- Saturday morning: head to city to see Dad and drop off dinners.
- Saturday afternoon: notice he's throwing up a lot and unable to keep food down.
- Convince him to let me take him to Emergency.
- Wait for 6 hours in Emergency.
- 9:30p.m.: Dad is admitted to hospital; look for dinner on my way to his apartment for the night.
- 11p.m.: Try to sleep; fail. Try to sleep; fail. Try to sleep; fail.
- Sunday morning 6a.m.: eyes wide open; get ready and head back to hospital.
- 10a.m.: Dad is released, after tests reveal that his esophagus is only swollen, not damaged. He eats jello for breakfast and dislikes this very much.
- 11a.m.: get Dad home and reiterate that Ensure Plus is good for him; beg him to please have at least one bottle a day so that he will stop losing 5 pounds a week. Not even exaggerating.
- Sunday afternoon: head home; go straight to Grandma's for Mother's Day lunch. Yawn a few times. Try to be in good spirits for them.
- 4p.m.: go home; change; cut the grass and clean up the outside patio furniture. Keep thinking today is only Saturday.
- 6p.m.: binge on tostitos. Have dinner. Binge on more tostitos. Keep thinking today is only Saturday.
- 7p.m.: run a few more errands, forget to put washed laundry into dryer.
- Monday morning 5a.m.: not going to happen.
- Monday morning 6a.m.: not going to happen.
- Monday morning 7a.m.: just one more snooze. Why do I think it's Sunday today?
- At work 8:30a.m.: realize i'm pretty damn tired; fill my cup of coffee and begin to monotonously move through the day.
No Insanity workout since Friday; blegh.
legcramps - Friday May 11, 2012
Insanity Max Interval Circuit done for the day!
A friend cut off a chunk of her aloe vera plant and I wrapped my finger in it overnight. It's feeling and looking much better today and i'm able to type without too much discomfort.
Bad news yesterday; Dad went into emergency as his esophagus closed up on him and he is unable to take in any food. He is also being stubborn and won't use the feeding tube so he's lost another great amount of weight. His ex wife tells me that he's avoiding telling me the truth, probably to save me from worry, but that he is not doing well at all. He keeps telling me he's doing okay, he's getting enough food, he doesn't need anything, etc. I really think this is why I avoid confrontation with people so much - i've learned from the best! Anyways, they let him go home last night but he has to go in this morning to see what they can do for him.
Went to a birthday party last night - had a slice of black forest cake and a mocha and just relaxed and had a few laughs. I needed them.
I was planning on a trip this weekend with a friend to see my cousin and her family, but if Dad is not better today or gets admitted to the hospital I won't be going anywhere. Bummer.
Breakfast - bagel, pb, coffee
Lunch - cafeteria
Snack - yogurt, walnuts, strawberries, granola
Dinner - unsure; no plans at this time
legcramps - Thursday May 10, 2012
I'm taking a day of rest from exercise today, unless I become antsy later on! This morning I slept in a little and it felt kinda nice! But not as good as a hard morning workout feels LOL.
First slopitch game of the season last night! We won, and I cracked the knuckle of my pinky finger. Good times! Darn thing better heal fast.
We hadn't practiced before this game, and you could tell. It was a struggle trying to get focused and for me to try and connect the bat with the ball. It just wasn't working for me, and then I managed to hurt myself in the field catching a ball. It was a darn good thing I brought beer LOL!
I patted myself on the back this morning, for doing so well yesterday with calories. Yes, I had three beer and a lovely vodka-infused jello and whip cream concoction, but my calories were within my range. It isn't often on a ball night that I am able to persevere so well! And my 6" turkey breast sub from Subway was like the cherry on top, not having to cook for myself.
Unfortunately, this morning I noticed that I didn't have any milk left so I ate the other 6" of my sub for breakfast instead of cereal. After work I want to do some shopping, and then a friend has a birthday cake that he needs help eating ;) yes, of course I will help, only one slice though.
legcramps - Wednesday May 09, 2012
I really wanted to sleep in this morning, get some extra rest. I'm not in a race; my goal is to finish the Insanity program, but that doesn't mean I should hurt myself trying to get it done in the timeframe the program gives as a guideline. Not everyone can move at a pace like that.
All the same, I still rolled myself out of bed and did Max Cardio Conditioning.
