- Wednesday Dec 29, 2004
Yesterday went by very quickly. I remember having 2 pieces toast, 1c soup, 1c french fries, 2 little pieces of chocolate, then passing out on the couch. I was pretty tired and the whole day seemed to go by in a sort of haze. Oh, I had 1L of water and about 6oz wine.
I feel a little more awake today, but I could probably have slept for another few hours for sure. This morning i've had a piece of toast so far, and i'm working on 1/2 a liter of water. I hope to be able to finish the soup today, as long as my BF doesn't get into it. Other than that, i'm not sure what i'll have for dinner. There will be relatives down again today, so I might be forced (!) to eat homecooking. Of all the rotten luck, huh? Or should I say eh?
Anyhow, I purchased a digital camera with some money I received at Christmas, and i'm sure loving it! I still have some money leftover, so i'm going to try and look for a winter jacket. Either that, or pick up a few sweaters and maybe a pair of jeans. This year i'm not using the money I get for Christmas to pay my rent or my car insurance. This money is for me! I'll figure out how to pay my bills later.
As soon as January hits, it's time to start planning for a trip i'm taking in 2006. I can't wait to hit my travel book and make some final decisions!
- Tuesday Dec 28, 2004
Wow, what a weekend! It just flew by so fast that I can't remember a darn thing! I'm very much out of sorts this morning, being back at work and in this environment after four whole days off is a little dizzying to say the least. I hope each and every one of you had a wonderful christmas holiday and were able to spend time with your loved ones.
I ate little at each sitting, but there were a lot of sittings in each day - so I probably fared much the same as usual, with the exception of it being much more fatty and high calorie food. We'll see come Friday what the damage is. Hopefully for the next three days I work hard and faithfully. No New Year's resolutions for me! Forget it!
Have a great day today - stay strong!
- Thursday Dec 23, 2004
Well, somehow I made my way down this week. Probably from stress.
Yesterday was a good day, although I was foolishly stricken down by the temptations in the office. I ate 2pc toast, 2 oranges, and 2c chicken noodle soup with cooked carrots. That's the good news. The bad news is that I also had 6 pieces of chocolate and 2 servings of sour cream and onion chips. Legcramps, we need to work on this. I did drink my water though, and for that I am grateful.
This afternoon our office will be getting together with cake and chocolate galore. I will stuff myself full at lunchtime with soup and toast, and eat an orange during the celebrations. I've had enough chocolate to last me probably an entire lifetime. But at least for today.
I have so much going on today! BF can't find enough people to play volleyball tonight, so he's asked me to play and I can't say no. So I will be playing 1.5hrs tonight after dinner, then going to grandma's to visit relatives, then packing up for my trip to see my father tomorrow, then going out with friends, then hopefully there will be some 'us' time for BF and I. Tomorrow we're heading into the city in the morning to see one of BF's friends, then my father, then coming back to grandma's. On Christmas, we're going to a friend's place to drop off gifts and pick up ours (we do a gift exchange with my friend's family, but unfortunately this year there's no time for us to open gifts with them), then going out to BF's family's farm. After that, we should be home free for the rest of the night. BF wants to open gifts tomorrow night but i'm not sure if we'll have the time. On Sunday i'll be shopping with my mother and aunt. Monday will be my recovery day, and by God i'm going to need it!
I truly, truly wish all my friends here at diet diaries a very Merry Christmas. Please stay safe and strong throughout the holidays. I will be back on Tuesday. Have a great weekend!
- Wednesday Dec 22, 2004
Yesterday went fairly well, actually. I've been in the failure mindset lately, which hasn't helped my efforts much, but I think having a fairly decent day yesterday will help me poke my head up out of this hole i've sunk into. I had an awful day at work, and ended up crying afterwards because of some little thing BF said to me. I was just so stressed out. We went for a long walk though, and that seemed to really help me thaw out.
Yesterday I had 2pc toast, grilled chicken, potatoes, tossed salad, and three mandarin oranges. I snuck in a piece of gum in the morning too. No water and no tea, but I didn't say I was perfect....
So today i'm working on making good choices and drinking some water. Slowly, i'll get back into it. Just in time for christmas. Have a great day to all of the diet diarists and to those who may not be updating but who are still 'checking up on the rest of us'!
