- Thursday Sep 21, 2006
Yesterday's calories: 1470
The stubborn mule in me refused to do anything in the way of exercise yesterday. No excuses, right? Wrong. I am the Queen at excusing myself from doing things. I may feel a little guilty about it, but that won't last long. Good thing bf didn't want to do anything but fall asleep watching a movie last night, though I bet Chewy didn't like that idea at all.
I know I have some habits that I need to change. I just need a few tweaks. And i'm speaking generally; I need a few tweaks in every facet of my life. I can now fully realize that my problem areas are when i'm overly excited, happy, depressed, foul, etc. I'll have my fresh starts every so often and i'll screw things up every so often. I'm okay with that. I'll have those a-ha moments and give it all i've got for a month or two, and then i'll plunge back into my lazy habits. As long as i'm balancing out between the two and reaching goals i've set, it will all work out okay. RIGHT?!!!
Gym today after work, if my hips will allow.
- Wednesday Sep 20, 2006
Friday: 1320 calories, no exercise
Saturday: 2180 calories, no exercise
It wasn't that I was hungry and ate all day, moreso that I went out for breakfast (as is usually the case on the weekends) with my boyfriend and had an extra large meal that I don't usually have. And forget about cutting calories for the rest of the day. I don't care what anyone says - when you're in the habit of eating certain amounts at certain times throughout the day, it's incredibly hard to change. I figure this is something i'll just have to work around. Kind of like LIFE, huh.
Sunday: 2590 calories, no exercise
Again, that darn breakfast ruined my day. As well, Sunday nights are my other temptation, when we get the chance to sit down together and hash out the weeks' activities. We ordered in this time - it's not a usual circumstance though, so this will be something I can learn to control a little better.
Monday: 770 calories, kickboxing and yoga
I did actually make it to the yoga class on Monday night. Wow. I didn't think it would be as difficult as it was. My ignorance sure caught up with me these last few weeks! It was incredibly relaxing though, especially with the lights turned down and soft music playing. I loved it! Hope it will continue...
Tuesday: 1280 calories, gym
The treadmill kicked my butt and I could feel my hip joint starting to wedge its way out of its' socket as I was running. 47 minutes later I decided that it just wasn't important anymore and that floor exercises were really what I wanted to do.
I'm really sore today. Like I mean, really sore. If I stay put and sitting for more than 10 minutes I have trouble standing up off my chair. I'm tired, cranky and exhausted. And, of course, busy. I haven't stopped until now, the only thing carrying me forward is the chocolate-zuchinni muffin a co-worker ever so graciously forced on me. And gosh, was it good. I'm looking forward to chicken or salmon tonight, rice and some much needed vegetables. And no exercise. Thanks anyways.
- Friday Sep 15, 2006
Wednesday: 1470 calories; kickboxing class
Thursday: 1670 calories; no exercise
Kickboxing was much easier this time around - not as much lunging and kicking although i'm sure that will start up again on Monday's class. After this class was the stability ball and because I didn't have one, I just sat around and watched for a few minutes. I should have one in time for next week, as long as there's still a class. It's funny - as soon as I decide to sign up for these extra classes, the instructor decides she might not have them. So I may never get to try Yoga! We'll see on Monday I guess.
Not much planned for the weekend, I hope to sit around and be lazzzzzy and sleep a lot. Next week will be another busy one, so i'm really going to need my energy.
That's it for now - Have a great weekend everyone!
- Wednesday Sep 13, 2006
My calorie total for yesterday was 1430 and I added on a walk with the dog later at night for 200 cals burned. I'm still very sore from kickboxing, but i'm still going tonight!
We tried to hide on Chewy during our walk but the sucker sniffed us out. So he may be almost blind but he can sure use that nose!! At first I could barely hold my laughter because he was so desperately looking for us. I guess that's not very funny, is it, given the last encounter we've had with our runaway. Okay, i've slapped myself on the wrist for that comment, now let's move on. He was running back and forth and back and forth, finally finding us hiding behind a pine tree - then he had to sniff out the tree and make sure it was 'okay' for us to be there!! You may think I laugh far too much at my puppy, but having a 70lb black labrador, you'd think it was funny too. And when he looks at you with those big, dark, puppy dog eyes it's extremely hard to hold down the bubbling joy that rises and swallow the temptation to take hold of him and squeeze really tightly.
I was supposed to have a ball meeting tonight but i'm feeling rotten about some of the members and have decided that my priority is kickboxing class! Ha Ha! You just lost your recorder! For just this one meeting, anyways...
- Tuesday Sep 12, 2006
So this last week has been very interesting...
Apart from sticking to my diet (which is quite a feat in itself might I add), i've also taken up yet another exercise. I guess I was starting to get tired of going to the gym every morning, because I haven't been there in a few days.
