- Monday Aug 13, 2018
Friday after work I went to the gym to coach; no one showed up for the session so I got to work out with a co-worker instead for a bit. That was nice, actually, and lots of fun, which I needed because I was so bummed about being so sick that day. With fear in my heart, I ate a protein bar on the way home from the gym #1 because I was hungry and wanted to stop myself from stopping at a fast food joint for grease, and #2 because I wanted to see if it would make me sick. Success...it didn't! When I got home I had chicken and rice for supper and one more bathroom break before hitting the sack. And by sack, I mean couch, since it was far too hot to sleep upstairs with no air conditioning.
Up early on Saturday morning to coach at the gym again; I coached two sessions and drove straight home. For breakfast, I just ate a container of lactose-free yogurt. No problems! On the way home, another protein bar. Sipped on coffee with almond milk. I did some laundry, had some chicken and rice, then packed a bag and headed to BF's for the rest of the weekend. For supper, we ate at BF's sister's house and had burgers and baby potatoes. For dessert I tried a couple spoons of a whipped treat she made, then gave the rest to BF to finish. During the afternoon, I had a lot of stomach pain, and in the evening a couple of bathroom breaks but otherwise i'd say it was a better day than Friday!
I did not get a good sleep Saturday night, so Sunday was a late morning. I had brown toast with peanut butter and half of a banana for breakfast, then we did some shopping and went to the swimming pool for the rest of the day. I was craving potato chips, so I had a few doritos. After we popped supper in the oven to cook, BF and I went to the gym and had an awesome workout! Finally, we are working out again! It felt so good to be back at it, putting in the time. I had pork ribs and rice for supper. No explosive bathroom breaks on Sunday! WOOHOO!! BF helped me vacuum and wipe down my car, then we just hung out for the rest of the evening. While BF and his daughter had ice cream, I ate another lactose-free yogurt.
It was not hot overnight, especially sleeping in BF's cold basement, but I woke up around 1:00am sweating profusely, literally dripping with sweat! Wasn't my tummy though, so I just changed my clothes and went back to sleep. This morning came quickly; the 45 minute drive back home before heading to work this morning felt like it dragged on and on. So far today i've had a lactose-free yogurt with a banana oatmeal bar and sipping on coffee and almond milk. Feeling good so far!
- Friday Aug 10, 2018
Last night I didn't have the best sleep, I got sick late at night with stomach pain and it kept me up for about an hour.
Coaching today after work! I cooked a supply of chicken and rice for the next couple of days for myself. Today i'll give you an example of the number of times I have to use the bathroom...
7:00 am bathroom break
B: dairy-free smoothie (lactose-free yogurt, almond milk, bananas & strawberries), coffee (with almond milk, no sugar)
10:00 am bathroom break
NOTE TO SELF: Stomach pain, but I CANNOT cut out the coffee! I am addicted! But wait, I've barely had any coffee so far this morning, just a few sips...it must be something in the smoothie!
12:00 pm bathroom break
L: chicken and rice
1:30 pm so far no pain, but my tummy is rumbling so much!
2:30 pm bathroom break ughhhh
NOTE TO SELF: Oh does my tummy hurt now! Going to try some soda crackers.
D: chicken and rice
S: soda crackers
I'll get to the bottom of this eventually...in the meantime, if you haven't noticed, I haven't been doing much working out. I'm far more interested in applying heating pads and hugging my pillows lately. This is definitely some kind of flare up. I couldn't even imagine going out for a long ride!
- Thursday Aug 09, 2018
Oh my goodness, I didn't realize just how sick i'd been until I tried to play ball last night. Holy cannoli, did I sweat buckets. The really positive thing about it though is that I slept like a ROCKSTAR and I feel so much better this morning!
B: dairy-free yogurt smoothie, gingerale
S: soda crackers
L: small chicken breast
S: soda crackers
S: rice, gingerale
D: small chicken breast, rice
It seemed that only the gingerale set me off, so no more of that. Today I am setting a goal to follow the FODMAP diet plan. I plan to take it day by day; I want to try it out to see just how restrictive it could get. I will likely be living on rice for the next little while LOL! Thank goodness I love rice.
B: dairy-free yogurt smoothie (1/2 banana and strawberries), coffee (with almond milk, no sugar)
NOTE TO SELF: That didn't work this morning; probably the coffee. I feel awful.
L: rice, cut up sausage with hard mozzarella cheese (FODMAP says hard cheeses are OK?? This might ring true for me, as I have not experienced much pain when I eat this particular cheese. Maybe it is low in lactose.) I don't know about the sausage; it's not on the list but it hasn't seemed to bother me at all.
NOTE TO SELF: This was better! Much better!
D: small chicken breast, rice
S: soda crackers, dairy-free ice cream
NOTE TO SELF: Pain late at night; had to use heating pad, took tylenol. Noticed the dairy-free ice cream had a lot of sugar in it...maybe that's why.
Really hoping that none of this will set me off. If it doesn't, tomorrow will look very similar. I am going to take it easy on the veggies until I can get to the grocery store; I know what I currently have will not be the best to eat - cauliflower and broccoli are both 'gassy' vegetables, and that's basically what I have in stock.
