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legcramps - Friday Mar 28, 2008

Weight: 147.0

Nothing much has changed in the last week or so since I last journalled here. I'm still stuck in a rut that I can't seem to get myself out of - it seems never-ending. Lots of other things going on in life, but on the exercise and diet front - well, like I said - nothing much to say. I've had a cold for the past few days (I was even off work for a day because of it) so i'm waiting for it to pass. I can't even think straight. Is it just me, or does everyone's brain go fuzzy when they're sick??? I catch myself making mistakes almost every hour on the hour at work. Sometimes I don't even catch mistakes, but they're brought to me by other people. I didn't think one person could make this many mistakes, honestly. I'm doing fine at home, but that's only because i'm not doing anything!!!

I hope to rest and get over this cold on Saturday and Sunday. I don't have a lot planned for the weekend, so I shouldn't have a problem resting. I think I might head to bed early tonight, but I can't say for sure. Things just don't go quite as well as I say they should these days. Throughout my cold and throughout the days where i'm feeling a little like a stuffed pig, at least i'm hanging onto my sanity and humor. I am not in a depression and that is a good thing. It means there is hope out there on the horizon; hope that I will soon turn it around and start making better choices. My hope is that it will happen sooner, rather than later.

crategrl on 03/28/2008:
Hope you start feeling better. I get the fuzzy feeling all the time when i have a head cold. Not a good thing.

thinnsidenotout on 03/28/2008:
Get some rest and clarity will come.....along with healing....

Have a wonderful weekend!

mmuraro on 03/28/2008:
Rest plenty and seems will look better! Xo.

Beth201P on 03/28/2008:
Darn...I hope you are feeling better real soon. Get lots of rest and drink lots and lots of fluids.(((Hugs)))

mylifechanges on 03/28/2008:
aww..be sure to get lots of rest this weekend...i hope you start feeling better soon! :)

legcramps - Thursday Mar 20, 2008

Weight: 147.0

I'm kind of glad it's Thursday and I have the next four days off work, but if this day doesn't end soon I don't know what i'll do. I might just go off my rocker today. No reason. Maybe too much coffee.

I can't believe it, you guys, my friend ditched on me yesterday and then I ditched on myself. No gym, no walk, no nothing!! I was thinking about it this morning, how easy it is to say that i'll do something and then afterwards wondering how the heck I thought I was going to accomplish it. I'm so stuck - I obviously care because i'm here, right? But for the last three months i've been formulating exercise plans while eating dinner, complaining about my weight while having a snack and thinking about running while playing games on the computer or watching t.v. I am so sick of this. I don't want to move today; my body feels heavy and sluggish. It's bizarre because I know how to motivate myself and I know what I need to do, but I just can't get to that point of actually doing it. Nike. Just do it. But it's WAY easier said than done! I'm just not there yet.

Rating for Wednesday - 2/10 (might as well stop the rating thing, too...)

thinnsidenotout on 03/20/2008:
The rating thing is just part of who you are....The day is'nt over with yet.... YOu still have time to change something to make yourself maybe feel better.... Hey!....knock it off...Your alive & breathing....Hang in there!!!!

Beth201P on 03/21/2008:
Hang in there. I know just how you feel.

legcramps - Wednesday Mar 19, 2008

Weight: 147.0

I love how i'm just rearing to go every morning at work and can think of ten million things to do to kickstart my exercise routine, but by the time I get home at 5:00pm the only thing i'm ready for is bed. I'm having a busy day at work, but it's going alright, I don't really have much to complain about. My boyfriend's back so he's ensuring that the dogs are getting their exercise. He was absolutely astounded to see our little one, Zoe, had grown to what he called an 'enormous size'. I blamed my mother, saying she spoiled her when I was away on vacation. Then I said that because of my classes I hadn't been able to take enough time to walk her every day. Finally, after all that, I admitted sheepishly that I hadn't done a very good job of looking after the dogs and it had nothing to do with my mother or my classes or my friend's recent misery. I just didn't rise to the plate this time. He was okay with it, but I do recall him saying that she wasn't going to stay the size she was at, and ever since he's been running her quite laboriously. Well, it would be laborious for ME...

I'm walking to the gym tonight, then on the treadmill and walking home afterwards. We'll see how long it takes me, i've never actually walked to the gym before. Anyhow, it's over a week since i've been to the gym or done any sort of workout (I feel almost like i'm in confession at church -- Father, it's been two months since my last confession...) and I have a bad feeling i'm going to be sore tomorrow.

Rating for Monday - 5/10 (am I ever going to have a good day?!!)

Rating for Tuesday - 6/10 (only because I didn't have to work yesterday) __________________________________________________________________________

"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years." Abraham Lincoln

thinnsidenotout on 03/19/2008:
Yes, you are going to have a good day....!! SOME DAY!.....

