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moogy - Monday Sep 13, 2010
(high fibre, low fat - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 231.2

CHERISH LIFE'S SIMPLE PLEASURES

In the private sanctuary of one's own conscience lies that spirit, that determination to cast off the old person and to measure up to                                                                           the stature of true potential......................................Thomas S. Monson 

Today I am thankful for: the Lord's promises, my strength, my intelligence

Hello Gorgeous Girls, You may have figured out that I was up at 4 am this cloudy Sydney morning, I commented on a few diaries before taking a nap on the settee, i managed to get in another couple of hours before I woke up with the light. I was having a yucky dream that I couldn't manage to extricate myself from - usually I can control my dreams!! As a result I woke myself up and then started thinking - not good for me - too many bad things to think about!!

Anyway, I am just writing down a few words now and will be back later. My daughter and I are off shopping to our favourite shopping centre for a little retail therapy - we both think we deserve it!!! I am rubbing my hands together as I type - well figuratively anyway!! I will update when we get back.

OK, I'm back, and whoo hoo, my favouritest big girl shop had a massive sale on, I got six shirt/tops for 10 dollars each, they were originally priced at between 60 and 20 each. Soooo pretty, I am one happy lady. I've got beaded, gathered, embroidered, all absolutely scrumptious. I bought sushi for lunch, so yummy to that as well

Progress as of today: 3.8 lbs lost so far, only 56.2 lbs to go!

Breakaway on 09/12/2010:
Hope you found some good deals while out :D have a great day today!


V on 09/12/2010:
Retail therapy what a rush!! I am sure you will have a relaxing day :)


Umpqua on 09/13/2010:
I'm glad you got some good shopping deals. I hope you have a wonderful evening and Tuesday!


Maria7 on 09/13/2010:
Looks like you've been having a WONDERFUL DAY, Moogy! So happy for you over your 'retail therapy'! :-) Bet your finds are GORGEOUS!


sweetpea1977 on 09/13/2010:
Im relieved to hear that your daughter is ok. Im glad y'all had lots of fun going shopping too!!

Have a wonderful week moogy!!


balloonlady on 09/13/2010:
Sounds like a great day so far,,, we are off to the dog park and then going for sushi as well... Have a great day : )


legcramps on 09/13/2010:
Good for you! Have an awesome day today :-)



moogy - Saturday Sep 11, 2010
(The Food Doctor - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 231.2

CHERISH LIFE'S SIMPLE PLEASURES

In the private sanctuary of one's own conscience lies that spirit, that determination to cast off the old person and to measure up to                                                                           the stature of true potential......................................Thomas S. Monson 

Today I am thankful for: modern medicine, home, my daughter

Hello Lovely Girls, It's about 8.30 am on Sunday morning, I have only just got up, it's a late start for me and to late to get to church. Isn't it funny how days seem to start of normally and then within the blink of an eye change into something completely different. I was busily sewing away in the early afternoon and my son in law called me down. My daughter had miscalculated how much medication she needed ( she is allowed to judge for herself at the moment - she's going through a rough match with her mental illness, Borderline Personality Disorder) as a result she had collapsed. Anyhow, making a long story very short, ambulance, intensive care, nurses, doctor, various machines, blood letting etc. I did a swap out with my son in law about 8 in the evening. They came home late last night. I had to do some intensive care of the big boys as they are old enough to know something serious was wrong - I must say that I am brilliant in a crisis - I have needed to be!!! So if you have a crisis, I am your girl.

This morning I am feeling absolutely wiped out. Just the come down after the stress and the fact that I hardly had anything to eat or drink yesterday. I don't really think that we do me any lasting damage!!!!!!!LOL I don't feel particularly hungry this morning either, there are always silver linings if one looks for them. Fore instance, the ambulance arrived in 5 mins, a nurse had done all the triagey stuff within half an hour, more people to do ECG and take bloods etc, and the doctor had seen her within an hour , stayed with us for a good 20mins to get the full picture and set up her care schedule, came back two or three times to see how she was doing. Now I think that is pretty good for a free public health care system. Didn't cost us a cent. 

