- Wednesday Sep 02, 2020
Wednesday brings another half day of work at the office!
Feeling SO MUCH BETTER this week. The last time I had to take a painkiller was Monday morning, and I have had less muscle spasms and they are not that bad anymore at all. (knock on wood).
So much better in fact, that yesterday I managed three sets of ten seconds of heel presses without experiencing any pain or spasms. And this morning I weight-beared on my injured leg to close the door to my house on the way out... that was unintentional, I meant to put the crutches down and put my foot down first, but hey - no pain! (again - knock on wood).
BF warns me not to go too far while i'm feeling good, and that is good advice. I think I finally found the perfect balance of work and rest.
Eating has been better as well:
Monday - banana, coffee, turkey sandwich with salad, chicken with rice and veggies, serving of cheesies, coke zero, lots of water.
Tuesday - waffle with banana, two eggs, coffee, chicken with rice and veggies, chicken balls with rice and salad, serving of cheesies, coke zero, lots of water.
Wednesday - banana, coffee so far, chicken with rice and veggies when I get home for lunch, not sure for supper as BF might be coming to visit.
Anyways, feeling in much better spirits and almost like I CAN DO THIS!
- Monday Aug 31, 2020
On Friday, I decided to call the orthopedic surgeon and ask him about my cramping and muscle spasms, just to make sure I wasn't in a position where I might need to get the cast taken off and redone. He spoke to me a lot about doing too much, being able to keep it elevated above heart rate for extended periods during the day, and all the other things I mentioned in my last post about trying to help lessen the muscle cramping. So I took his advice to heart. I want this ankle to start healing and I want a quick recovery so that I can get back to things, and the only way to do that is to REST it. Ok, point taken.
I'm in the office for the morning today, and will be leaving at lunchtime to go back home. I'll work from home as much as possible this week and next week, and come in to the office when it's necessary / when I have things I need to do that I can't do at home, things which i've been whittling down bit by bit, putting the onous on others. When I do come in to the office, it will only be for half days. Hopefully this new schedule is exactly what I need to balance everything and heal properly.
Yesterday morning I had some muscle cramping, but elevated my leg for most of the day and did not have any more cramps or spasms all day! Success! LOL
Not so successful have been my eating patterns for the last few weeks. It is obvious to me that I eat when there is a lack of busyness, and I have not been busy a lot lately, obviously. I've even hit a bought of depression - something that hasn't dug its claws in me in a long time, which I think is also creating some difficulties for me in terms of my eating habits.
But I got another delivery of groceries in on Saturday, and I picked lots of good foods. The next two weeks, i'll be concentrating on getting my veggies, drinking lots of water, and taking in enough protein. The menu will look a bit like this:
Breakfast - banana OR oatmeal with peanut butter OR cooked eggs
Lunch - lean turkey sandwich with salad / cooked veggies
Dinner - chicken breast with rice and cooked veggies
Snacks - almonds, cucumber, watermelon
I have some leftovers from the weekend as well - cod with french fries, and baked chicken balls with rice. I can pair these with cooked veggies / salad as well to make meals out of them and finish them up. So lots of good choices. I can do this!
- Thursday Aug 27, 2020
Well I am not feeling too much better, but I thought I would post an update anyways...
Going to try and see if I can change my work schedule for the next two weeks to two days in the office instead of three. It's just too much, and I have to decide what is more important - working, or healing. It's ridiculous that it still hurts so much, but I have to remember that most people take time off completely when they break their limbs, and here I am trying to work full time, do everything for myself at home, and it's all catching up to me. I'm sure this is why i've been in so much pain lately. I will also call the surgeon's office to make sure I don't need to get my leg re-cast.
I wish BF could help more, that would be ideal, but he is 45 minutes away and his daughter is with him right now and that takes priority for him (and I completely understand that). It is what it is! I've been on my own before, and I know I can do it, I just need to slow down and not try to work all the time on top of trying to heal quickly. There is a better balance here, I just need to find it!
I've had a lot of offers for help from my co-workers, which is really nice, but it's not practical for them to help me at home - I don't hang out with them outside of work; they don't even know where I live. I don't want to sound negative, but I like it that way. I guess i've isolated myself! But it's still nice to hear the offers of help from time to time :)
I'll probably put in another grocery order for Saturday, and I want to take tomorrow completely off from anything to do with work.
No workouts until I start to feel better and stop getting these cramps. I think working out would only make it worse.
Some things I will try next week:
-two days in the office instead of three
-more potassium, magnesium, and b-12 in my diet (or in supplement form) to help with the cramping in my leg
-three days working from home
-elevate leg above heart as much as possible
-drink lots of water when at home
- Tuesday Aug 25, 2020
I'm having just a miserable, feel sorry for myself kind of day!