I understand that i'm not getting a whole lot of calories in; please just keep in mind this is only temporary!
- Wednesday Aug 08, 2018
I had an OK weekend; we had an extra day off on Monday for a statutory holiday. I did my coaching, and we had a family day on Sunday, and Monday I started feeling crappy; was sick off work yesterday. So this is a short work week I guess; I had caught up on some work last week so I actually don't feel like i'm starting this week behind. I just wish I wasn't starting it still feeling crappy.
I have been experiencing so many food intolerances, i'm beginning to wonder what I actually can eat that won't make me feel sick. Hopefully, this is only a phase and I am not really intolerant to all the food because oh my goodness that would suck. I could also have a stomach bug, who knows. This morning, I made a dairy-free smoothie; also sipping on gingerale and snacking on soda crackers. Too scared to try anything with more substance but maybe i'll find something in the fridge to try for lunch.
I downloaded the FODMAP diet plan, so I think I might try and attempt this sometime after my trip in September. Basically, I would eliminate most things from my diet for about 8 weeks, then reintroduce them one at a time to see what I am intolerant to. Maybe I will try it sooner though, especially if my stomach continues to disagree with me about everything. Has anyone else tried this plan out? Any thoughts?
Slopitch tonight, our last game before playoffs begin next week.
- Friday Aug 03, 2018
I might be having a grumpy day today. There are a lot of reasons behind the way i'm feeling today; mostly based around feeling inadequate. Which is hogwash and I know it. Sometimes my mind likes to play tricks on me though; today is one of those days.
So, to try and bring myself around, I am going to have a really good lunch of a roast beef sandwich and lots of water this afternoon while i'm at work. And right now, i'm going to grin like an idiot until I actually feel like i'm not faking it.
And later, after I coach at the gym, i'm going to do my own workout, come home, take a warm bath, and go to bed early.
- Thursday Aug 02, 2018
Slopitch last night, coaching group training this morning. Probably taking a nap after work.
Valuable lesson learned for me this morning in group training; while my role as a coach is to push people to do their best and to challenge themselves, I don't always observe when one person within the group might be struggling a bit more than the rest. One person in particular this morning had just gotten back into working out, and was having a hard time reaching the '300 calories burned' point (we have heartrate monitors at the gym that show calorie burn on a tv screen). At the end of our workout I was about to shout out "let's get ready for our cooldown" when I noticed the other participants gathered around this person, clapping and encouraging them. I happily joined in when I realized they were encouraging them to reach their '300 burned point', and with only a few more calories to go, we fake-skipped our way to success (some of us with a few alligator tears in our eyes).
The moral is, even though you might look to me and it is my job to encourage you to do your best every day, it takes the whole team to come together and actually make it happen. There is not much we can do without help from others. So accept it, do what you need to do with it, but accept that others are around you to support you and to help you. Let them in.
- Tuesday Jul 31, 2018
Actually posting two days in a row, I can't believe it.
I made fried rice for supper yesterday (not really, more like steamed rice and then warmed up canned veggies in the frying pan LOL), and made scrambled eggs to go with it instead of chicken. Wasn't in the mood to make a large meal. I will do that today, since BF and his daughter are coming over later; lemon pepper chicken with steamed rice and boiled veggies. Maybe roasted veggies, they're way more nutritious.
Is it terrible that I don't remember what I did last night past supper and clean-up? I don't know, i'm wracking my brain but I really think I just watched tv, took a bath, and went to bed.
After work i'm driving into the city to pick up a tent that someone is selling for $40; we went camping this summer and borrowed a friend's tent, which was an 8 person, 2 room tent and was AWESOME so now we're looking for one. I think I may have found one that is exactly the same as the one we borrowed. Hopefully it isn't missing anything and is in decent shape.
Then, BF will be here probably for supper and to hang out for a bit. BF lives about 45 minutes away; at first, this was perfect because it allowed me the personal time that I still needed for myself, but now it's almost an inconvenience because after a year together, we're wanting to spend more time with each other and it's not always so easy to plan. He has mentioned moving in together, but then who would move where? How would I manage my workday? What about coaching? And my workouts? And his kids? Obviously, i'm not likely ready for that anytime soon because I feel excitement, but also a little bit of terror every time it's mentioned. Change is hard.
- Monday Jul 30, 2018
My tattoo is at the itchy healing stage...gawd it's driving me crazy. That, and I mostly wear longer sleeves to cover it at work (adhering to appropriate office wear), and the sleeves make it itch SO MUCH MORE! I guess it's my own fault isn't it; I decided I needed to have another tattoo.
One of the cities I coach in had a ribfest this weekend, so I went to check it out. Twice. So much for trying to watch what I eat, huh. In fact, I almost made myself sick Friday night because I ate so much meat in one sitting. If someone would like to do a case study on me, you know, How She Didn't Know When Enough Was Enough, or something, feel free. I've got tons of content.