I have a doggie named Zoee to.... just one more "e" than yours....

Have a wonderful walk/gym time....

mmuraro on 03/19/2008:
it's okay, the soreness will make you feel good for having gone. :)

Beth201P on 03/19/2008:
Have a great day and you can do it. Have a good walk.

CritterMom on 03/20/2008:
Have you had your Zoe's thyroid checked? Sometimes the weigh gain is caused by a malfunctioning thyroid, and not so much the lack of exercise. Might be worth having it checked next time she's at the vet.

shadetree on 03/22/2008:
Say three Hail Mary's...

One day at a time, that's all you can do. Have a good weekend!

legcramps - Monday Mar 17, 2008

Weight: 147.0

Another Monday here and almost gone...

The weekend was good, although I was fairly sick throughout Saturday and didn't do a whole lot besides dishes and laundry! I feel like I need an extended break (again) or a back massage or something. Probably the back massage would help.

I finally got groceries yesterday too, but celebrated by allowing my boyfriend to get soft ice cream for both of us from downtown. I did however balance this out by asking for plain vanilla and topping it with my own low-cal jar of peaches. It was actually pretty good. Go figure! I am going out for dinner tonight with a group of friends, then we are hitting the theatre for 'movie night'. I'll have to watch what I eat tonight because i've already had a lot today for lunch. I bought bread...and peanut butter...need I say more?!!


Friday - 7/10 (was in such a good mood because boyfriend was coming home)

Saturday - 4/10 (not a great mood because boyfriend was going out Sat night without me)

Sunday - 6/10 (pretty decent mood; got some things done)

Total exercise for March - 2 hours. Okay, i'm just going to stop doing this, okay? 'Cause, it's seriously bringing me down everytime I have to look at this number. Two. 2. Deux. Deuce. Duo. Pair. It's disgusting. And you know what else???? I'm pretty sure i've gained weight these last couple of weeks. Well, what did I expect???

mmuraro on 03/17/2008:
Back massage! You said it! :) Well, the good news is that you can act quickly and get this deux out of your posts. :) Xo.

Beth201P on 03/17/2008:
Wow...sounds like fun. I have not had a friends night for a long time. Have a good time. Enjoy yourself. You seem to be doing very well. Hugs.

borntocry on 03/18/2008:
Same here, babe... same here.

legcramps - Friday Mar 14, 2008

Weight: 147.0

Oh, I am so tired today. I got my 'monthly' last night and am seriously feeling the effects this morning. My hands won't stop shaking and my whole body seems to be layered in a cold sweat. I'm trying real hard to stay at work today, to persevere, but I just don't know how much longer I can take it! Oh well, hey?!

I had a long day on Wednesday, drove a total of about 8 hours and took in a seminar at another hospital. It's part of my course studies in management and leadership. I really enjoyed it, but it drained all of my energy for the rest of the week and that kind of sucks. The good news is that my boyfriend's coming home tonight!!! Yay!!! I can't wait, it's been almost three months since i've seen him. I just hope I don't bring him down with the pain i'm in!! :)

No exercising. What else is new?! I know my friend is eager to hit the gym though, so who knows what the weekend will bring. I am also eager to continue my running for the upcoming 5k, but I know that today it is probably not going to happen. Too much going on around here! At least i'm in a good mood though!!!

Rating for Tuesday - 4/10 (no exercise, extreme amounts of anxiety) Rating for Wednesday - 5/10 (no exercise but a good day all in all) Rating for Thursday - 3/10 (yeah, Thursday was bad)

Total exercise for March - oy, still 2 hours. I guess I suck at this exercise thing...

MsKitty on 03/14/2008:
HANG IN THERE! TOM almost killed my diet this month... dont let it get to you. You can do it.

Beth201P on 03/14/2008:
Hope you are feeling better. Have a good weekend.

shadetree on 03/14/2008:
So glad your boyfriend's coming home! YAY! (Just curious, what does he do that he's gone for three months at a stretch?) Enjoy!

smiley2 on 03/17/2008:
Hi, just checking in...good luck with seeing your boyfriend again, its always nerverwrecking but also exciting at the same time :)

legcramps - Tuesday Mar 11, 2008

Weight: 147.0

My friend's mother passed away yesterday morning, suddenly and pretty much without warning. They are still (last I heard) unsure of what caused her death, whether it was a stroke, or pneumonia, or what. I am so sad today, I feel so terrible for her family - they've gone through a lot of loss in the recent years and to have to deal with yet another - I just don't understand. I don't understand how some people can be so fortunate to not know death and others know death all too well.

