December 3 - toast with pb, coffee (200); chicken with potatoes and veggies (450); orange (80); chicken burger with fries (900); snack mix (250). 1,880 calories.
Feeling okay today, happy it's Friday. I have a slight headache but think it is just from stressing over my cousin coming with all that furniture. Tried to make some space for it, but I really don't know where it will all go. Also don't want to deal with it right now, but I suppose that's life isn't it?! I tried to say "maybe not a good idea for you to visit me during pandemic" but I am ****e at saying "no" to people, so here we are.
Making ribs with potatoes, quinoa and salad for supper tonight. I haven't had ribs in a long time so looking forward to it!
legcramps - Thursday Dec 03, 2020
December 1 - Bike 60 minutes; burned 340 calories.
December 2 - oatmeal, coffee (200); edo chicken teriyaki (550); hot dog (350); chicken fingers with fries (750); kit kat ice cream bar (200). 2,050 calories.
Still not on a great track with nutrition. Working on it. I don't even know why I had that ice cream, I didn't want it but ate it anyways.
Very busy week, starting with the late meeting on Monday, then Tuesday my water heater started leaking AND the pilot light went out so no hot showers for us. Wednesday I had my ortho appointment for my ankle - recommended sports therapy so will have to make an initial appointment for that and see when I can get started. We got back late last night after a very full day. Today the plumber is coming to replace my water heater, then this evening I work a shift at the gym. Tomorrow my cousin is arriving with some furniture for my house (some of my grandma's stuff is being gifted to me). They will leave on Saturday after breakfast, then I will go to BFs for the rest of the weekend to wrap gifts and get our Christmas cards done.
This month will fly by if it stays this busy...
legcramps - Tuesday Dec 01, 2020
November 30 - REST
November 30 - toast with pb, coffee (200); toast with pb, two cupcakes (700); two slices pizza (800); ice cream (250). UGH. 1,950 calories.
Absolutely nothing nutritious about yesterday's meals! LOL, I didn't even think about it much until I wrote it down this morning. Going to have to balance that out with today's meals! Thinking about slow cooker chicken, rice and veggies for supper. Yum.
I am a little stressed; tried to unwind on the weekend by putting up decorations, but I guess it only placated me. I have some family members going through some things, some related to covid, some related to other losses we've experienced in the last year. BF and I have been trying to work out what Christmas will look like and how we will be able to see his kids. Work environment is definitely more stressful right now and I have a lot on my plate. But really, REALLY trying to stay positive! I want to stop talking about all the negatives so much, because NEGATIVE breeds more NEGATIVE.
So I got some good sleep last night - I was able to take an extra hour to stay home because my meeting last night lasted over three hours - and spent a good chunk of my extra time at home this morning drinking coffee and hanging out with myself. I came to work ready for the day!
legcramps - Monday Nov 30, 2020
November 24 - bike ride 60 minutes; burned 467 calories.
November 25 - REST
November 26 - REST
November 27 - bike ride 60 minutes; burned 523 calories / short upper body workout; burned 135 calories.
November 26 - toast with pb, two eggs, coffee (400); rice with veggies and mozzarella (500); snack mix, coke zero (250); wok box orange chicken (950). 2,100 calories.
November 27 - toast with pb, coffee (200); salmon, rice and veggies (550); snack mix, coke zero (500); pork, rice and veggies (550). 1,800 calories.
November 28 - toast, hashbrowns, bacon, two eggs (750); snack mix, coke zero (500); chicken, rice and veggies (550). 1,800 calories.
November 29 - toast, bacon, two eggs, peanut butter (650); snack mix, coke zero (500); vanilla cupcake (300); subway turkey (750); freezie (70). 2,270 calories.
My eating has gotten away on me recently; too much snacking. Trying to reel that in now that i'm back at home from spending the weekend with BF. I also spent more time off my feet than usual over the last week, trying to give my ankle some recovery time.
It wasn't hard, though. Wednesday I had an evening meeting and then met up with BF. Thursday I worked at the gym in the evening and then met up with BF afterwards so I didn't stay to workout. And on Saturday we spent the whole day putting up Christmas lights and decorations and had a social distance visit with BF's sister for a couple of hours. So I was distracted enough to not think about working out, otherwise i'm sure it wouldn't have turned out that way.