I was exhausted after work yesterday and could not manage to do my workout I was so excited to try. I thought today I would be more rested and be able to tackle it. However, it has not turned out this way. My ankle has been hurting all day, with muscle spasms through my calf and even on the bottom of my foot now! I've been drinking lots of water since yesterday afternoon, but it's not helping. I can't help but think about blood clots forming because of decreased blood circulation, and these thoughts are just making me so miserable! I can't take any extra potassium or magnesium which might help, because I don't have anything at home and can't get to a store.
Today has really been a mental battle for me, and I'm not coming out on top.
And to top it off, I can't get some things on my work laptop to work so now I have to add them to my list of things to do in the office tomorrow, when I'll already be swamped with other stuff.
All of this is adding up and has been really hard to handle. And all I want to do is stop crying about it and suck it up, but nothing wants to go my way. Ugh, what a complainer!
Not sure what I'll get done today. Maybe I'll feel better if I push myself through the workout, but what if something I do makes my ankle pain worse? Then I'll be kicking myself for not freaking resting it properly. I can't win!
I hope tomorrow will be better. I'm not writing off today yet, but it will be difficult for me to get out of my head long enough to do anything more productive than sit on the couch elevating my leg.
- Monday Aug 24, 2020
Had a pretty quiet weekend; BF was on call so I spent it at home by myself. I managed to make the long trek up the stairs on Saturday so that I could get a few pieces of clothing to add to my main level arsenol, and a few other comfort things I wanted from upstairs. I climbed up and down on my butt. It worked alright, it was even a bit of a workout LOL.
On Sunday I was working in the kitchen; I made up meals for this week - chicken breast, rice and veggies. While I was doing the dishes I accidentally spilled water on the floor and - of course - walked right into it with my crutches and slipped. I had to put all my weight down on my broken ankle, thank goodness I have a cast on! I got muscle cramps/craps LOL right away and had no choice but to just stand there until they went away. What can you do when you have muscle cramps inside a cast??? Anyways, it ached for a few hours after that, and I wasn't happy with myself, but I got over it once the pain started to decrease again.
Sunday morning I also got in a workout! I did half an hour of chair yoga, and then some hip mobility movements. Altogether I spent 40 minutes moving, which felt really good and helped put me in a better mood.
This week i'm going to start a workout that I can repeat each day or every second day. It won't be much to start, but at least it will be something!
Isometric ankle exercise - in cast, pressing down on heel, hold for 10 seconds. Repeat x 3.
Leg lifts - from laying position, hold for 10 seconds each side. Repeat x 3.
Side planks - hold for 10 seconds each side. Repeat x 3.
Push ups - 10. Repeat x 3.
Leg abduction (possibly add resistance band) - 5 each side. Repeat x 3.
Supine position knee runners - 10 each side. Repeat x 3.
Supine position bird dog - 5 each side. Repeat x 3.
Shoulder mobility work with resistance bands. 10 minutes.
Tricep extensions - 25lbs 5 reps. Repeat x 3.
Single Arm bicep press - 25lbs 5 reps. Repeat x 3.
Hip mobility work (no resistance). 5 minutes.
I'll track my calorie burn starting with this workout, and as I increase the movements/reps/resistance, or add in more exercises.
- Friday Aug 21, 2020
I worked from home yesterday and it went pretty well actually. I didn't take enough work home with me, but now i'll know for next time that I need to bring a little more. It's amazing how much time opens up for a person when they're not constantly being interrupted at the office!
It was really nice to be able to keep my leg elevated the whole day.
I was feeling good this morning and up bright and early, but once I started getting ready for work, exhaustion took over. Even something as simple as trying to choose an outfit had me slumped over and ready to call it a day. It doesn't help that we are going through a heat wave right now, and my house has been like an oven for many days now. Any movement at all and i'm sweating buckets.
I hope it was sweat that made it difficult for me to pull my pants on this morning, and not because of extra weight.
By the time I finished getting everything ready, almost an hour had gone by, I was sweating enough to give a pig a shower, and I hadn't even eaten anything or had any coffee. Plus, my ankle started hurting, obviously because I was moving around too much and it had swollen.
Oh well, here I am at work and in a miserable mood. I'll use my fake smile today.
Yesterday's meals - toast with pb, coffee with oat milk, meatballs and rice with veggies, coke zero, potato chips, ribs with rice and veggies, garlic toast.
