- Thursday Jun 02, 2005
(It's called Reality Bites)
I'm not sure what's up with the pound-a-day thing, it really seems kind of odd doesn't it? I weigh myself every morning at the same time with the same amount of clothing on. Well, who knows. It's going down and that's all that matters right now.
Yesterday was good - I seem to be doing alright so far. Of course, it's only been a few days on diet diaries again, but it really does seem to be helping.
Today: veggies and dip in the morning, then i'll have to find a sandwich from somewhere because i'm not working today and there's nothing in the house I can use for sandwiches. Especially not the white bread that my boyfriend insisted on buying last week. Fortunately, I have no need for white bread anymore and haven't had one piece in a very long time. Anyhow, basically the same thing i've been eating all this week. Why change it while it works?
I've already done my biking for the day, so all that's left is taking the dogs for a walk. I'm sure i'll get that in, as long as it doesn't rain. Yesterday ball was cancelled due to rain, so all I got in was a walk with the dogs. I still lost a pound though, so i'm not beating myself up over it. So that's about it for today. I won't be able to post tomorrow until later on in the day because I have to take Willow to the airport in the early morning. Talk to you when I talk to you!
- Wednesday Jun 01, 2005
(It's called Reality Bites)
Yesterday I managed to drag my butt home on my bike, lay down on the couch and fall asleep for 2 hours! It was busy again at work, and I was running around so much I don't honestly believe that I accomplished anything.
Today is veggies with dip and a sandwich for lunch. Dinner might be rushed because I play ball tonight, so I might end up getting a sub or something like that.
I did not bike to work today as I was deterred by the amount of rain that was falling. I don't wish to walk around the hospital looking like a drowned rat. So after work if I can keep my butt off the couch, i'll try to get on the stationary bike for 20 minutes. Operative word being "try". Gosh, i'm negative today, aren't I?! Tonight I have an hour and a half of ball, which may or may not be enough exercise for me today. Maybe I should also walk or ride my bike to and from ball. We'll see.
This weekend i'll be shopping with a friend for her wedding dress. We've gone once already, where she tried on at least 12 or 13 dresses. You should have seen how stressed and flushed she looked afterwards! It should be fun!
Does anyone know how to change your diary's e-mail address? I need to change mine because I don't use it anymore, but I don't know how.
- Tuesday May 31, 2005
(It's called Reality Bites)
Today I brought veggies to work with light ranch dressing, and i'll pick up a sandwich for lunch. They're so cheap from the cafeteria here it's almost useless to make my own. Less work for me = one much happier girl!
After work yesterday I ended up on the couch doing nothing. I had biked to work, then ran around the hospital almost the entire day, then biked home. Around 2:30 I was so tired that I had conjured up a headache the size of Mount Everest and all I wanted to do was sleep. So I curled up, threw a blanket over my head, and ignored my puppies completely. When bf got home from work he could tell I wasn't feeling well - he went straight to the medicine cabinet and got out two advil with water for me. Then he even took care of dinner. I felt so much better after that (it's always nice to have someone take care of you!) and was able to continue on with my day. Thank goodness for huge favors!
I biked to work again today (don't I ever learn?!). bf has a fastball game tonight, so i'll walk out there with one of the dogs but otherwise won't get much exercise in.
- Monday May 30, 2005
(It's called Reality Bites)
Hello all - thanks so much for the warm welcome. I was so ashamed to come back with my weight like this, but I need to own up to it and I don't want to lose this support group.
Today i'm having raw veggies with light ranch dressing to snack on during the day, salad for lunch and probably get a sandwich from the cafeteria here (they're very healthy - turkey on multi-grain kind of stuff), then i'm having steak and salad for dinner. I have fruit at home to snack on as well, but since i'm playing ball tonight I might not have time to eat it! Wouldn't that be nice....