I didn't get a lot of sleep last night, so I am feeling really exhausted this morning and it has not put me in a good mood at all. I also have a meeting this evening that I am not looking forward to; I know they will be leaning hard on me as they always do, and I am just not in the mood for it! December is always a really busy month for me at work, and it always seems to also be the time where other people need more help than usual. It's very frustrating, as I feel like they expect me to be able to do everything for them along with everything I normally do, along with all the new processes that are implemented in December for varying reasons. Along with the pandemic, this is really feeling quite impossible.
legcramps - Tuesday Nov 24, 2020
November 20 - gym workout; burned 495 calories.
November 21 - REST.
November 22 - gym workout; burned 546 calories.
November 23 - indoor bike ride; burned 481 calories.
November 20 - oatmeal, coffee (200); rice bowl (400); protein bar (250); wok box chicken teriyaki (750); freezie (70). 1,670 calories.
November 21 - protein waffle, coffee, two eggs (400); snack mix (250); coke zero, cheesies (250); beef tacos (850); ice cream (250). 2,000 calories.
I don't remember when I weighed myself last; I think it was a few weeks ago. Anyways I lost another three pounds, so it seems to be levelling off now which is okay with me. A few more pounds would be great, but I won't bet the farm on it.
So the last few weeks have been rough on my foot. I've basically returned to my regularly scheduled fitness level, albeit excepting a few things that I still cannot/should not do. It may have been too much too soon, as i've been experiencing a bit of pain throughout the areas of my previously broken ankle.
My conondrum now may seem quite silly to you: Every part of my brain says "scale back on the exercise" and yet I can't do it.
I can't, for so many reasons; because it's the only thing right now that I have that is a distraction from having to live in a world where so much chaos and aggression exists. I can't because when I don't, I look for other ways to fill my time and walking back and forth to the fridge is one of them. Alcohol is another. I can't because I feel so much anxiety and worry and self-doubt - and the part of the day when I exercise is the ONE part of my day where I don't have to feel any particular way about myself, where complete exhaustion is preferable over EVERYTHING else that could or has happened that day.
So there you have it. I should. But I can't.
To counter-balance the above rant, let me praise my light therapy box once more. I need to get more sleep than I am, but even through all the sleepless parts of my nights, through all the anxieties of the day, I am still getting up in the morning feeling like I can get through it. I am still waking up READY. Since I have been using the light box, i've had a grand total of 2 headaches, that's it! This morning because I went to sleep very late I thought I would snooze once, but within minutes I was awake and ready to get out of bed after the first alarm. It is still BLOWING MY MIND LOL.
legcramps - Friday Nov 20, 2020
November 19 - gym workout; burned 298 calories...ACTIVE RECOVERY
November 19 - coffee, oatmeal (200); meatballs with rice (550); protein bar (250); chicken burger with fries (900); freezie (70). 1,970 calories.
Well, my first coaching session participant cancelled on me when I was already at the gym getting ready for him, so that freed up an hour of my time... I was just going to check the computer or clean the equipment, but then decided to do an active recovery workout (essentially, I walked around the gym doing random exercises that didn't really affect my heartrate much LOL). I did try to choose exercises that superset each other, and ended up doing six different upper body movements plus some stair climbing. It was a fine recovery workout.
Second session was lots of fun to coach and everyone seemed to be in a great mood - w hich was the complete opposite at my day job so it was nice to end the night with some laughter.
Drove back home in a snowstorm, but everyone slowed down a bit and it was fine - even though it took a few extra minutes to get home, I arrived safe and sound.
And now it's Friday! I've been waiting for this day all week and i'm looking forward to enjoying a weekend at home.
legcramps - Thursday Nov 19, 2020
November 17 - indoor bike ride 45 minutes; burned 382 calories.
November 18 - gym workout; burned 435 calories.
November 17 - oatmeal, coffee (200); leftover rice bowl (250) and leftover slice of pizza (250); snack mix (250); meatballs and rice (550) toast with becel (280); freezie (70). 1,850 calories.
November 18 - oatmeal, coffee (200); meatballs and rice (350) toast with becel (140); protein bar (250); salted almonds (350); meatballs and rice (550); freezie (140). 1,980 calories.
Working a shift at the gym tonight. I have people in both sessions I coach, so it will be busy for the full three hours therefore I will likely take a rest day from exercise today.