Now, as for me, I was in the middle of an arm hole when I was stopped from sewing yesterday, literally in the arm hole!!!! Don't laugh, I realise that there is scope for a joke there!! I am leaving it alone. The reason I had only had a hot chocolate and some leftovers was because I was on a roll with my sewing. I just have to finish off, obviously under the arm and one side and then just the arm and hem folds and my 'suit' in finished, the skirt looks fab, can't wait to try them on.  It may be a comfort eating day today, although I am going to be sewing so it may be a hardly eat anything day - life is so full of exciting decisions and possibilities. I didn't get that colour in my hair and I have to do that as well. Notwithstanding any unforeseen emergencies, I should get everything done today. Thank you for all your concern, I can hear my daughter talking to the girls downstairs, so she is up and mothering. I will go and check on her now. I hope you wonderful women have a peaceful Sunday. I love you all.

Update: Yes, she is fine, children are fine, I can even here a bit of laughing going on now. Phew!!

hot chocolate

chips, seasoned chicken thigh, peas

chocolate (150g)

Progress as of today: 3.8 lbs lost so far, only 56.2 lbs to go!

just42day on 09/11/2010:
Hope your daughter is doing better.


Maria7 on 09/11/2010:
Hello, Girl! Hope you're having a nice Sunday. Sorry to hear about your Daughter. Hope she is feeling much better by now. Looks like you've been busy sewing clothes. That is good that you know how to do that. I used to sew many years ago (for myself, mostly). It never was 'my thing', though. I always preferred to write books. Thank you for your kind words to my journal, which I've been here off and on and have read them over and over. Always good to have a friend who cares. You are a very special person. :-) Hope you have a really nice day.


V on 09/11/2010:
Oh Moogs! I love the fact that after all you have went through your sense of humor stands strong :) Whew is right, I am so glad she is better :) :) i have been worried all day


Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/11/2010:
haha, totally not kidding, i was sewing a hole in a white t-shirt i use at the gym...in the armpit region also! just yesterday!!! :-)

i guess some clothes are just not worth throwing out!


V on 09/11/2010:
Yes I am firmly back on the wagon til further notice :)


just42day on 09/12/2010:
My mom's sooo good to me. The past few years, I've really been trying to be more attentive to her. She's aging so quickly. It takes so very little to make her happy - all she wants to do is spend time w/family so I do talk w/her several times/week and try to visit her every 4 weeks or so. Can't always do that in the winter months so I try to do as much as I can during decent weather. My brother has taken the brunt of caregiving for many years because he lives near her. He can't deal w/her emotions so that's where I step in. Between my brother and I, I know she's cared for well. I so hate to see the aging process but there's not much we can do about that accept care for one another. Hope your day is a good one. As always, thanks so much for your support & encouragement. :)


biscottibody59 on 09/12/2010:
Hope you have a good Monday--take good care of yourself there!

ps I used to make all my own shirts--I've looked at the sewing machine, but haven't made anything in YEARS!


Maria7 on 09/12/2010:
Well, good Monday morning, dear Friend...(when you read this, that is...currently it is 4:37 am Monday your time and 2:37 pm Sunday where I am). So by our tonite, you should be up and keyed a Monday morning entry for us over here in USA to read and enjoy! :-D Hope you had a nice Sunday and a wonderful day today as well. Hope all of your family are doing well and your Daughter is feeling well.


Maria7 on 09/12/2010:
I just got your message...wow you must be an early bird getting up before 5 a.m! :-)


KathyBlue on 09/12/2010:
ahhh, what a stress! But it ended well, as I see the update. I'm glad you see your day ending with laughter and happiness. :)


V on 09/12/2010:
Sorry you can't sleep :( Yes although miles and oceans apart I fear the wrath!!!! LOL I probably would have reached my goal already if I had you around sooner :) Maybe you can catch a little nap later, I hope so



moogy - Saturday Sep 11, 2010
(The Food Doctor - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 231.2

CHERISH LIFE'S SIMPLE PLEASURES

In the private sanctuary of one's own conscience lies that spirit, that determination to cast off the old person and to measure up to                                                                           the stature of true potential......................................Thomas S. Monson 

Today I am thankful for: time alone, skills and abilities, an eternal viewpoint

Hello Gorgeous Girls, It is a chilly Saturday morning as I type but the sun is doing it's best to warm up. I have the whole day to myself, I must put a colour in my hair (shush, don't tell anyone!!!!), I have just a few grey hairs (this is what I tell myself - but my eyesight is getting bad as well, so I don't wear glasses in the bathroom!!!), I think I may go grey when I am sixty or sixty five, so quite a few years to go yet. Vainity - my only vice!! LOL