Chewy (my doggie) is doing very well. I've been looking after my brother's dogs for the last few weeks as well (a 12 yr old Golden Retriever and a 2yr old ****-zu cross Japanese Chin), and all three of them are quite the handful. Chewy gets very jealous when I pay attention to the others, so we've had some fighting going on. They're getting used to each other now though. I'm hoping Chewy won't miss them too much when they leave.
I biked to work this morning, and i'll bike back home as well. I hope to play ball for 1.5 hours and then take the dogs for a walk. That will be enough exercise for today.
Until next time!
- Friday May 27, 2005
(It's called Reality Bites)
I just don't know how I got here. And why i've been gone so long.
The past few months (actually, around 4 months) have been so stressful. I've embraced everything with confidence in myself, but unfortunately my diet has gone by the wayside because of too many other things to deal with. Last week, starting on Monday, I worked my tail end off to start losing weight again. I was at 147.5 pounds. By the end of the week, I was down to 144.5 pounds. Then Sunday night I went out to a barbeque and polished off far too many beer. Monday A&W was too tantalizing to pass up, and so, obviously, some of that weight I lost came back on. I don't want to sound idiotic here, but I feel absolutely worthless right now. I sit on the couch when I get home from work and I just can't move, falling asleep almost immediately. I haven't wanted to post for the longest time because I had nothing good to report - all I was doing was eating, sleeping, and doing a little bit of work. I hate winter. It does that to me all the time.
Anyways, on to better things:
I miss you all very much and am quite happy to be back. HOWEVER, I don't know how much time i'll have to write. I'm kept very busy at my new job and, like I said, by the time I get home i'm done for the night. But I will update as much as I can, and I look forward to reading your posts again! Borntocry, you're doing so well! Good for you!
Morning: 50g bag of 0 trans fat pretzels (190 cals) Lunch: 2 cups ch.ceasar salad without the dressing (174 cals) Afternoon: protein bar (250 cals) Dinner: 6oz steak with 1 cup ww pasta without sauce (529 cals) Evening: protein bar (250 cals)
Exercise: 20 minutes stationary bike, 5 minutes stepper (have to start off slow!), 45 minutes walking dogs
Oh, wish me luck 'cause I have a strange 'deja-vu' feeling that i'm really going to need it.....
- Friday Feb 25, 2005
Yesterday: waffles with margarine and syrup, 2 oatmeal cookies, 2oz chicken breast, 1c spaghetti and 1/2c potatoes with ketchup. Then I went out for coffee with friends and had about four cups of coffee.
Plan for Today: I woke up with ten minutes to spare to get to work, so obviously I missed breakfast. I might grab something from the cafeteria but i'm not terribly hungry yet so why? Leftover chicken for the rest of the day, and yogurt too.
I didn't have a good day yesterday at work. My printer wasn't working, then a program was screwing up. I won't get into it, but I basically spent the whole day running around calling ten million people to fix my problems. When something like this happens and i'm not able to fix it - I turn into a crazy person. I was so very angry yesterday that I gave myself a headache. I went to the chiropractor right afterwards, and while sitting in the office waiting to see him I got so sick I had to run to the bathroom and sit with my head between my legs. I tell 'ya, I can sure stress myself out sometimes...
I want to stay at home tonight and spend some quality time with bf. That's all for today, then I can return to reality tomorrow.
Goethe: "We must always change, renew, rejuvenate ourselves; otherwise, we harden."
- Thursday Feb 24, 2005
Well, that was worthwhile. For some reason my post didn't...well...post. Forget that noise, I ain't doin' it all over again.
I ate food yesterday, I had exercise yesterday, I complained about yesterday. That's all you need to know anyhow, right?
"I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on, and treasure the memories." -Unknown
- Wednesday Feb 23, 2005
Yesterday: egos with margarine and syrup, 1 serving crackers, 2eggs with ketchup and a dinner bun, turkey, ham and bacon sub with cheese and lettuce.
Plan for Today: I had a waffle for breakfast, with margarine and syrup, 1.5 servings crackers, another turkey, ham and bacon sandwich with lettuce (no cheese), and i don't know what for dinner. Good plan, huh?