It was good, though I had to modify some of the moves. This sucker is a killer; I bet if I went all out with this workout I wouldn't last five minutes past the warm-up! I always think during the workouts that I want to tell you guys about a certain exercise, and then when i'm writing my entry I forget the name of the exercise and so you never know what kinds of moves i'm doing. Today is no different, but I want to tell you about my new favorite move. Obviously I can't remember what it's called, but it has something to do with diamonds. Girls' Best Friend and all that LOL.
So you jump in the air and lift your arms above your head - AHA, I think it's called a Diamond Jack - like you would for a jumping jack. Instead of jumping your feet out wide, you kick your feet back and up, forming a diamond shape with your legs. Probably doesn't make any sense, but I love this move!
Looks like that ^
I feel so 'fit' when I do these LOL.
Breakfast - hastily eaten cereal with almond milk and flaxseed before getting my rear to work.
Lunch - sausage and tossed salad, KRAFT peppercorn ranch dressing.
Snack - yogurt, walnuts, strawberries, granola.
Dinner - I think I am going to splurge today and have Subway for dinner. It's a good day for Subway seeing as there is no meat in the fridge besides more sausage ;)
Evening - um. beer. Beer League slo-pitch tonight! Better work my butt off for those drinks!
legcramps - Tuesday May 08, 2012
I'm always so out-of-it on Mondays, it's ridiculous really. I wrote that I had eaten my usual breakfast yesterday when in fact, I hadn't eaten anything. I failed to 'remember' this until sometime in the afternoon, at which time I decided to have my breakfast as an evening snack. Well, that didn't happen. I barely managed to eat dinner for whatever reason. Well, I know the reason. It's called "The Computer Games". It was 10:30pm by the time I lifted my eyes off the computer to take a break.
I guess breakfast has become such a routine that I just assumed i'd eaten LOL. It's funny now, but I was upset with myself yesterday because I needed the nutrition!
Anyways, it didn't deter me from getting another Insanity workout in this morning. And I managed to crush one that left me happily full of sweat.
Looks like the weather is finally starting to smarten up; the sun is shining today and there's hardly a headwind in sight! I hope the ball diamonds dry out enough by tomorrow evening so that we can play our first game. I bought myself another ball glove and batting gloves, so i'm super excited to try them out! It's the little things LOL.
Breakfast - cereal, almond milk, flaxseed (no really, I actually did eat this morning LOL)
Lunch - tossed salad, 3 oz steak, peppercorn ranch dressing (this stuff is amazing)
Snack - yogurt, granola, strawberries, walnuts
Dinner - grilled chicken with tossed salad and raw veggies
legcramps - Monday May 07, 2012
What a busy Monday it's been so far!
Yesterday morning I woke up with a headache that lasted the whole day, and by 10pm it was so bad I was bowing to the porcelain throne. I hear that happens with migraines, so that's what it must have been because I felt a lot better afterwards and feel okay so far today.
So I made an executive decision after trying Saturday's Insanity workout and only making it through about 20 minutes of it. I took the rest of Saturday AND Sunday off to rest and recover.
I blasted through Insanity Max Interval circuit this morning and felt awesome! Of course there are still some exercises that I can't do yet, but I am happy with what I was able to do.
Breakfast - oops!
Lunch - cheeseburger (it went to a good cause; the dog park in town).
It was recovery day today. Spoiler alert - i'll be whining again, so if you're not interested in listening to me whine, skip over to the next paragraph. The true kicker to month 2 so far is Max Recovery class. I popped 'er in and pressed play and thought to myself 'thank God, an easier day'. HA....ha. ha. Correct only in that I did not reach the calorie burn I wanted to reach. Incorrect in that my legs and arms are so shot that I can barely do the moves with any amount of confidence right now. Ok. Vent over.
There's no need to comfort me, I realize that i'm just being a whiney little brat. I'll get over it, very soon I think. In fact, I believe as soon as I get into week 2 and start these workouts over again, I will once again begin to crush them with my pinky finger. Yes, that's right. The pinky one.
Aside from a lackluster performance this morning, i'm feeling a lot better than I was at the beginning of the week. I'm killing my protein levels and even since the last two days i've felt an amazing difference in my energy levels. Of course, last night I had friends over to do some leg waxing (FUN) until 11:30, so i'm kinda dragging ass today but I still feel pretty good!
Lunch - whole wheat pita pocket with garlic sausage and TONS of raw veggies and leafy greens.
Snack - yogurt, granola, fruit.
Dinner - steak burger with mozza cheese on 1/2 whole wheat bun with TONS of raw veggies.
