- Friday Jul 09, 2004
Lost a little bit more, but still not at that magical mark yet. Biscottibody, i'll get that recipe to you next week, okay?
Yesterday was a good day. I had: 3 egg whites for breakfast, chicken breast and potatoes for lunch, a HUGE orange in the afternoon for a snack. I mean HUGE. Then chicken and cooked vegetables for dinner. I don't know how many calories are in each package of cooked veggies, but I ate the whole thing. I was very hungry last night! It's a miracle I didn't eat more! But anyways, i'm not done yet....
I then had to attend a meeting, where I had a vodka paralyzer. After that, although I swore to myself that I wouldn't go out and I would get my butt home and do the dishes, I got a phone call from a old schoolfriend and he wanted to go for a drink. Three beers, a peanut butter and jam flax bun later and a pouty jealous boyfriend in tow, I finally hit the sack. Without, might I add, doing the dishes.
I was really tired yesterday afternoon, very sluggish and just wanting to go home and sleep. I wonder what today will bring, as so far I feel fine. I didn't get as much sleep as usual, but I still feel okay. Depending on how i'm feeling this afternoon, I might want to try not getting so much sleep. Maybe that's the problem?
- Thursday Jul 08, 2004
I did pretty good yesterday, considering. I ate: 1 twix chocolate bar, two flax buns with peanut butter and jam spread, leftover cooked onions (1/4 cup) and a couple potato slices (cooked), a fruit arrangement in the afternoon (strawberries, grapes, melon and an orange slice), and grilled chicken with potatos for dinner. I also drank 3.5 litres of water.
For exercise, I played slo-pitch for one and a half hours. I will count only half an hour of exercise for this, since last night I wasn't running around half as much as I normally do. This was because they stuck me on the pitcher's mound instead of in the field. Oh well. I also snuck in three beer while playing. After ball, I went for a 45 minute brisk walk. I accomplished everything I set out to do last night! I just can't believe it.
I feel good today, even though the weather is terrible. I think it might be because I didn't weigh myself down with late night eating and too much caffeine. I'm starting on the water and I brought 3 litres with me to work, so hopefully I can make the 3.5 mark again today.
I also lost a pound and a half so far, but i'm not posting it because i'm still not back to 141. Ah, soon tiny grasshopper....soon.
- Wednesday Jul 07, 2004
Thanks borntocry for the info. I'm going to check out that website just as soon as I can!
I failed miserably yesterday by heading out for fast food - AGAIN! I tell you something right now - IT'S GOING TO STOP!!! Right now! Starting today. I'm sick of stuffing myself and then feeling horrible the next day. I'm now officially only eating out on Sundays. The good thing about yesterday was that I sucked down a lot of water during the day.
I'm also going to start exercising today. I found out about water aerobics in another town about 1/2 hour away and i'm going to check that out next week and see if it's something I could do. But today, i'm going to take a walk. Right after work i'm going to drive to the grocery store and get some food for supper. While it's marinating i'm going to take a quick walk around, for about 1/2 hour. Then eat supper, play slo-pitch and tonight go for another quick 1/2 hour walk before setting out to do the dishes. My goal is to get at least 6 hours of exercise each week. If I exercise everyday for one hour, that gives me one day a week off.
This morning I feel clear-headed and I feel like I know what I need to do. This is a great feeling, I only hope it lasts for at least 10 days, to start these good habits!!
- Tuesday Jul 06, 2004
Yesterday was a good day I guess. I had: one ounce pork chop with one baked potato and 1/4 cup cooked onions, one cookie, one serving chips, 6" ham and turkey sub on wheat with lettuce, pickles, mayo and mustard with cheddar cheese slices, one cookie and one serving of chips. That's better than I thought it would be with all the food sitting around my apartment. Yeah, I have all this food sitting around and yet I have to go uptown to buy my dinner!
Today's plan is leftovers.
Today when I get home from work i'm going to take a nap. And then eventually i'll have to try and figure out why i'm so tired. I went to sleep at 10pm last night and got 9 hours of sleep. I shouldn't be tired.
- Monday Jul 05, 2004
I had a great weekend camping! It was so much fun, I can't wait for the chance to do it again! The van worked out even better than I had anticipated, and everyone was in great spirits for most of the trip! My boy got a little pouty a couple of times - once because my friend and I wanted to go see the Canada Day fireworks and he wanted to go to the bar with a few friends that went camping to the same campground as us. He drove us to the fireworks and then pouted the whole time. I told him once that he could walk back and I could drive the van (i'm not good with big vehicles) back to the campsite but he wouldn't. If you're going to stay then, why not make the best of it? The second time he had a little much to drink and had to turn in early and I stayed up. Can you believe he got cranky at me for not going to bed when he went to bed?!!! Argh. Men.
Eating was okay, but mostly pork and steaks. Potatoes, brocolli, cauliflower, carrots, brussel sprouts, mushrooms and corn for veggies, with cheese whiz melted on! Bacon for breakfast with flax buns and eggs. Oh, it was all so good. Dessert was marshmallows of course, with chocolate chip cookies. I tried to cool it on the cookies and ended up only having five over four days. Not bad.
Today's lunch is pork with potatoes and onions. Dinner same thing. One of these days i'm going to have to cook up some chicken. I think i'm going through withdrawal.
- Wednesday Jun 30, 2004
Thanks for the comment, Kayla. And you're right - we should always embrace life with both hands, but sometimes life sneakily puts tar all around itself and makes it very hard to embrace.