I'm just drinking water like crazy today. It's soooo dry in here it's really not funny. Everytime I touch the file cabinets I get a mega-size shock. I'm getting electrocuted at work. That's gotta be a health and safety hazard, no?
I didn't go to the meeting last night. I played hooky, and instead I carried two more loads of my things to BF's. Now my old place is starting to empty out. BF asked me if i'm going to miss my apartment. I already do! I loved my place, it really suited me with the retro walls, the wierd floors and the old rickety staircase. But when i'm over there now, if i'm by myself, I feel extremely lonely and I don't like being there. So i'm ready to move, but i'll just miss having a place of my own. That's all.
Chewy's back in action. It didn't take him long to start jumping up on me again. He has a new trick now. He thinks if he can't see us, he's not supposed to hear us either, and totally ignores us when we're out of eye-shot. We have to train the little bugger to stick with us instead of hobbling down the block in his lopsided swagger without a care in the world.
Tonight is more packing and carrying, and I really need to get outside and go for a walk. This winter season is really taking it's toll on me and I don't feel like doing anything. If I can push myself to walk I might feel better tomorrow at least. Bye!
- Tuesday Feb 22, 2005
Yesterday: an ego for breakfast with a dab of margarine and some syrup, a serving of crackers, one whole wheat dinner bun with a fried egg and some ketchup, 1/2c pasta and 1/2c ground beef with cheese sauce.
Plan for Today: ego with margarine and syrup, crackers, dinner bun with egg and ketchup, i'm hoping for chicken tonight. Grilled breast, with marinade. That'd be good. Of course, i'm not the cook so I don't have much choice.
I have a meeting tonight that I really don't want to go to. It had better not take very long because i'm sick of these meetings overbearing everything else in my life when it was never supposed to happen that way. Grr.
Chewy was pretty mild yesterday, which was such a change. Most of the time, he either slept or buried his face into the crook of my elbow or just smushed it into my stomach and lay like that for a while. The poor thing just let me snuggle with him, and he never even opened his jaws to bite and gnaw at me! I hope he's feeling better today, i'd like to take him for a walk. No time like the present to get him back into the swing of things.
BF got a lot of my things moved for me while I was at work yesterday. There is still quite a bit there, but at least it looks a little more empty now. I think a few more loads and just the furniture will be left. I thought I had a lot of stuff but I really don't have that much at all. I guess i'm not as much of a pack rat as I thought I was!
Have a good one today.
- Monday Feb 21, 2005
My weekend was alright, although there was a lot of drinking of pop. I think when I made my promise to give up alcohol during lent, I should have also added pop. It seems I must replace bad habits with what other than more bad habits.
Chewy is going under the knife today. Actually, by now he's already done and is just waiting to wake up. I feel bad and I hope that he won't be in too much pain for too long afterwards. Does anyone know? I fear that we've lost our once playful puppy....My cousin's dog used to jump out of the vehicle the moment he saw the vet's office. He would take off running, and it would be hours before they'd catch him. My poor Chewy won't want to be going to the vet's anymore after today.
What else? I packed a little more on Sunday afternoon and considering I have 8 more days left to move out and clean up, i'd better get my butt in gear right quick. Panic is setting in.
I made it to all my appointments last week, and have two more to make this week, as well as picking up my new prescription glasses. Crap. Yes, I had to get them. But I picked out the most unique pair that I could find and that looked half-way decent on my big square head. They're sort of 'cat-eyed' or horn-rimmed. Brown. Interesting. I'm thinking now I should have stuck to the basic black rectangle that I see everywhere, but I just couldn't help myself.
So I have another chiropractor appointment this week because apparently I have a very common problem of one spinal joint going 'out-of-joint'. I don't know how else to put it. I think as soon as I walked out of the place it happened again, so my back problems are still very much here. I also have another doctor's appointment because I brought too many things up at my last one which warranted making another one. According to him, anyhow.
Enough. Until tomorrow!