Snack - pb and bagel (I didn't need this extra snack last night; i'm doing pretty good with staying away from the daily bagel fix, but it's nice to have with pb if I need a little extra protein).
Hopefully the weekend will bring warmer weather!
legcramps - Thursday May 03, 2012
Breakfast - cereal with flaxseed, almond milk and 1 tsp honey.
This morning's workout was Max Cardio. I felt super awesome about an hour after completing the workout, but pretty darn defeated during it. It isn't like i'm not burning up some major calories, it's just that there's TOO DAMN MANY exercises that make me wanna throw up! It was incredibly frustrating. I felt so defeated, like I was back at square one. I'm really going to need to hang onto my willpower through to the end of these first two weeks, otherwise it simply won't happen. Which CANNOT happen!
So I immediately purchased some L-Glutamine, which is something I should have done weeks ago in preparation for month 2. Unfortunately, i'll have to wait 2-3 weeks for it to arrive and by that time I should be in my final month of Insanity! That's okay however, since my plan is to do the two-month program at least once more, with my Insanity t-shirt on
In the meantime, i've upped my protein and am eating steaks, salmon and chicken like there's no tomorrow! And as of yesterday, am getting my water intake in again. It's funny how easy it is to slip out of good habits and into bad ones! Must always be aware of my nutrition intake!!!
I was recognized at work this morning for the years of service worked in my organization (I work in a healthcare facility). I've been here for ten years, unbelievable! and received a silver necklace and bracelet as a gift from the health region. We were treated to lunch as well, which was amazing and yummy; no need to worry about my afternoon snack either as I couldn't finish my fruit so i'll have it this afternoon instead. There was chicken, spring rolls and veggies with dip (and many other finger foods, but that was all I took besides fruit).
Dinner - 6 oz salmon, tossed salad with a bunch of veggies.
Later - bagel with 2 tblspns pb, if extra protein is required.
Friday is tomorrow!
legcramps - Wednesday May 02, 2012
Breakfast - cereal with flaxseed, almond milk and blueberries.
The soreness in my body right now is making it difficult to motivate myself for Insanity. This morning during Interval Plyos, my calves seized up, my thigh muscles were vibrating with effort, and my knees just didn't want to support me. It wasn't a fun workout, but i'm persevering because I am sure it will get better in a week or so. I need to remember to take it easy on myself - I don't need to keep up with the video, I just need to do my best.
I am going to go back to my menus where I got in a reasonable amount of protein and take a look at what i'm doing differently; and I need to drink more water. Both will help me to get through these more difficult workouts in month 2. Also i'm having trouble getting up early enough to fit in these longer workouts. This morning I pressed snooze no less than five times before rolling myself out of bed! And after my workout I had to rush through a short shower, eat breakfast, and get ready for work all in the course of 20 minutes. I know, i'm complaining today. It will get better.
I was excited for our first slo-pitch game tonight, but it's been cancelled due to the weather - cold and raining, with possible thundershowers later on. So I guess I will try to get to bed early tonight!
legcramps - Tuesday May 01, 2012
It's almost funny the amount of things I did not accomplish yesterday...
I had a delicious Julia Burger (OMG beef, cheese, onion ring) when I went out last night; I saved half of the burger for dinner today. It's high in calories, so that was a smart move anyways, but I really wanted to savour the taste for another day LOL. That, and I didn't want to overload myself on cheddar cheese and make myself sick. I got Insanity workouts to complete, man! I can't get sick!
I also tried a Coors Light Iced Tea. Anyone? My review: drink it while it's cold. Kind of like a Heineken LOL. I like these beers cold; once they've warmed to room temp you might as well throw 'em in the garbage can. My humble opinion.
Insanity Max Interval Circuit this morning kicked my behind. I want to know what is UP with my legs; I have the cardio endurance to finish the workouts, but my legs are not cooperating!!! I guess I should remember that month 1 was very difficult in the beginning, so month 2 probably will be as well. Plus, my legs better be freakin' HOT when this month is over.
I loved this workout, all except for when they do those damn drills. They kill me every time. Up. Down. Up. Down. It never fails to make me feel like puking all over the place. I suppose I should have said "like being sick all over the place" to save you from the possibility of too much information. Sorry.
My prediction for this week is Sore. Capital S.
I haven't had my coffee yet, and i'm trying hard not to zone out while i'm at work LOL. The month 2 workouts are longer (this one was about an hour), so I need to get my butt out of bed even earlier. Another adjustment! I can do it!