Yesterday I had: 1 boiled potato with 1/2 serving whole wheat noodles, 2 brussel sprouts, a few cookies from grandma (with no icing or anything on top - but they were sugar cookies so that kind of defeats the purpose anyways) and three pieces of pizza. I don't know, for some reason i'm on a pizza kick. Actually, I went to Robin's Donuts to get a ham and cheese sandwich on whole wheat and changed my mind at the last minute because it was super busy in the restaurant and I didn't feel like waiting a really long time for food. So I got pizza instead. Pepperoni. Gotta stop doing that though, I can feel my weight moving up slowly. Still haven't weighed myself but I can sure tell that a couple pounds are haunting me again.
Today's plan: 1/2 boiled potato with 1/2 serving whole wheat noodles, 3 brussel sprouts and a quick ham and cheese on brown from somewhere. Hopefully this time I don't change my 'unable to make decisions' mind.
- Tuesday Jun 29, 2004
Yesterday I had one more slice of pizza for dinner, two boiled potatoes with whole wheat spagetthi and brussel sprouts for supper, and 1/2 a ham and cheese sandwich on brown as a late night snack because apparently I thought I deserved to have a sandwich as a late night snack. I also managed to sneak in some doritos as well. Might as well be brutally honest here; I also had a Dole strawberry/kiwi fruit drink. Lots of sugar in those things.
Today's plan is leftover potatoes, noodles and sprouts.
I'll be gone this weekend from Thursday to Monday camping and i'm really hoping that I can make some healthy choices. I've already gone over a grocery list with a friend, and it seems like we might have it cased. We're taking lots of veggies and bottled water, and there are tons of hiking trails where we're going. I'm hoping i'll get my exercise and be able to clear my head as well! When I get back, I want to have a new outlook on life and I want it to be a good one. I need to rest.
It was so beautiful outside yesterday. Actually, it's been wonderful since Sunday and I just can't believe we've had two straight days of sun and great weather! And today's looking like it's going to be a great day too. You wouldn't believe the weather we've had here lately, and you'd be as excited as I am to see the temperatures in the 20s (celsius) for once!
Have a great day all!
- Monday Jun 28, 2004
My weekend was not healthy, not healthy at all.
What could I say to motivate myself? What could I do? Obviously, I think i'm a lost cause right now.
I can't remember what I ate on Friday or Saturday and I didn't write it down, so it's also a lost cause. Sunday I had buffet-style salads, hashbrowns and a small slice of ham with eggs and ketchup. After vacuuming out my new 1981 Dodge van, I washed the whole outside and scrubbed the whole inside, then went to work putting in carpet on the floor. It's my shag-wagon. Anyhow, after that I got about an hour's worth of batting and catching practice (and i'm sore today from all the running around I did) and then played some bauchi-ball. Sorry, I'm not sure if that's the correct spelling. Then for supper I had ham and pepperoni pizza and orange juice. I read last night and finally finished a book I was reading, The Dirt by Motley Crue. Good book.
This morning i've already had two slices of leftover pizza. I knew that was a bad idea.
But it was my idea, so I can't blame anyone but myself.
- Friday Jun 25, 2004
Well, that what else turned into something horrendous. All day until supper I went with my boiled potato with onions, raw veggies with light dip and water. Then, for supper I had a hot dog. Okay, still not terrible. Then I drank a can of rootbeer. I mean, come on. I hardly ever drink pop, why did I have to last night? Anyhow, after watching the parade in town (Loonie Thursday was yesterday - don't ask me) I walked back home and tried to read. But all I could think about was food. I was so hungry I was almost willing to eat more veggies. But then the salivating thought of red meat, pickles and salty fries took over my mind. I went through the drive through at A&W and hammered down a momma burger with cheese and medium fries in about 10 minutes. Then I felt disgustingly guilty. And I was still hungry.
Sigh - if I would have held out and just gone to sleep, I would have woken up this morning a lot happier. Instead I woke up starving. Oh, yes, starving. I barely made it to work on time, so I had to improvise on breakfast. I had a french cappaccino and a chocolate bar. Oh, fire me now. I don't deserve to even try to lose weight anymore. What's left for today? It should be nothing, but of course I don't have that kind of willpower, so it's water and raw veggies. No dip. Because I forgot to bring any. And supper will be whatever is on special at our little corner cafe that my boy and I always go to for supper. They usually have healthy good stuff everyday, you just have to ask for no fries. So let's see if I can refrain from eating at night tonight.
My back hurts.
I'm going to go for a walk tonight. That's about it. Just thought you should know.
- Thursday Jun 24, 2004
I've decided not to step on the scale for a little while for fear of what it might tell me. I've also decided to stop deluding myself. So, i'm a walking contradiction right now. Oh well.
Yesterday was a good day. I had one serving of pretzels, one boiled potato with cooked onions and a dab of butter, three servings of raw veggies with a small amount of ranch dip and an egg salad sandwich on brown bread with coffee.
Then I played ball. And ran and ran and ran. Let me gloat for a moment - I hit an infield grand slam. Boy, am I stoked about that!
Then I decided I deserved a beer. Then I decided to hit the bar up for some drink specials. And had two paralyzers. Well, there's my calcium for the day I guess.
All in all, not a bad day. Today's plan is raw veggies with light ceasear dip, one boiled potato and one serving pretzels. I don't know what else.