Throughout the last couple of weeks i've been averaging around 1700-1800 calories per day. I've done some golfing and walking and taking the dog out for runs, but like I said - i've stayed away from the gym due to lack of momentum.
Last night was my first class in kickboxing with a different instructor. I found it amazingly hard, which is difficult for me to handle as i've had a lot of training in actual kickboxing and I didn't think it would be this hard for me! It kicked my butt regardless, and I have to deal with that fact. So I will continue going twice a week until I find myself being able to deal with the 60 minute hell on wheels workout. Then perhaps i'll get bored again...
Included on these nights are optional Yoga classes for 45 minutes. As I said, last night really kicked my butt so I opted not to stay for the Yoga, but next week i'll knock it down a notch and be able to stay. Wednesday nights after kickboxing there are stability exercises for 45 minutes. As well i'm interested in this but will need to find myself a stability ball first. I'll have to check that out. Anyways, this is what i've been waiting for - Yoga - and I won't quit until i've gotten a handle on it!
So my eating has been consistent and wonderful, and I just need to work on regular exercise and then make healthy, fabulous habits out of it all!!!
Thanks for all your comments!
- Monday Sep 11, 2006
I am busy. Busy, busy, busy. But I am still here and alive and well. AND staying on track. I just can't update right now, will be back on to update another time. Oh my, i'm busy.
- Thursday Aug 31, 2006
So I did end up leaving work a couple of hours early in order to go home and sleep. The further along I got in the day, the more sick I was getting. Finally I told myself that it jusn't wasn't worth trying to smile through the pain and that I should probably just go home. Once there, though, it seemed like the pain got 100 times worse, because there I was, doing nothing. At least at work I was kept decently busy and didn't have too many chances to feel sorry for myself. And instead of sleeping, I found that I couldn't close my eyes (I had at least a litre of coffee in the morning at work because it was the only thing that kept me going) so I resorted to the internet to pass the time.
After eating a semblance of chicken for lunch, I was starting to get hungry so into the fridge I went, quickly skimming past the block of cheese and to the macaroni salad. I had to stop there because nothing else was in the fridge. That was edible, anyway. So macaroni it was, and eventually....I caved and had some cheese toast (on white bread, for which I shall explain below**). After this I nibbled for the rest of dinner on items I just can't recall - I wrote them all down in my book but I left that at home. All I know is that my calories for the day totalled 1500. And I most definitely did not exercise. I'm doing better today though - so far. I'm feeling much better although this morning was a little rough, and the coffee is helping to pull me through the day. I have Friday off, so I wanted to come in to work today no matter what because I needed to finish off some things and attend a meeting. Rough, but doable.
**I usually buy either whole wheat or rye bread, pasta, etc. and it's only on VERY slim occasions where i'll have white flour. I don't even like the taste of it anymore. BF and I therefore eat from different bags of bread, and we leave said bags on the counter in our kitchen. On Tuesday when I got home after work, I noticed a ripped up bag on the kitchen floor and walked closer to investigate. Sure enough, Chewy had gotten a hold of MY bag of bread (apparently he favors rye over white), ripped it to shreds, and had himself at least half a loaf of it. He's so clever, isn't he?! He places his paws strategically on the edge of the counter so as not to scratch the surface and give himself away. He then stretches his neck as far as possible, which is quite a distance - easily the whole surface of the counter from front to back. Then he simply takes his pick - "what would I like today?". Now don't get me wrong, he doesn't do this regularly, only occasionally when he knows we've faltered a bit and left something out for him. Very clever he is, indeed. I gave him a 'time-out', which he dreads receiving. I drag him to the corner (I might have already mentioned this) and leave him there for a minute. This is funny - i've only done this a few times so far and already he knows his punishment and sits there like a prisoner sentenced to death. This is the only time where he'll actually STAY.
This morning again no gym - I had a few problems getting up and moving around - and had to force down toast and an egg. Lunch again had to force food down, and I imagine dinner won't be easy either. I just need a good back massage and some sleep!!!
- Wednesday Aug 30, 2006
I had a whole entry written out in my head around 2:30am this morning while I was NOT sleeping because I had gotten my period. Unfortunately, I can't remember any of it. It's too bad, really, because you all would really have enjoyed it, i'm sure. It was filled to the brim with sarcasm and stinging wit. At least, that's what it seemed like at 2:30am this morning. I remember this much - I was complaining A LOT about the predicament I was in. And I kept going on wild tangents and getting lost in the middle of sentences.
I'm so sick today. Ugh. And besides that, I feel like a pig because of bloating. My skin is so washed out it's a wonder people can still see me. I want to crawl under the covers and stay there!
