- Tuesday Sep 22, 2020
September 21 - 3 sets of heel presses, abc's, mobility stretches, spin bike 20 minutes, and weight-bearing on one crutch. Took all my supplements, protein and vitamins, and one pain med. Had the day off work.
September 22 - 3 sets of heel presses, abc's, mobility stretches, spin bike 20 minutes, AND weight-bearing with no crutches! I managed that for a few minutes before my calf started complaining very loudly I went into the office today until 1:00. Took all my supplements, protein and vitamins, and two pain meds.
I have not been focusing on my diet too much, trying to use all my energy to focus on healing. Today I had a banana, coffee, hash browns with eggs and toast, a croissant, some potato chips, a slice of pizza and a kale salad with baked chicken breast. So not great. I wish I had the energy and focus to work on my healing AND my nutrition, but my brain is not capable of taking on that many things at once LOL.
Forging ahead! One week of physio is complete!
- Monday Sep 21, 2020
September 18th - I drove myself to work today! The morning in the office took a lot out of me though, and I had to rest my ankle once I got home. So I didn't do as much physio as the day before, but I still managed my abc's, a set of heel presses, and I got on the bike for another 15 minutes. I had to ice my ankle for a bit in the evening, and took two pain meds.
September 19th - BF came and we went to the gym. I did my abc's, two sets of heel presses, and spin bike for 15 minutes. While I was at the gym I also did some stretching and mobility work with resistance bands which felt pretty good. I overdid it afterwards when we went for groceries, we spent almost an hour in the store, and all I had were my crutches so I definitely got my workout in, but strained the muscles and tendons in my calf. One pain med.
September 20th - day 5 of physio went well. Still feeling strain in my tendon, but funny enough it doesn't hurt as much when I put pressure on it... three sets of heel presses, abc's, and bike 15 minutes with increased resistance. To compare, on the 2nd day of physio I went 3.43km on the bike, and on this day I went 5.51km. I also completed 10 laps around my kitchen using only one of my crutches! No pain, but I still took a pain med later for the calf strain. I also managed an actual bath, and was able to soak my extremely dry foot in the tub!
I had a sneaky suspicion that I actually had vacation days today and Friday this week, and sure enough when I logged in from home this morning I realized it was so. So a slight change in my work schedule will include days in the office on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday instead, as long as I can stay in the office. I'll have three days to rest after Thursday so I think I can manage that.
So pumped that I managed to walk with one crutch yesterday! I'm going to work on that again today. You guys should see my calf muscle though...or should I say lack of calf muscle lol. It's hilarious to compare my legs, I literally have so much work to do to get that muscle back. I think that's going to be more of an issue than mobilizing my ankle will be!!
I jiggle my calf with my finger every so often because it amazes me how there is no muscle there. I cannot remember a time when my calves weren't the strongest part of my body.
- Friday Sep 18, 2020
AM: B12, Calcium, protein, aspirin
PM: meds for inflammation, glutamine, iron
PHYSIO: heel presses 1 set of 3 x 10 seconds; abc's for mobility; spin bike 15 minutes
Felt like a good day yesterday; I accomplished what I wanted with physio, and when I got on the bike was surprised to note that it was much easier to pedal than the day before. I still felt so good after 10 minutes that I decided to try for 15. The entire physio session including the bike took me 40 minutes to complete, so I think that was definitely enough!
I didn't think I would get through the whole alphabet tracing with my toes, but I did eventually. I stopped a few times for a quick rest. Some of the letters were...uncomfortable to trace...but I didn't feel any pain.
I went back to doing the heel presses because I thought it would help with weight-bearing and eventually getting rid of the crutches.
Moral of the story is everything is feeling pretty good - knock on wood!
Monday AM in the office, PM work from home
Tuesday work from home
Wednesday AM extend to 2:00 p.m. in the office, off for the rest of the day
Thursday work from home
Friday ALL DAY in the office
We'll see how this goes; trying to slowly work my way back to a full time office routine. I hate working from home in this position, it is not conducive to efficient work processes.
- Thursday Sep 17, 2020
I went in yesterday morning and finally had my cast removed! I also got a clean bill of health, in fact the surgeon looked at my xrays and seemed almost surprised at how good they looked.
I have zero pain, he manipulated my foot a little bit and I had no issues other than a lot of tightness. So I asked him about physio, told him what my thoughts were and how I wanted to progress, and he suggested I follow my plan for physio and check in with him if I felt I needed more support. Works for me!