I am continuing with my sewing today, I should get my "suit" (I am using the term loosly - it's not tailored) finished today. Yay!! Then I may cut out another skirt, pale green, straight, long with splits to the knees (you wouldn't want to go higher!!). Have a lovely weekend girls!!

hot chocolate

chicken, snow peas, broccolini, noodle stir fry

2 pieces of KFC

Just spent five hours at the emergency room with my daughter, it is now 10 pm and I just grab some of the children's take away chicken, I was starving. Time for bed I am exhausted.

Progress as of today: 3.8 lbs lost so far, only 56.2 lbs to go!

sweetpea1977 on 09/10/2010:
I havent had my hair colored in two years (a few months after having Ethan). Im a natural blonde, but it was one boring shade so I wanted to add some depth to it. It was expensive, but I looked and felt great when I came home from the salon! Anyway, I have decided not to color my hair until grays start showing up because I know the upkeep is gonna get costly. For now, I'll just splurge on upscale haircuts. :)

Enjoy your sewing and have a lovely weekend!


sweetpea1977 on 09/10/2010:
Weird indeed. I only know of one other redhead who has green eyes and all three of her kids have blonde hair and blue eyes.


getmebackto150 on 09/10/2010:
Mmmmmmmm... I would love the recipe for chinese chili calamari!


balloonlady on 09/10/2010:
I had to color my hair today as well, a little girl at a party said " hey I see when you paint your hair red" Thats when you know it is time to cover the roots...lol Have a great day...


V on 09/10/2010:
Should have known you have red hair :) I bet it is beautiful!


loveray on 09/11/2010:
i hope everything is okay with your daughter...hope you get some rest soon!!


Umpqua on 09/11/2010:
How is your daughter? I hope everything is OK. Please keep us posted.


shams on 09/11/2010:
i can't wait for another a month or two so i can get a color in my hair, i usually wait a while before i go back and give my hair a color.


sweetpea1977 on 09/11/2010:
Keeping your daughter in my thoughts. xo


V on 09/11/2010:
I hope your daughter is ok! Please try to get some rest and keep us posted!



moogy - Friday Sep 10, 2010
(The Food Doctor - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 231.2

CHERISH LIFE'S SIMPLE PLEASURES

In the private sanctuary of one's own conscience lies that spirit, that determination to cast off the old person and to measure up to                                                                           the stature of true potential......................................Thomas S. Monson 

Today I am thankful for: sunshine after rain, bird song, peace

Hello Gorgeous Girls, It rained all day and most of the night, it was wonderful. It is sunny and cool now and the birds are singing. It hasn't been the best of weeks so far on the eating front, I intended it to be after last weeks less than stellar performance but, I don't know, it just that I have been feeling a little blah about it. I intend to pull my socks up today and get in a few day of really good eating before weigh in day in the hope that my laziness with not show up. Such is the hope of the repentant dieter. I don't have to leave the house for two days, which fills me with peace and relaxation before I have even done anything

I have cut the pattern out for a skirt and jacket and intend on making a start on those today. Apart from that my social calendar is slightly lighter as the princess goes to pre-school today - so no after nap visit. Let's face it no matter how lovely the child, you do not want anyone around whilst in the midst of patterns, thread and pins. I always find the process tedious so the less interruption the easier it will be. I have a picture in my head of the finished product and I will look fabulous - of course, it never quite matches the image in the mirror - funny that!! Have a wonderful day girls.

oat crisp cereal, skim milk, mixed seeds

apple, almonds

chicken, snow pea, broccolini, noodle stir fry

bodywise bar, pecans

chicken casserole

Progress as of today: 3.8 lbs lost so far, only 56.2 lbs to go!

V on 09/09/2010:
Moogy what time is it there??? Well before the crack of dawn I imagine :) 5100 Gulf Blv, St.Pete beach Fl. 33706,I hope it is an upclose pic it is right on the beach! i have been meaning to take some pics of work for you while i still have my borrowed camera :) I am hungry now after looking at your menu


sweetpea1977 on 09/09/2010:
Thanks for the sweet comment! Ethan did pretty well at the doctor's appointment. He had the infection lanced so that they could test a sample of the infection to rule out any major problems. All he has to do is take antibiotics and have his bandage changed 3 times a day for a week.