No exercise, spent time with friend instead. Today, either she will call me after work or I will spend the evening studying for my seminar tomorrow. Off to bed as early as I can ('cause boy i'm tired today)and up at the crack of dawn to start my journey.

Rating for Monday - 3/10 (too much bad news yesterday)

Total exercise for March - 2 hours.

thinnsidenotout on 03/11/2008:
Sorry!..... I know what it is to lose someone (mother-in-law) totally unprepared for and it is not easy..... Prayers/Thoughts are with you and your friends family....

yaz on 03/11/2008:
very sorry to hear that. it's never easy to deal with =(

mmuraro on 03/11/2008:
Sorry to hear about your friend's mom. Rest and give yourself a break today. Have a good night.

hanna_llll on 03/11/2008:
every day there is a new will, renew your goal for each day every morning and you feel much better.

Beth201P on 03/11/2008:
I am so sorry to hear about your friends mother. It is never easy to lose someone we love. My prayers go out to you and your friends family at this time of loss. Get some rest. Hugs

legcramps - Monday Mar 10, 2008

Weight: 147.0

I'm a little tired today, not sure why because I should have gotten lots of sleep overnight - I went to bed at 10pm and didn't wake up until almost 7am. Maybe I got too much sleep. Anyways, the weekend was okay although I did nothing for exercise besides walking around on Saturday while shopping. Of course, I do not and will not count that as exercise. Friday was a whopping 8/10 because I managed to drag my butt to the gym for an hour. Saturday - 6/10 (no gym) and Sunday - 4/10 (no gym and a LOT of eating).

I'm glad it's Monday. I know some of you may be asking what the heck is wrong with my head for being glad it's Monday, but i'm finding that I am far more structured and I can stick to my diet during the week rather than on weekends. So i'm not sure how much I like weekends anymore. They sort of screw up any progress i've made during the week. Plus, I zone out on the weekends and accomplish nothing. I've been trying to buy groceries for two weeks now and I keep putting it off to the weekend - and it never gets done. This is the third week i'll have *needed* groceries.

It's going to be a busy week - tonight and tomorrow night I have to review my work for the seminar on Wednesday (which I need to drive about 7 hours in total for that day - yuck); Thursday night is kickboxing and Monday and Friday will probably be the gym/walking/jogging routine. I'm doing pretty good with it so far so I hope to keep it up. A friend said that she would enter the 5k race with me this year. I hope she does, because it's extra motivation to work at it if there's someone else to help and provide support. And if we do really well this year, maybe i'll even try the 10k next year! That would really be an accomplishment for me.

Total exercise for March - 2 hours. Oh, shut up.

thinnsidenotout on 03/10/2008:
I am way more excited to see Mondays than I am to see Saturdays.... My M-F is pretty structured and my weekends are hectic with "have-to's/need-to's" and I no longer get started and the weekend is GONE!!!!

You better go get some groceries.....THIS WEEK SOMETIME! :}

Good Day!

mmuraro on 03/10/2008:
I too need a trip to the store. My friend was laughing at me last night when i told him I was running out of everything, so to have a full milk and cereal cup for dinner last night, i had to put half milk and half soy milk and half all bran and half granola. Hahahahahahaha

Too bad you are starting not to like weekends because of that though. Come up with a plan to make it as structured as the weekdays as far as your diet goes and also enjoy your free time. Weekends for me are the best, because I have more time to exercise AND also rest and do fun things and I can eat whatever I choose to, because I am not restricted to work's cafeteria or somewhere we go get lunch at.

And last but not least, I am not saying you should just walk at the mall instead of exercising, but i do think it's a great alternative when you can't or don't feel like working out. At least you're not sitting at home!

Have a great week!

MsKitty on 03/10/2008:
I am totally there with ya on the mondays thing. Weekends are always my time to relax... but I always end up screwing up really bad... and Mondays are my weigh in days.... so I feel really bad when I dont see anychanges.... but once Wednesdays come I always see a change... maybe I should just change mondays to wednesday weigh instead....hmmm thats a good idea thank you...lol

legcramps - Friday Mar 07, 2008

Weight: 147.0

I am glad that I decided to go out for supper last night with friends. It was very stress-relieving to hear about everyone else's problems instead of stewing on my own. Not that I don't feel for my friends and their problems....well, you know what I mean.

Um, what else did I do yesterday...

Yeah, I don't really know. My mind isn't following proper thinking process today. I'm supposed to go to the gym tonight so it'll be another jogging routine day since I can't seem to get them in at any other time of the week. Other than that...not much to say other than that i'd rather be sleeping.