So I had 1,880 calories yesterday, the last 500 or so due in large part to my 2:30am excursion. When i'm sick and my stomach feels empty, I feed it. And feed it I did, with bread products that will most likely hang around for a couple of days. At least I stayed away from the cheese. Usually when I get sick like this, I turn to my favorite foods, and cheese is one of them. But the dairy product makes me feel even worse (although at the time i'm eating it, that doesn't seem to matter). Anyhow, this time I managed to avoid the huge block of cheddar sitting in the top shelf of the fridge. I could even describe - in detail - the wrapping on the cheese, that's how often I look at it every time I open the fridge door.
So this morning I asked bf to please call and wake me up as I was going to miss my gym workout in favor of more sleep. Well, he did. Ten minutes before I had to be at work! So more sleep I definitely got, but I have a nagging suspicion that I might not make it through the day....
- Tuesday Aug 29, 2006
It was a good weekend - quiet but yet not so quiet that the silence drove me insane.
Dinner was chicken with rice and cooked veggies and afterwards, of course, is when my emotional eating reared its ugly head. BF didn't come home until later on that night, choosing to spend his friday night with the boys. Since I haven't seen hide nor hair of him for the last few months, I guess I sort of assumed he'd want to spend some time together. Oh well. So I went uptown, rented some movies and bought a bag of snack mix, which I put quite a dent in on Friday night. I hit the gym in the morning though, with my weight workout, and took the dog for an hour long hike, so I don't feel quite as bad about the snack mix as I probably should.
Saturday was spent looking for another vehicle, one big enough for the two of us and the dog, and also looking for more room for the future. We did manage to find a Ford Explorer Sport and i'm picking it up today after work. Of course, here comes Mr. Emotional Eating again. This time it was to celebrate, but of course my stomach doesn't know the difference. Breakfast was a fruit bowl with coffee, lunch was another two servings of snack mix with cheese toast, and dinner was a chicken burger and two mini cherry strudels. I had two mugs of Mudslide with milk - that's probably the most dairy i've gotten in a long time! I totalled this day of calories to 2,230!!! Yikes! Without having done any exercise, this was a total waste of a day (other than finding a vehicle).
Sunday wasn't much better with calories, maxing out at 1,970. In the afternoon we took Chewy, a small cooler of refreshments and hit the tennis courts. We spent two hours playing hard, with me as the loser in every match except one. Once I could barely walk (the heat was getting to me - no really, it wasn't because i'm out of shape!!) we called it quits and I thankfully went back home to 'rest' by doing laundry and other household chores.
Monday's calories were 1,250 AND I went to the gym for my cardio workout. A much better day, but the weekdays usually are.
Right now i'm sitting at 510 calories and I think i'll consume around 600 more for dinner. I've already done the gym thing - weights today - but I don't think i'll make it for a walk tonight.
It's been busy at work the past couple of days. I have this Friday off but i've already booked the day full of appointments! Thank goodness one of them is to get some primping in at the local hair salon. I'm going to need the rest...
- Friday Aug 25, 2006
Grrr, I didn't get to walk the dog yesterday because bf took him out to the farm. I was so pissy when he got home around 7pm that I cleaned half the house in a frenzied fit of anger. At least the house is a lot cleaner than usual, although i'm pretty sure I broke the vacuum AND possibly a few loose cd's that were lying on the floor of the living room. I wouldn't leave MY cd's there, so they were probably bf's. I might hear about that later on this weekend when he notices.
I did end up having half a sandwich and the rest of the chef's salad yesterday for lunch. Then I had the other half of the sandwich after work when I realized that bf probably wasn't going to respect my request and bring the dog home. Then I made chicken breast with rice and vegetables and ate that, too. I was close to finishing off the 10 or so popsicles sitting in the fridge (do you think I have a problem with emotional eating?!!) but fought off the urge and didn't have any, took a bath and went to bed instead. God, I just felt like bursting into tears last night. Today I know that it's just part of the game of life, but at the time it sure did hurt my feelings!
There are so many things that I want to accomplish and it feels like bf and I are on opposite teams. All I want is to replace some windows before winter, fix up the bathroom so that it's not embarassing to have people over, and generally do some cosmetic touches around the house. All he wants to do is fix his truck and talk about accomplishing everything! Such a procrastinator. Apparently I still have some issues with my anger from yesterday, so maybe I should just stop now and hope that I get over it by the time he gets home from work today.
This morning I really wanted to sleep in an extra half an hour, but made myself get up and go to the gym. I walked and jogged on the treadmill, then did my weights. Again I ate a large breakfast of rye toast and eggs. I have leftover chicken breast with rice and veggies for lunch that i'm already starting to salivate over. It must be the big morning breakfast that's making me so hungry - i've never been this hungry in the mornings.