Your menu looks great, especially that casserole. I am a sucker for casseroles, so comforting! :)

Have a wonderful day moogy!


V on 09/09/2010:
You really just took the words right of my mouth, I was just going to send you an invite :) I've never been to NZ so maybe just maybe if I am a good girl and try not to spend my money like i am a bizillionaire I can come visit you next year, Hummmmmmm LOL I know it would be a blast!


V on 09/09/2010:
oops Sydney! Where the hell did NZ come from! LOL


Umpqua on 09/09/2010:
I'm sure your sewing creations will be wonderful. I hope you have a pleasant Saturday!


breakaway on 09/09/2010:
Good luck on your project! Ya it's funny how your image of yourself doesn't quite fit what the mirror is telling you. I find that to happen to me often. I FEEL more sexy then I really am! LOL Great menu! Have a good day :D


hollybelle on 09/10/2010:
Thanks for your comments. I used to sew - it's unusual to find anyone who makes garments these days! I still remember Home Ec in school! We actually had it! Any chance we'll see you on "Project Runway"??



moogy - Thursday Sep 09, 2010
(The Food Doctor - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 231.2

CHERISH LIFE'S SIMPLE PLEASURES

In the private sanctuary of one's own conscience lies that spirit, that determination to cast off the old person and to measure up to                                                                           the stature of true potential......................................Thomas S. Monson 

Today I am thankful for: being loved, living comfortably, rain!!!

Hello Lovely Girls, I am really really late with my entry today, I usually post first thing in the morning and now it's nearly 4 p.m. Thursday afternoon. It's raining and I am snuggled up on my settee, it had been a busy day. I took the princess and the angel shopping with me this morning, they were absolutely wonderful needless to say. A few people even agreed with me, so it's not just me that thinks that they are the most fabulous little creatures in the world!! Anyhow, 2 1/2 hours later and I was home again, remembered almost everything (I have lists, I don't know how I manage to forget anything - but there you go - no system is infallible!!), delivered the little girls to their momma and proceeded to lug bags and bags of groceries etc. up the damn stairs. Then I babysat for an hour or so while my daughter went to the doctors and I have just now been deserted by the big boys - tummy's full and post nanna hugs.

My daughter came up post doctors and pre-big boys and told me that when she put the girls down to sleep the princess told her that Jesus had blessed them that I could live with them, to which the angel response was I lud nanna. Well, what is one suppose to do. How can that feeling possibly be improved upon, two little girls who think I am absolutely wonderful - joy unrestrained!!!!

It has been a bit of a strange eating day, some good, some not so good, I  blame this on pure lack of planning, unexpected babysitting and general disinterest. Never mind, I don't have to go out at all for the next two days - * rubs her hand with glee*. so I can buckle down and plan my meals, do a bit of cooking and a lot of sewing.  I hope you have a wonderful day and have people in your life that make you feel as loved as I feel.

Progress as of today: 3.8 lbs lost so far, only 56.2 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 09/09/2010:
That is so precious, how lucky your grandchildren are to have such a wonderful nanna. I hope you have an excellent evening/day!


V on 09/09/2010:
Yes the pool that you see is my yard,I live in the guest house out back, it is nice to be able to swim as much as i like also there is an avacado, lemon,lime and tangerine tree along with an a thriving garden! Have a good day Moogy!


sweetpea1977 on 09/09/2010:
I can tell you are a wonderful nanna without hearing what your beautiful grandchildren have to say to you. But, its awfully sweet hearing them gush about you! :)

Have a wonderful rest of the night!


legcramps on 09/09/2010:
I am so not grateful for rain, LOL. Have an awesome day today!


balloonlady on 09/09/2010:
Wow , enjoy you time to yourself.. : )



moogy - Wednesday Sep 08, 2010
(The Food Doctor - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 231.2

CHERISH LIFE'S SIMPLE PLEASURES

In the private sanctuary of one's own conscience lies that spirit, that determination to cast off the old person and to measure up to                                                                           the stature of true potential......................................Thomas S. Monson 

Today I am thankful for: beautiful blossoms, happy children, good food

Hello Lovely Girls, I am a bit late posting today as my daughter and I went out shopping. We went to the huge fabric and craft store about half an hour from where we live. I bought fabrics to make a couple of skirts, some really nice black and white linen type fabric for a skirt and jacket or maybe trousers and jacket. I enjoy making my own clothes, well, I like the finished product, but you can keep the cutting, pining and fighting with the sewing machine. I restricted myself to three new fabrics and returned two to the shelves, they were so pretty but one has to be reasonable about these things. I love to hoard fabric, note paper and of course, the button collection.