Besides coaching, I attended a kettlebell workshop on Saturday morning. I could barely drive myself home afterwards, not even kidding. My arms were even more wobbly than jell-o. Look up "kettlebell snatch" on you tube; that's what I did for the last eight or so minutes of the workshop, exactly 200 of them. It fired me right up, let me tell you, I was a total ball of sweat by the end of that eight minutes.
B: 1 slice protein bread, toasted, with pb / coffee
L: 1 cup tomato soup, grilled cheese sandwich on protein bread / coffee (leftovers, about half a cup of the soup is still left)
S: water, granola bar
D: thinking about making fried rice, chicken breast, and veggies. Might nap instead, then wake up ravenous and eat ice cream (thereby restarting the vicious cycle of making myself sick from eating). Just kidding, that doesn't sound like fun. Chicken and rice it is!
My schedule calls for a 10 kilometer time trial on the bike tonight in the big city. Sadly, the thought of driving over three hours to bike hard and fast for less than 20 minutes...just doesn't appeal to me anymore. I love cycling, but it's being incredibly high maintenance lately and very demanding...i'm not too sure I can manage the attention it requires as well as I used to. I literally had nothing else to do in the summer except go to the lake. Now I have coaching, and BF, and kettlebell snatches. Maybe my priorities are shifting a bit. I wish I could do it all, but I am not a super hero (except in my dreams I am. a really hot super hero, with firey red hair who is eerily similar to Harley Quinn from Suicide Squad).
You guys have a good week!
- Thursday Jul 26, 2018
I find myself taking off extra days here and there from work. It is nice to be away from the unpleasantness, but I hurt myself by coming back to even more work than I had when I left! Gotta pay the bills somehow though...so I guess I gotta work!
I am finding coaching to be a nice lift in my day; sometimes I worry that I won't 'get it right', but every single time it has been fun and i've gotten through it just fine. I am coaching again Friday after work and Saturday morning, and then taking part in a kettlebell workshop on Saturday as well. I'm really looking forward to that - I love using kettlebells :)
So last weekend after I coached on Saturday morning, I golfed in a ladies' best ball tournament for the rest of the day, then drove to BF's house. We were going to get up early on Sunday and go for a long bike ride; unfortunately, it was raining when we woke up. By lunchtime the rain had stopped, it was overcast and windy but we decided to give it a try anyways. We made it 100km! That was just over five hours on the bike, boy my butt STILL hurts from that one, but it was a fantastic success and i'm so happy we decided to forge ahead.
Went swimming Sunday night and had a lovely supper of ribs and potatoes, then basically passed out on the couch watching The Martian.
I was off on Monday and Tuesday, so on Monday afternoon, BF took the afternoon off and we took his daughter and her friend to the water park. The hot tub felt great on my ouchy spots after that long bike ride, and then we went for sushi and pizza before heading back home. I can tell that i've been indulging a bit too much; feeling pretty bloated these days and my pants are not as loose as they were just a month ago. I guess I should taper all the carbs a bit ;) especially since i'm not working out as much during the summer as I was in the winter/spring.
Tuesday I got a new tattoo; it was done on my right arm; some sunflowers in my Dad's memory and the words "love you so much" in his handwriting. He passed away last year in May, and i've been wanting to do something to memorialize him ever since. I know he would love it.
I am hoping to have a laid back weekend this weekend; I have been feeling especially tired and sleeping a lot for the last few weeks, also having some tummy troubles. I am hoping it is just because of my eating habits and not something more serious to consider. I started taking my iron supplements again, and I think I should start on B12 again too. Just don't have any energy. Will probably have a nap right after work today.
- Wednesday Jul 18, 2018
My feelings of unpleasantness towards my work situation have not changed much, unfortunately. I had a whole week off, and within the first hour of coming back to work this week, I was already counting to 10 and trying to calm myself down! Is it me? Some other things not work related are starting to weigh on me; maybe i'm picking up on the littlest bit of idiocy and making it something more than it needs to be. Perhaps I should just get over myself?
Camping wasn't really that great, but I didn't have to work so there was that. We had tornado warnings and thunderstorms for two days, and then one day was super windy. So really, one day of good weather out of four. That. Sucked. Balls. Try keeping an 11 year old entertained when there is absolutely nothing to do! I can only play so many card games, 'yo. I was not cut out to look after kids :(
I did manage to get a nice long bike ride in, a few minutes short of 4 hours in the saddle! It felt really good to get that done, and I managed to make it over 80 kilometers in total. Hopefully one or two more of those before the 120 kilometer ride in September.
I also completed a 5k Foam Fest run last weekend; it was so muddy and dirty!!! Lots of fun though. And i've gone on two nice long walks since the weekend - 4.5 k and 6.5 k last night. This weekend I am coaching at the gym, and then playing in a ladies' golf tournament, so i'm looking forward to spending some quality time with my bestie :)
I haven't been eating great since coming home from camping; many meals of toast and eggs LOL and I do not have too much for groceries in the fridge. I have no motivation to get out and buy good food, but last night I found some pork chops in the freezer so I made those, and ate it with rice and some veggies I also found in the freezer! Thank goodness for freezers, huh?! And now I have leftovers for a couple of days so that's good.