- Tuesday Dec 21, 2004
I didn't have the best day yesterday, as usual. I did make a wonderful dinner of pork, brown and wild rice, and baked vegetables. I must say it was one of my better creations. Oh, if only borntocry was around to hear that. Anyhow, I then did the dishes, started laundry, picked up my mail from the post office, took the dog for a walk, and watched the rest of The Swan. By the time I got to it, there was only about 20 minutes left of the Season Finale. As soon as that ended, I went to sleep. I did not want to get up this morning, at all.
I got a lot of my baking done on Friday. I made mini cheesecake cups, brownies, and carrot cake. I have to still make sugar cookies and nanaimo bars. I have tried two of the brownies and one cheesecake cup since Friday. My goal is to maintain 130 throughout the holiday season, but if I start hawking on my own treats, i'll blow that right out of the water.
All kidding aside, I really will need to work my butt everyday in order to maintain. And I still haven't made it to the library to check out those audio books. Well, I DID make it there, but the library was closed that day. Figures....
- Monday Dec 20, 2004
I fell from the Cedar Tree (the Confidence) -- of rare strength, knows how to adapt, likes unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often impatient, likes to impress others, has many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waits for the one true love, able to make quick decisions. ______________________________________________________________________
The weekend was okay and for the most part I kept it reasonably under wraps in regards to eating (no pun intended). I had fun, but now it's back to work and time to keep plugging along for christmas. Tomorrow is the first day of winter. Saturday my car died on me and is sitting just outside a burger joint in town, rotting away in the snow and ice. And it's staying there until it apologizes.....
Have a happy day.
- Thursday Dec 16, 2004
While both male and female reindeer grow antlers in the summer each year, according to the Alaska Department of Fish and Game, male reindeer drop their antlers at the beginning of winter, usually late November to mid-December. Female reindeer retain their antlers until after they give birth in the spring. Therefore, according to every historical rendition depicting Santa's reindeer, every single one of them, from Rudolph to Blitzen - had to be a girl.
We should've known.
Only women would be able to drag a fat-ass man in a red velvet suit all around the world in one night and not get lost! ______________________________________________________________________
At this rate, i'll never get to my goal. Someone make me step it up a notch!
I was sick yesterday (TOM), and while remembering that I said I was ready for it, I blew a few too many gaskets and that theory went all to heck and back. I got so sick I eventually had to make a mad dash to emergency where they gave me two shots - one being gravol. Suffice it to say, I didn't eat much. A cup of soup here, a bite of a sandwich there, no tea, no water and a jolly good whollop of bad cheer.
The good news is that i'm crazy-thirsty today and i'm almost done a liter of water already. I'm going out for lunch today with my co-workers so I need to make good choices. It's going to be hard because i'm feeling so sorry for myself, but I know I can do it and I will.
Tonight is volleyball. Although my stomach muscles have been through a lot lately, I WILL go. I WILL play.
Things to accomplish today and tomorrow: finish gifts, pay bills, clean kitchen, living room and back porch, finish laundry, baking, test camcorder for wedding, prepare a dish for christmas party and buy some wine.
I get to have some fun tomorrow night and Saturday, depending on how i'm feeling. I have a christmas party tomorrow night that i'm hoping will be a blast, and BF's brother's wedding on Saturday that should be a lot of fun as well. I get to videotape it! Woohoo! I hope the battery doesn't die out on me....
Since i'm not at work tomorrow, I wish you all a very happy weekend. Later gators!
- Wednesday Dec 15, 2004
Considering I accomplished everything I set out to do yesterday, I should feel a lot better about myself today. But, alas, it doesn't always happen that way...
I was on track yesterday, only adding an orange and a sandwich at lunchtime to my total intake. Although I did not drink 2L water, I got both mugs of tea in and i'm just going to be happy about that. TOM came to visit, and i'm an emotional wreck at the moment. Last night BF did the dishes and some laundry, and made it seem like he did all the work around the house. I was watching the Biggest Loser and BF said he was going to go for a walk with the dog. I asked him to wait so that I could go as well. He huffed and puffed about having to wait, and his attitude really pissed me off. So I walked in silence. And I walked about ten steps behind him the whole time because I was wearing huge boots and three layers of clothing and a big long jacket, and I just couldn't keep up to him. Let me note here that he made no effort to wait for me. During the whole walk, my puppy basically stayed close to BF, which made me feel even more isolated. After the walk, I started cleaning the kitchen, then moved to the clothes and did everything I wanted to do! It didn't make me feel any better though, and while I was wrapping more gifts I noticed that one of my gifts was missing. I looked all over for it and I can't find it. It's hard to believe it went missing because I put all my bags directly on the dining room table as soon as I walked into the house from shopping. And those bags stayed just like that until last night. I don't get it. Anyways, this was the icing on the cake, and I ran upstairs and cried myself to sleep. Crazy, huh?! I woke up around 2am, sick to my stomach and cramping like crazy. Hello, TOM. I've been waiting for you.