Spent a few minutes after waking up listening to the birds however I might need to lower the volume because the first chirps are almost shocking to the system LOL. I can literally FEEL my mood brightening as I sit underneath my light box while I eat my breakfast. So far, this has been an amazing process of discovery! I only hope it provides the same results three weeks in.
I haven't weighed myself since I posted that I lost four pounds, I think it's been a few weeks so hopefully I will remember to do this when i'm at the gym. I don't have a scale at home. It doesn't really matter as normally I "measure" based on how I feel, but I might weigh-in just for the heck of it. I have been flip-flopping between feeling good about my body and feeling not-so-good about it. On the not-so-good days, I try to shrug it off and move on. I know the feeling is fleeting and will pass. Forward movement is all I can ask of myself.
I am still working through my nutrition course and the textbook is getting quite scientific now. It's taking me much longer to get through the chapters, but I don't have a deadline so i'm just getting at it when I can, and if I have to re-read things, I do. I have an enormous notebook that is half full of notes already too; it's been helpful for me for retention purposes. As I go through it, I am trying to adopt some of the theories into my daily life. Creating AWARENESS in my food choices. Being consistent in my daily routines - eating breakfast, getting in a workout of some type or active recovery, developing a habit of conscious food choice, etc. It is hard to create habits and easy to break them!
So I was finally able to use my dawn simulator this morning. Granted, I also set the alarm on my phone just in case I did something wrong again. So I had both going off this morning.
When my phone alarm went off, I rolled over to 'snooze' it as i've been in the habit of doing since starting to wake up in the dark, but as soon as I opened my eyes I was like, 'oh' because the dawn simulator had already brightened up the room. And then almost as soon as I turned off the alarm on my phone, the birds started chirping through the simulator which was so nice to hear.
I got a second light as part of my purchase (it was a kit that I ordered), so after I got out of bed (pretty much five minutes after listening to the birds chirping), I made my breakfast and sat underneath the second light for about 20 more minutes.
Today, my headache didn't start raging again until almost 3:00 p.m.
Today, my spirits have been better than at any time in the last month.
Definitely going to give it a good few weeks before I officially decide if it's helping, but you can probably imagine the stark relief I felt being headache-free for the majority of the day.
November 14 - coffee, toast with peanut butter, two eggs (550); chocolate chip cookies (250); pizza (750); rice, chicken (250); potato chips (250). 2,050 calories.
November 15 - coffee, chocolate chip cookies (250); burger with fries (950); wok box leftovers (750); freezie (70). 2,020 calories.
I got my dawn simulator on Friday, but I haven't been able to try it yet. Last night I thought I had it set up, but I forgot to turn on the "alarm" so it didn't work this morning. Will try again tonight!
It looks like we are in a covid surge at the moment, so it has been a little more stressful around here lately. We have been mandated to mask in all public spaces - which is what a lot of people were already doing anyways - and there are further restrictions with gatherings, etc. for the next month or so. I am still struggling with a headache, going on six days now. I just took a sudafed to see if that helps. I haven't been drinking enough water lately at all, so it might be stemming from that. Who knows!
Planning on another gym workout tonight and I have to pick up a couple of things after work today as well. Busy day, but hopefully will be able to relax this evening at home.
Feeling pretty tired this week, but i've been pushing my workouts quite a bit so that might be why. I've also had a headache for the last couple of days that doesn't seem to go away with sleep, which is frustrating. I really need that dawn simulator. Maybe i'll check the mail today to see if it has arrived.
I had a lower calorie count for yesterday simply because I was too tired to continue eating. Working a full day and then being at the gym, I didn't get home until almost 9:00 p.m. last night and still needed to eat supper LOL. I'm glad I only committed to training people one night a week - how on earth did I ever do three nights a week before covid! I wish I had that energy again. Anyways, I guess I have delicious leftovers for today!
I did get a random workout in though; I warmed up on the stair climber, then did sets of squats with resistance, then bar hangs, and finished off with a quick kettlebell workout. My abdominal muscles are REALLY sore from the Remembrance Day workout on Wednesday, so the kettlebell workout pushed my limits a little bit LOL. Sometimes it's good for me to workout by myself - then no one hears how much I complain about the exercises that I CHOOSE FOR MYSELF! Haha.
I slightly regret that Remembrance Day workout, but am proud of myself for finishing it.
Probably heading to BFs after work today. Have a great weekend!