Well, I can already feel the pull of the new pattern I bought, so I will love you and leave you. I am not sure what I will be eating today, for def roast lamb for dinner, I may be busy creating and not eat much, I doubt it, I am just not the kind of person who gives up a meal very often. LOL  Have a wonderful day beautiful women!!

Progress as of today: 3.8 lbs lost so far, only 56.2 lbs to go!

V on 09/07/2010:
LOL!!!! I would love to see the finished product! You are a woman of many talents, I am not suprised :) I will have to add a demon slayer to your list too :) Have a good day my friend!


nita51 on 09/08/2010:
Hey there, it was so nice to hear from you again. I miss you all, and you are right,,,, I need to post no matter whats going on, good or bad. Posting has always been very therapeutic for me. My mother was a professional seamstress. She could create anything, she even made my wedding gown. the marriage failed but I bet the gown still exist. I bought a sewing machine just last month, because I feel like I can do it. Having trouble learning how to thread the bobbin correctly. Once I learn how to get around the basics, I'm going to start sewing my own cloths as well. Well keep up the good works and I'll be chatting with you again, soon. Bunches of hugs.


just42day on 09/08/2010:
I'm very envious of your sewing skills! That's great that you have such a productive enjoyable hobby. I'm sure there's a lot of satisfaction in making something that you'll really like.


Umpqua on 09/08/2010:
I hope you have fun with your sewing plans. And rack of lamb sounds so wonderful....I'll have to do a lamb roast soon.


sweetpea1977 on 09/08/2010:
You are so talented - baking, cooking lavish meals, and making your own clothes. I am so envious!! :)

Enjoy your lamb dinner. Sounds delicious!!


V on 09/08/2010:
I am going totally bonkers!!!!! It is tough when you live alone...I did catch up with all of my crossword puzzles from last week :) There is 3 in each paper and I finished all about an hour ago :( Thank goodness it is 10:30 pm, bedtime in a few hours (at least I hope) LOL i don't have any sleepy pills so i am at Mr. Sandman's mercy! LOL Love ya Moogy :)



moogy - Tuesday Sep 07, 2010
(The Food Doctor - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 231.2

CHERISH LIFE'S SIMPLE PLEASURES

In the private sanctuary of one's own conscience lies that spirit, that determination to cast off the old person and to measure up to                                                                           the stature of true potential......................................Thomas S. Monson 

Today I am thankful for: my daughter, children's pictures, clear thinking

Hello Lovely Ladies, It was so warm yesterday I got to open windows and let the breeze blow through the house. It looks like it is going to be another lovely day today. The princess just came up and bought me a drawing of me with her and her siblings, they are just circles with hair and sticks for arms and legs, but she has done, flowers and pretty good butterflies, at the top of the page is her version of I love you Nanna from Laura, she can spell her own name. What a lovely way to start the day off. That one will go in my precious folder where I keep all the children's special little drawings and pictures.

I am feeling myself again this morning, my thoughts are clear and my brain is firing on all cylinders (of course, for me, I am short a couple of cylinders!!!!), I will probably be tired for a couple of days but that's OK. It is suppose to be weigh in day today, but I will have put on weight so I am not going to find out how much, I can do without feeling down today now that I am on my normal footing. I will wait until next week and by then I should show a loss again. Thank you to all who comforted me and helped support me for the last few days - what a wonderful group of women you are - and how lucky I am that you care about me - such a blessing in my life. I have a food plan for today (things are looking up!!) and here it is. Have a wonderful day girls.

porridge, almonds

cruskits, vegimite, cream cheese

spiced chicken, tomatoes and cucumber wrap

apple, pecans

veal chops, cauliflower, carrots, green beans gravy

 

 

Progress as of today: 3.8 lbs lost so far, only 56.2 lbs to go!