- Tuesday Dec 14, 2004
One beautiful December evening Huan Cho and his girlfriend Jung Lee were sitting by the side of the ocean. It was a romantic full moon, when Huan Cho said "Hey baby, let's play Weeweechu."
"Oh no, not now, lets look at the moon" said Jung Lee.
"Oh, c'mon baby, let's you and I play Weeweechu. I love you and it's the perfect time," Huan Cho begged.
"But I rather just hold your hand and watch the moon."
"Please Jung Lee, just once play Weeweechu with me."
Jung Lee looked at Huan Chi and said, "OK, we'll play Weeweechu."
Huan Cho grabbed his guitar and they both sang...
"Weeweechu a Merry Christmas, Weeweechu a Merry Christmas, Weeweechu a Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year." ______________________________________________________________________
Did I say I was on track yesterday?
Everything was going alright. I had a mug of tea, my regular piece of toast for breakfast, I made chicken with couscous and cooked carrots and celery, and had salad as well for dinner. Then I had dessert. An ice cream cup. Which is still alright, because they're low cal, low fat, and I think one cup is around 100cals. But then BF left and took the dog for a walk. Why didn't I just go with them????? NOOOO, instead I needed to have another ice cream cup. Why didn't I at least go downstairs (walk a measly 20 stairs) and do some exercising??? Instead I flitted between sitting on the couch and walking over to the chocolate jar. I had three pieces of chocolate before forcing myself to stop grazing. But that's not all...
About one hour later, bored and with nothing to do (of course, there's cleaning, laundry, wrapping, and dog grooming to do), I decide that i'm still hungry and make myself one of those microwave individual pizza things. And yes, I ate it all.
I feel terrible today and I know why. Mondays are my toughest challenge so far, just getting back on track after Sunday. I guess from now on i'll have to try and limit what I have on Sunday so that moving into Monday won't be so terribly hard. I almost feel like crying, but I know that it won't help and I know that this doesn't mean i'm a failure - but I sure feel like one right now, you know? I can sure forget about my wonderful low of 128.5 now.
The important thing is to keep going. Don't worry, I know, i've said it myself hundreds of times. And I will. But I just want to wallow in my misery and self-pity for just a little longer today.
Plan for today: 2 mugs tea, 2L water, vitamins, toast for breakfast, baby carrots, chicken with couscous, salad, cook dinner because there aren't enough leftovers (same thing as yesterday), do laundry, clean kitchen, wrap gifts, take dog for walk. If time after this (ya right), start cleaning living room and dining room area, and haul clothes upstairs where they're supposed to be, instead of on the stairs.
Have a good day everyone - this will be a great week!
- Monday Dec 13, 2004
I had an alright weekend, although yesterday I managed to throw all caution to the wind and have myself a mini-binge. I had a balogne sandwich on rye bread for lunch, then two pieces of pepperoni pizza, then a smokie on a piece of rye bread, and then two servings of chips. It's bound to happen, so i'm not going to beat myself up. I'll just try that much harder this coming weekend to ward off those evil spirits that have my taste buds at their mercy.
Anyhow, back at it today of course, and it looks like it may be a good day. It's only 9:15 here, but i'm going to go ahead and say it anyways. Tonight i'm cooking chicken, I have to do laundry and dishes, do the grocery shopping and keep on wrapping gifts. I got the rest of my shopping done on Saturday and now I have one gift left. Now I just have to wrap everything! This week i'm going to clean BF's place up so that we can start to look forward to Christmas instead of always thinking about what we still have to do/clean/prepare. At least the cleaning will be out of the way then. Since i'm off on Friday, i'm going to start my christmas baking as well. I'm on track this week ladies. Which means nasty TOM will rear it's head and threaten to throw me off. But this week, i'm ready for anything....