Rating for Thursday - 7/10 (no exercise)

Exercise for March - 1 hour. Still.

yaz on 03/07/2008:
Friends can be very helpful when it comes to relieving stress =) Enjoy your friday! BTW I would also rather be sleeping!

mmuraro on 03/07/2008:
I'm sleepy too! :)

feeleebubs on 03/07/2008:
I like to hear about everyone elses problems sometimes too. It just sucks when you have a friend who ONLY wants to talk about their problems and NEVER wants to listen to yours.

workingit2 on 03/08/2008:
Yay on a great night out! Have a good day!

smiley2 on 03/09/2008:
Helooooo, id rather be sleeping too right about now! :) Wx

legcramps - Thursday Mar 06, 2008

Weight: 147.0

The clinic called me yesterday afternoon to let me know that my ultrasound appointment is scheduled for June 25th. JUNE???! Are you kidding me?!! I'm pretty sure that's what I said to her on the phone. What a waste. What a waste, what a waste, what a waste. I feel like i'm on the verge of breaking down, like this was the last straw. I went to the gym last night and did a light jogging routine. Okay, it was very light. Yes, I jogged, but not for very long. And very slowly. Almost like a fast-walk if you want me to be completely honest. And I think I complained the entire time I was there about having to workout. I can't believe my friend wants me to go again on Friday, i'm surprised she didn't write me off right there on the spot.

I am hoping that supper out with friends tonight will lift my spirits somewhat. But for right now, I need ibuprofen. So just let me complain, okay?!!

Rating for Tuesday - 7/10 (I made it to the gym, but I was extremely owly)

Exercise for March - 1 hour. Unbelievable.

mcwoo40 on 03/06/2008:
Hiya,Hope the pain has died down.I've had my gall bladder out 5yrs ago due to having gallstones.When i had the scan it showed one large stone by the time i got my op 11months later the stones had broken into 4 pieces and that what was causing the pain.I was on morphine when i got rushed in.Then i started with pancreatitis,lost 14lbs in 11days.Just cut down on your fats or foods that will trigger pain.Take care,Julie

mmuraro on 03/06/2008:
You can complain as much as you want. And dont be picking on yourself now. :)

thinnsidenotout on 03/06/2008:
Are you kidding ME?.....Good Lord!..... I hate to tell anybody to go on about their business and wait to see if it happened again, but personally I would go on my normal routine and if it happened again, DEMAND an answer and not wait 3 months for any ultrasound...Obviously they are'nt that concerned that it is anything serious...

Are you feeling fine now, other than downhearted and down-n-out about not knowing what happened?

YOu can complain!!!! that's fine!

hollybelle on 03/06/2008:
Yup and they say we need to go to government healthcare here in the good old USA! Yikes. Hope you feel better. If you need to vent, honey - just go right ahead - we'll "listen"! If it is gallbaldder, I think Julie's (McWoo)right - try giving up on the foods that trigger the pain. Good luck and God bless.

workingit2 on 03/06/2008:
It is amazing that there is such a wait for medical procedures in Canada sometimes. ButI guess if the doctor was really worried about your heart being the issue they would get you in sooner? But still...geeze!! Try not to stress, take care!

legcramps - Wednesday Mar 05, 2008

Weight: 147.0

So, I might be a sac of whimp, but I won't know for sure until I go for an ultrasound. The doctor told me that everything he tested me for turned out normal, so he wants to try doing an ultrasound. I have to wait for them to phone me to make an appointment. By that time i'll probably be back to normal!! People piss me off. Not you guys though :).

Gym tonight. I was going to take it easy, but screw that, i'm starting my 5k workouts again. Not that they're incredibly hard or anything.

Geez, i'm in a bad mood. I want to beat up a garbage can, but the ones here at work are too small. I wouldn't get any relief from it.

workingit2 on 03/05/2008:
Be happy that nothing is wrong, you may just be suffering from anxiety and stress. My sister has the same thing every once in a while. Thoughts and prayers are with you!

starlight on 03/05/2008:
lol sorry to get amusement from your entry. You sound like me. Seriously though, I'm sorry to hear they don't know what's going on. Of course negative test results are a good thing, but I'm sure you just want to know what happened. Go home and punch a pillow :) you have to clean up after you punch a garbage can. Keep us posted on your tests. I have you in my thoughts.

thinnsidenotout on 03/05/2008:
I have kicked a few cans in my time.....just to make a mess and be worse off for having to clean up garbage... I'm no spceialist/Dr.... but my bets are anxiety (yes, even thought you don't know what about/what for you may be subconciously thinking about) and you will be just fine....

My momma always told/tells me "You're just gunna have to get glad in the same pants you got mad in, so get on with it!"

I wish you much luck and settlement of mind......

hollybelle on 03/05/2008:
Go workout and maybe bad mood will pass. Don't give into the mood if you can help it - OR - my other suggestion is give into and get it over with! See, I can go either way!

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