V on 09/06/2010:
Moogy my love your menu looks great and I am so happy to hear you are back to yourself :) Please know that I think about you alot and I wish we lived closer, I would bring you fresh sunflowers to cheer you up anytime you are feeling a little down!!!! BTW Sunflowers are my fave :)


just42day on 09/07/2010:
Glad your grandchildren bring such joy and smiles to your face. Their innocence and excitement over little everyday things are so endearing. Hope you have a great day! :)


V on 09/07/2010:
I was hoping i copied all of your information properly, I was starting to worry :) I am glad you got them!!!! Have a good day


liza36 on 09/07/2010:
It's wonderful to feel like yourself, like you have the energy to go about life. Have a great day, and hope this feeling lasts!


sweetpea1977 on 09/07/2010:
I have kept you in my thoughts since reading your last entry, so Im glad to see that you are feeling more like your cheery self.

I love your menu for today, especially the wrap! Mmm!



moogy - Monday Sep 06, 2010
(The Food Doctor - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 231.2

CHERISH LIFE'S SIMPLE PLEASURES

In the private sanctuary of one's own conscience lies that spirit, that determination to cast off the old person and to measure up to                                                                           the stature of true potential......................................Thomas S. Monson 

Today I am thankful for: understanding, peace and quiet, warmth

Hello Lovely Girls, It is Monday morning and bright and sunny here in Sydney. I have been away from the site for a couple of days. My illness sometimes manifests itself despite my medication and my mostly positive expectations. It is something that I cannot control or predict, it is usually triggered by the usual female hormonal changes, but not always. I have posted a description of dysthymia in the hope that it will help explain my strange funks that seem to hit once or twice a month.

 

Dysthymia (pronounced /dɪsˈθaɪmiə/) is a chronicmood disorder that falls within the depression spectrum. It is considered a chronic depression, but with less severity than major depressive disorder. This disorder tends to be a chronic, long-lasting illness.[1]Dysthymia is a type of low-grade depression. Harvard Health Publications states that, "the Greek word dysthymia means 'bad state of mind' or 'ill humor'. As one of the two chief forms of clinical depression, it usually has fewer or less serious symptoms than major depression but lasts longer."[2] Harvard Health Publications also says, "at least three-quarters of patients with dysthymia also have a chronic physical illness or another psychiatric disorder such as one of the anxiety disorders.[2] The Primary Care Journal says that dysthymia "affects approximately three percent of the population and is associated with significant functional impairment".[citation needed] Harvard Health Publications says: "The rate of depression in the families of people with dysthymia is as high as fifty percent for the early-onset form of the disorder. [...] Most people with dysthymia can't tell for sure when they first became depressed".[2]

Dysthymia is a chronic long-lasting form of depression sharing many characteristic symptoms of major depressive disorder (in the form of the melancholic depression subtype). These symptoms tend to be less severe but do fluctuate in intensity.[3] To be diagnosed, an adult must experience 2 or more of the following symptoms for at least two years:[4]

People with dysthymia have a higher than average chance of developing major depression. Fluctuating symptoms intensity can trigger a full-blown episode of major depression. This situation is sometimes called "double depression"[7] because the intense episode exists with the usual feelings of low mood.

As dysthymia is a chronic disorder, a person may often experience symptoms for many years before it is diagnosed, if diagnosis occurs at all. As a result, he or she tends to believe that depression is a part of their character. This, subsequently, may lead sufferers not to even discuss their symptoms with doctors, family members or friends.

My psychiatrist tells me that I was probably born with an inability to uptake serotonin, my first attempt at suicide was at the age of eight, hence his diagnosis. I live in a world where I am wrapped in a blanket of melancholia. My medication helps me enormously, I am functional and usually able to do everything I need to each day.  I feel that the person I really am is subdued by my illness, I think that I am witty, funny, warm and friendly, and strive hard to let ME get out of my illness. I think I succeed most of the time and I am grateful for that.

I am back posting today as I am feeling better, able to communicate and comment on your diaries, it reads like you in the US are going to have a good long weekend. I hope you all enjoy your day off.  On the diet front, I am really not sure what I have been eating, anything that I didn't have to cook and was easy to hand - so too many simple carbs and no vegies at all. Not good - but I no longer feel guilty about my eating - I have learned that guilt does no good - it just causes feelings of poor self-worth. I am not sure what I will be eating today, I will just focus on eating healthy today and maybe by tomorrow I will be fully myself again. Thank you to those who posted their good wishes and encouragement they mean more to me than you could possibly know.

