven't even opened a bottle up! Okay, let's get to work....
- Wednesday Jul 14, 2004
See, my boyfriend is out of town working, see. I'm a complete slob whenever he's not around. I say this because I didn't do any exercising yesterday except for the minute amount of walking and work it took to do the dishes.
Yesterday I ate 6 soda crackers with pb, a roast beef sandwich in an onion bun (it wasn't good, but very filling), a chicken breast with cooked brocolli and cauliflower, 1/2 an orange and a whole wheat bun with pb and j. I drank around 4 litres of water.
Today I get to play slo-pitch, so hopefully i'll get some exercise in that regard. I'm trying again to drink a lot of water during the day so that i'm not running to the bathroom during the games tonight. So far, 1 litre down. I had a whole wheat bun with pb and j for breakfast and i'm having leftover chicken and veggies for lunch and dinner today. 1/2 an orange in the afternoon, you know the plan. It's always the same! But, for me, that's okay. I love repetition. And I love complaining about it, too.
Hope you're all doing well.
- Tuesday Jul 13, 2004
I was really in a slump yesterday. Everything hurt, I was grumpy and bored almost all night, and all I wanted to do was eat. You'll be happy to know that I didn't give in.
Yesterday I had 1/2 slice garlic toast, 3 breaded chicken fingers, 1/2 baked potato with butter, 1/2 cup of bean and carrots, 1/2 slice of honeydew melon, a whole package of brussel sprouts with sauce, one breast of chicken, one flax bun (still gotta get you that recipe biscotti, I keep forgetting!) with p.b. and jam, and 1/2 cup spitz while watching a fastball game.
I could've eaten a heck of a lot more than that last night, but I held out and thank goodness I did. I didn't drink a lot of water yesterday, only 2 litres, so hopefully today I can make up for that. I was not in a good mood yesterday. At all. Today it's supposed to be beautiful out. My plan is to get either soup or a sub for lunch today (no more leftovers!), an orange for the afternoon (didn't eat mine yesterday - maybe that's why I got so hungry) and a trip to the grocery store for dinner. Salmon? Perhaps.
I took a walk yesterday and I want to take another one today. Maybe try to jog too. We have a beautiful park nearby and it's a perfect spot to work on jogging. Bye all!
- Monday Jul 12, 2004
Ho ho, and the number magically gets smaller...
I did good this weekend. Friday night I went to a friend's place for a bbq and had one hot dog, salad with ranch dressing, one tablespoon of mashed potatoes and 1/2 slice white bread. I went out that night to the bar, and when I got home I ended up having 1/2 a serving of sunchips just because they were in the cupboard and I knew that. Saturday went well, I had chicken and veggies for lunch and for dinner, another orange and the other 1/2 serving of sunchips. I went out again this night, and didn't get to sleep until 8:30 Sunday morning! I had two scrambled eggs and 1/2 slice brown toast with jam and peanut butter on Sunday morning at A&W. Far cry from the momma burger with cheese and medium fries that I usually get, huh?! The rest of Sunday was good too. I had chicken and carrots for lunch and then I got to go out to a restaurant to eat dinner. My one day a week out to eat turned into three days this week (counting the bbq and the A&W breakfast). Oh well. At the restaurant I had salad with ranch dressing and a tomato slice, two breaded chicken fingers with dill dip, 1/2 a baked potato with butter and 1/2 a slice of garlic bread. I basically tried to split the meal in half so that I could have the other part of it today for lunch. Oh, I also had 1/2 slice of melon. Then my boyfriend and I went to the movies and I had three cups of popcorn without butter or salt. Plain popcorn. Ugh. But, it makes the difference. The little things you have to give up sometimes. So all in all, a great weekend.
Today I had 1/2 slice garlic bread for breakfast and you already know what i'm having for lunch. Dinner is leftover chicken with brussel sprouts. And an orange for a snack this afternoon. Have a good one!
- Friday Jul 09, 2004
Lost a little bit more, but still not at that magical mark yet. Biscottibody, i'll get that recipe to you next week, okay?
Yesterday was a good day. I had: 3 egg whites for breakfast, chicken breast and potatoes for lunch, a HUGE orange in the afternoon for a snack. I mean HUGE. Then chicken and cooked vegetables for dinner. I don't know how many calories are in each package of cooked veggies, but I ate the whole thing. I was very hungry last night! It's a miracle I didn't eat more! But anyways, i'm not done yet....
I then had to attend a meeting, where I had a vodka paralyzer. After that, although I swore to myself that I wouldn't go out and I would get my butt home and do the dishes, I got a phone call from a old schoolfriend and he wanted to go for a drink. Three beers, a peanut butter and jam flax bun later and a pouty jealous boyfriend in tow, I finally hit the sack. Without, might I add, doing the dishes.
I was really tired yesterday afternoon, very sluggish and just wanting to go home and sleep. I wonder what today will bring, as so far I feel fine. I didn't get as much sleep as usual, but I still feel okay. Depending on how i'm feeling this afternoon, I might want to try not getting so much sleep. Maybe that's the problem?
- Thursday Jul 08, 2004
I did pretty good yesterday, considering. I ate: 1 twix chocolate bar, two flax buns with peanut butter and jam spread, leftover cooked onions (1/4 cup) and a couple potato slices (cooked), a fruit arrangement in the afternoon (strawberries, grapes, melon and an orange slice), and grilled chicken with potatos for dinner. I also drank 3.5 litres of water.
For exercise, I played slo-pitch for one and a half hours. I will count only half an hour of exercise for this, since last night I wasn't running around half as much as I normally do. This was because they stuck me on the pitcher's mound instead of in the field. Oh well. I also snuck in three beer while playing. After ball, I went for a 45 minute brisk walk. I accomplished everything I set out to do last night! I just can't believe it.
I feel good today, even though the weather is terrible. I think it might be because I didn't weigh myself down with late night eating and too much caffeine. I'm starting on the water and I brought 3 litres with me to work, so hopefully I can make the 3.5 mark again today.
I also lost a pound and a half so far, but i'm not posting it because i'm still not back to 141. Ah, soon tiny grasshopper....soon.
- Wednesday Jul 07, 2004
Thanks borntocry for the info. I'm going to check out that website just as soon as I can!
I failed miserably yesterday by heading out for fast food - AGAIN! I tell you something right now - IT'S GOING TO STOP!!! Right now! Starting today. I'm sick of stuffing myself and then feeling horrible the next day. I'm now officially only eating out on Sundays. The good thing about yesterday was that I sucked down a lot of water during the day.
I'm also going to start exercising today. I found out about water aerobics in another town about 1/2 hour away and i'm going to check that out next week and see if it's something I could do. But today, i'm going to take a walk. Right after work i'm going to drive to the grocery store and get some food for supper. While it's marinating i'm going to take a quick walk around, for about 1/2 hour. Then eat supper, play slo-pitch and tonight go for another quick 1/2 hour walk before setting out to do the dishes. My goal is to get at least 6 hours of exercise each week. If I exercise everyday for one hour, that gives me one day a week off.
This morning I feel clear-headed and I feel like I know what I need to do. This is a great feeling, I only hope it lasts for at least 10 days, to start these good habits!!