Yesterday's exercise - crutch work LOL; also I began weight-bearing slightly while using the crutches and it seemed to go alright. I can really feel my pectoral muscles working hard - they hurt a lot from using the crutches to hold my weight up. It's almost like doing pushups all day long.
- Wednesday Aug 19, 2020
Well, that week actually went by pretty quickly, considering I did nothing with it!
Dealing with a broken ankle is so frustrating though! I feel incredibly useless and I HATE asking for help. I did not have to deal with this much frustration when I had knee surgery; this ankle stuff just takes the cake!!!
The ortho specialist cast my leg yesterday all the way to the bottom of my knee. I will have the cast for the next four weeks after which they will take it off and do another round of x-rays to make sure my ankle is healing. Then I will likely have to wear an air cast for another week or so before I can start walking on it. He said six weeks of recovery altogether, where I should only weight-bear as tolerated and with support (i.e. crutches).
My friend found me a knee scooter that I can use at work, and it's come in really handy so far today. If I had to use crutches there would be no way I would move from my desk LOL.
Everyone is very helpful; another friend works around the same hours as I do (she is 7:30 to 4:00 and I work 8:00 to 4:00) so I asked her for a ride to work on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays since I can't drive for four weeks. The extra half hour in the morning will help me to get myself ready for the day. Then on Tuesdays and Thursdays I will work from home. So my days should be full; and my evenings will be spent elevating and icing (apparently you can ice a cast!) and getting ready for the next day.
It is so much more work to do everything, and I know i've already stated that in a prior post, but it's so true. I am so grateful that this isn't permanent and one day soon I will be back to myself. This has changed my outlook and perspective on taking things for granted. The fact that I can get up in the morning and get myself ready for the day is no small thing anymore, and I no longer take that lightly. This being alive thing takes work sometimes.
Regardless, this might slow me down for about six weeks (was that Your plan, God?!), but i'll get back on that horse soon enough.
- Wednesday Aug 12, 2020
Just a quick update! I went hiking on the weekend and ended up fracturing my ankle! What's worse is that I walked 7km further after I had fractured it. I thought I'd twisted it, and really we had no choice but to walk back to the vehicle. So, it's an acute fracture of the right ankle, and I'm stuck at home until I can see an orthopaedic specialist.
I don't think any bones are displaced so I just need to get it casted so I don't have to wear this air boot and can try putting weight on it again. But it means I'll be out of commission for at least four weeks.
I won't say being unable to get around has been easy for me, especially being as active as I am in the summer. I've had a few good cries already grieving for lost adventures, but I do need to remind myself that I am still blessed in many ways and this fracture will heal eventually.
I am off work this week and have sent in a request to work from home for the long term. But for now, waiting impatiently for that specialist to call me!
Every single meal takes me SO LONG to make, so I've been eating a lot of rice and oatmeal because it's so much easier to make. BF is supposed to be coming tonight so hopefully he will make something different lol.
- Thursday Aug 06, 2020
Wednesday's meals - oatmeal, coffee with oat milk, rice, chicken balls with sweet & sour sauce, corn on the cob. 1,565 calories.
Wednesday's exercise - powermill at gym, 45 minutes, burned 297 calories.
I don't know what I am going to do for exercise tonight. I can't get back on the bike quite yet - TMI but my pelvic bone is quite sore from all the biking on the weekend and if I want to be able to bike again this weekend I need to give it as much rest as possible. Maybe i'll do another 10,000 step day instead.
I accidentally poured sour oat milk into my coffee this morning and drank half of it before I noticed the floaties, yuck. Dumped the rest and made myself a fresh cup once I got to work.
I was asked for an interview on one of the jobs I applied for, but there is no option to work from home and it is located 4 hours away. I'm not sure how the logistics of that would work - especially since it was only a temporary posting so I would have no plans to relocate permanently. But the phone interview I had went well, so it was good practice at least. I did end up declining an in-person interview.
Keep plugging along!
- Wednesday Aug 05, 2020
Tuesday's meals - oatmeal, coffee with oat milk, leftover hot dogs, chicken balls, rice and corn on the cob, freezie, coke zero. 1,751 calories.
Tuesday's exercise - REST.
Finally, a true rest day. And after that whirlwind of a weekend, I needed it. It was nice to have the Civic Holiday on Monday to give me an extra day off.
Working a shift at the gym tonight; it would be nice to get in some strength stuff afterwards too. Will see what my energy levels are like. No take out tonight; I have plenty of food cooked at home that needs to be eaten by the weekend.
BF and I are trying to plan a bike vacation for a week in September. We want to go into the mountains and do some biking there, and also get some hikes in. We have some favorite places in the mountains i'd love to go visit as long as it isn't too busy with people.