Progress as of today: 3.8 lbs lost so far, only 56.2 lbs to go!

loveray on 09/05/2010:
i hope you have a wonderful holiday weekend, moogy!


Umpqua on 09/05/2010:
It's good to see a post from you moogy! Welcome back, and I can't even begin to imagine what you deal with. At least you seem to have it somewhat regulated and under control. Please know that I'm thinking of you. Oh and I wanted you to know my hubby and boys loved those chickpea burgers. There were few leftovers. And tonight they had a "hungry" night and my little one was still hungry after 2 turkey hot dogs. So I cut up 1/2 of a cold chickpea burger and he gobbled that up too. We'll be making those often!


sweetpea1977 on 09/05/2010:
Glad to see a post from you moogy. I have been keeping you in my thoughts since your last post was written. Thanks for posting a description of your illness. Its nice being able to have an idea of what someone who you care for is going through. I am so glad that medications exists to help you regulate it so that you can enjoy a happier life.

Yea, I definitely had a huge smile on my face when I felt the chilly air this morning. I love fall so much and cant wait until it officially arrives!!

Hugs to you, my friend!!


sweetpea1977 on 09/05/2010:
love you too! xoxoxo


V on 09/05/2010:
Moogy I am so glad to know that you have someone who helps you with your condition....I hope that you are back to your witty funny self :) BTw did you get the postcards?????


V on 09/05/2010:
P.S love you too Moogy :)


V on 09/06/2010:
It is done!!!!


Donkey on 09/06/2010:
I felt compelled to respond and write, even though I do not have a current entry for myself as of yet. (Anticipating a TERRIBLE weigh-in this week...) You really spoke to me when you talked about wrapping yourself in a blanket of melancholy. OMGosh, can I *ever* relate to that? That's how it feels some times. I know that for me, some of it is cyclical (hormonally influenced), like right now, and all I have to do is ride it out because it will pass. But sometimes, it hangs around for longer than just a day or two.

I am glad that you are feeling better. It is difficult to read, write or think when one is depressed. So having those skills come back is really a step in the right direction. For myself, I have learned that if I can at least go through the motions of living normally, e.g. get up, shower, dress, stay awake, then I seem to do much better than if I disrupt a daily pattern.

(((hugs)))


balloonlady on 09/06/2010:
I am sorry to hear about that, my mother was diganoied as manic depressive, but after reading that , that sounds like it fits better. I hope the meds help even out your levels, Our own minds can be hard places to live sometimes...


Sofia on 09/06/2010:
I'm sorry to hear you havent been doing well. I know what you're feeling, I was diagnosed with major depression when I was 13 or 14. It's tough, but I know you can get through it. You are a very strong woman.



moogy - Friday Sep 03, 2010
(The Food Doctor - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 231.2

CHERISH LIFE'S SIMPLE PLEASURES

In the private sanctuary of one's own conscience lies that spirit, that determination to cast off the old person and to measure up to                                                                           the stature of true potential......................................Thomas S. Monson 

Today I am thankful for: emotional strength, a strong body, medication

Hello Lovely Girls, I have read all your diaries and enjoyed your triumphs and been sad about your struggles. I am feeling really flat today - it's just my brain chemical's - the usual up's and down's. I don't really have the wherewithal for a chat today - hopefully the real me will be back tomorrow. Love you girls.

Progress as of today: 3.8 lbs lost so far, only 56.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 09/02/2010:
Feeling rather down and flat myself today. :-(


sweetpea1977 on 09/02/2010:
Glad I could make you laugh. Mt Ironmore...that I could really live without!! :)

Sorry to hear you are feeling a little off today. Everyone goes through stages like that, but many forget to be kind to themselves. I hope you take some time to reflect on the wonderful person you are and all the people who love and adore you.


getmebackto150 on 09/02/2010:
sorry to hear you are feeling down... Keep up the good work and your brain chemicals will come around soon:)


V on 09/02/2010:
:( I am sorry you are feeling down when I need you the most! I need a real big slap from you back to reality, I am mentally still on vacation! LOL.. You should receive the postcards soon ; i love you girl!