We talked a lot about what my goals were for progression; I needed him to really understand that I would pursue it as agressively as I could, and he is all for it. I got the thumbs up and the "sounds like you know what your body is capable of" speech. The only thing he warned me against was clipping into my bike, which I wouldn't have done anyways.
My ankle is just as swollen as it was when I got the cast on, so I was very concerned about that but the surgeon told me to expect this for MONTHS to come. He said I should have no issues working through it. I might have some issues wearing shoes though lol.
I'll be keeping a journal of my daily weight-bearing and physiotherapy exercises, and also keeping track of all the vitamins and supplements I started taking, and if I need to take any pain meds. It will show me my progression just in case I encounter days where I don't feel like I'm accomplishing anything, and will slow me down and keep me on track rather than doing too much too soon.
So yesterday when we got back home, we adjusted the spin bike so that I could hop on easily, and I did five minutes of slow and easy pedaling.
The plan for today is to trace the alphabet with my toes (ankle mobility), and another few minutes on the bike!
In other new I had my interview this morning. I don't know if it went well, I feel like I talked way too much lol. What is meant to be will be!
My frame of mind and mental health still isn't great. I wasn't happy about the way my ankle looked out of the cast. I thought it would look a lot better, but I think I just need to get over it and keep moving forward, nice and slow. It feels fantastic to be able to take the walking boot off while I'm on the couch though! I even feel more stable with the walking boot than I did with the cast.
- Monday Sep 14, 2020
I am at a point where I keep flipping back and forth between relief that this cast is coming off soon (two more days!), and complete misery for the situation i'm in. I know others have things so much worse in life, but I cannot help but wallow in my selfish misery. I just go there automatically, and it's really starting to affect my life.
I wake up in the morning, struggle to get dressed, struggle to get to the bathroom, then struggle to reach the couch. My hands are in so much pain from using the crutches that it's all I can do to stop myself from crying in the morning when I pick them up again. The pain becomes more bearable throughout the day.
I wait to be served coffee, I wait to be served water, I wait to be served breakfast. It is the WORST feeling to sit there and just let someone else do all the work. The absolute WORST feeling. So I am extra quiet in the morning, trying to work through these emotions, and BF notices and says "just five more days" or "only a few more days sweetie" and I KNOW THAT, but it doesn't help. Not in that moment.
After breakfast I become antsty, like I need to do something, so I get up and struggle my way to the kitchen to wash all the dishes, clean the counters, then back to the couch to fold the laundry. We run some errands - groceries, hardware to repair a back door, deliver home made jam, etc. then we start supper in the slow cooker once we get back home. The outings are too much for me, and my foot is swollen inside the cast, so I have to struggle to the couch and elevate it. It is very uncomfortable, so I take some medication, and it knocks me out and I wake up an hour later drowsy with a terribly dry mouth.
We visit for a bit, maybe a friend or family member comes over, or we watch a movie. After supper, I struggle to the kitchen to help clean up, and BF and I argue about how to put away the leftovers. He says "you'd better change once this cast is off" and I say "thanks" and have a little cry once i'm by myself. He's teasing, but i'm overly sensitive and feeling hugely guilty for my behaviour already, so the offhand remark cuts deep.
I am taken back home the next day and BF unloads all my stuff and brings it into the house. I am able to finally wash my hair after four days, but am visibly exhausted after doing so.
I keep saying to myself "only two more days". This cast can't come off soon enough. But the real question is what happens after that? How long will I continue to have to maneuvre around with a walking boot until I regain the use of my leg?
I know there are some positives in here... like the fact i'll be able to drive myself to work, take the boot off when my foot is swollen, ice it (that will feel so nice!) and perhaps take a real, honest to goodness, SHOWER after six weeks. It's just that the positives don't outweigh the negatives in my mind right now, and I know I need to work through that. The affect of this on my mental health has been acute, and painful, and I am really going to have to work hard to get back to my old self!
- Thursday Sep 10, 2020
Some additional swelling in my foot over the past couple of days. Uncomfortable, but it is what it is.
Almost ready for my job interview next week, a couple things to brush up on but the presentation I needed to develop is done.
BF is coming to pick me up to stay at his place this weekend. I have taken Friday off completely from work, first day off of work since my week off after breaking my ankle.
Done for the rest of today though, my toes feel and look enormous and I just want to put my foot up and relax my brain.
Wednesdays meals - Waffle, banana, coffee, turkey sandwich, chicken breast with spaghetti and parmesan and garlic toast, popcorn.
Thursdays meals - banana, coffee, chicken breast with rice, another coffee lol, that's it so far.
Have a great weekend!
- Wednesday Sep 09, 2020
Nothing new to report lately, just getting through each day trying to stay positive!
Yesterday's eating was not positive though, I made pear jam and I think I ate half a container of it on my toast lol. I also had leftover pizza for lunch. At least it's gone now.
I tried a few times to weight-bear over the long weekend but rested yesterday because I was in the office for the morning. My leg always swells up and is so uncomfortable when I go to the office. So I might try again today. Will see how the day goes.
Working on a presentation that I have to develop for this upcoming job interview, and a project for work that I've been procrastinating over because it's miserable to work with Microsoft access and excel on a laptop at home. So I've been struggling trying to get it done.
Off to read your entries!
- Friday Sep 04, 2020
I keep trying to update from my iPad and it doesn't seem to want to work! So will only write a bit at a time ;)
Wednesday - banana, coffee, chicken with rice and veggies, egg and turkey sandwich with chili, drumstick
Thursday - waffle and eggs, coffee, fish and chips, turkey sandwich, freezie, Coke Zero
Friday so far - turkey sandwich, coffee
I woke up with a stomach ache today, ugh. Why is it always something?!
BF is smoking brisket for supper tonight, his kids will be coming to eat with us. Well, some of them anyways.
I did my sets of heel presses again yesterday, and will again today sometime. Maybe this weekend I will start trying weight bearing with BF's help. Or maybe I will wait until next week.
Got an interview for the 17th, the day after I get the cast off lol. Talk about good timing!
- Wednesday Sep 02, 2020
Wednesday brings another half day of work at the office!
Feeling SO MUCH BETTER this week. The last time I had to take a painkiller was Monday morning, and I have had less muscle spasms and they are not that bad anymore at all. (knock on wood).
So much better in fact, that yesterday I managed three sets of ten seconds of heel presses without experiencing any pain or spasms. And this morning I weight-beared on my injured leg to close the door to my house on the way out... that was unintentional, I meant to put the crutches down and put my foot down first, but hey - no pain! (again - knock on wood).
BF warns me not to go too far while i'm feeling good, and that is good advice. I think I finally found the perfect balance of work and rest.
Eating has been better as well:
Monday - banana, coffee, turkey sandwich with salad, chicken with rice and veggies, serving of cheesies, coke zero, lots of water.
Tuesday - waffle with banana, two eggs, coffee, chicken with rice and veggies, chicken balls with rice and salad, serving of cheesies, coke zero, lots of water.
Wednesday - banana, coffee so far, chicken with rice and veggies when I get home for lunch, not sure for supper as BF might be coming to visit.
Anyways, feeling in much better spirits and almost like I CAN DO THIS!
- Monday Aug 31, 2020
On Friday, I decided to call the orthopedic surgeon and ask him about my cramping and muscle spasms, just to make sure I wasn't in a position where I might need to get the cast taken off and redone. He spoke to me a lot about doing too much, being able to keep it elevated above heart rate for extended periods during the day, and all the other things I mentioned in my last post about trying to help lessen the muscle cramping. So I took his advice to heart. I want this ankle to start healing and I want a quick recovery so that I can get back to things, and the only way to do that is to REST it. Ok, point taken.
I'm in the office for the morning today, and will be leaving at lunchtime to go back home. I'll work from home as much as possible this week and next week, and come in to the office when it's necessary / when I have things I need to do that I can't do at home, things which i've been whittling down bit by bit, putting the onous on others. When I do come in to the office, it will only be for half days. Hopefully this new schedule is exactly what I need to balance everything and heal properly.
Yesterday morning I had some muscle cramping, but elevated my leg for most of the day and did not have any more cramps or spasms all day! Success! LOL
Not so successful have been my eating patterns for the last few weeks. It is obvious to me that I eat when there is a lack of busyness, and I have not been busy a lot lately, obviously. I've even hit a bought of depression - something that hasn't dug its claws in me in a long time, which I think is also creating some difficulties for me in terms of my eating habits.
But I got another delivery of groceries in on Saturday, and I picked lots of good foods. The next two weeks, i'll be concentrating on getting my veggies, drinking lots of water, and taking in enough protein. The menu will look a bit like this:
Breakfast - banana OR oatmeal with peanut butter OR cooked eggs
Lunch - lean turkey sandwich with salad / cooked veggies
Dinner - chicken breast with rice and cooked veggies
Snacks - almonds, cucumber, watermelon
I have some leftovers from the weekend as well - cod with french fries, and baked chicken balls with rice. I can pair these with cooked veggies / salad as well to make meals out of them and finish them up. So lots of good choices. I can do this!