V on 09/02/2010:
Thank you "Your Highness I needed that!!!!! LOL


Umpqua on 09/02/2010:
But you left such a nice and encouraging comment for me. See, you do have some positive energy in there today! I will try to bounce it back at you and send some happy, warm vibes your way. And besides, it's SPRING where you are - glorious!


healthygirl on 09/02/2010:
Moogy, hearing about your ups and downs, I really wish I could sit you down with me each day so we could drink our coconut oil tea together. . . did you check into it?! Really, it helps with hormone imbalances and is all sorts of good. It takes a couple of months to really set in, but consider it. :) You are such a ray of sunshine-- always so encouraging!


V on 09/05/2010:
i love ya girl!!1



moogy - Thursday Sep 02, 2010
(The Food Doctor - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 231.2

CHERISH LIFE'S SIMPLE PLEASURES

In the private sanctuary of one's own conscience lies that spirit, that determination to cast off the old person and to measure up to                                                                           the stature of true potential......................................Thomas S. Monson 

Today I am thankful for: a good night's sleep, a fresh start, creativity

Hello Wonderful Women, I had a bit of a hiccup yesterday, it started when I spend two hours on and of the phone and the computer trying to access my cable TV site, I won't go into the details, just lets say that if I had had to give anyone else personal info to identify myself I would have screamed. As it was I was getting terser and terser with each person I was speaking to who couldn't fix the problem, anyway almost two hours later I was put on to Advanced Tech Support, probably the person in the next booth who actually managed to fix the problem so now I can download programmes onto my computer from the TV menu. Yay!!!! Love this new technology - hate that it has to be so completely mind numbingly difficult to get anything done!!

The upshot of all this fuelling of my anger was that the big boys afternoon tea was out in the kitchen and I ate one slice of coconut cake, and then just to top it off two slices of a chocolate refrigerator cake that, of course, was in the fridge (they had that on Monday). My body wasn't used to all those carbs and as I drank water it made my tummy very uncomfortable, cuss, cuss, cuss - that serves me right for saying I was under control. I am never a frustrated, angry, depressed, compulsive minute away from being out of control and I would do well to remember that. Next time I say I am under control remind me that  I fall down really quickly. Any way onwards and downwards.

I have noticed that we have a couple of people on the team who seem to be eating way under their calories/carb whatever count, I am concerned that they may have an eating problem. If anyone else notices, maybe we could try to encourage them to eat more or if they are not reporting all  they are eating to do that, so we don't worry.

Have a wonderful day girls.

porridge, almonds

cruskits, vegimite, cream cheese

honey mustard chicken, wilted spinch toasted wrap

apple and pecans

roasted lamb shank, roasted pumpkin, green beans, peas, gravy, mint sauce

Progress as of today: 3.8 lbs lost so far, only 56.2 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 09/01/2010:
It happens to all of us, eh? You just pick yourself up and keep going. And you've been doing so well that I doubt a minor cake detour is going to do that much harm. I hope they were yummy at least!

As for posters eating under their calorie and carb counts, I think it's really hard to determine if people post a vague description of what they are eating. I know I try to be detailed in my entries here and yet I am detailed down to the measurement when I am counting on Fitday (or now, on MyFitnessPal). I feel like I don't need to include every minute detail here in my entries, and yet a few things here or there could equal several 100 calories. That's why I always post my overall calorie count, although I often don't post every single thing that adds up to that. That said, I know we have posters who join in every once in a while who seem to clearly have an eating disorder that they are looking for support for. Someone will inevitably call them out on it, and they usually don't return. There is definitely a pattern to the people who join in and post here (having been here nearly 6 years I've observed all sorts of behavior!) There is an element of "drive-by posters" who will post once or twice and then disappear. It seems like this is standard behavior on most forums though.


just42day on 09/01/2010:
Thank you so much for your generous comment today. I truly touched me. Thank you :)


CoverGirl on 09/01/2010:
:) Altho I cant even touch cake, they both sound soooo yummy :)


Umpqua on 09/01/2010:
I don't want to discourage you from making a comment if you see someone who you think is in danger. That's not what I meant at all, just want to clarify! I'm not sure exactly who you are talking about, but I was just posting some of what I have observed over the years. I think some forum/community posting behavior is just standard across most forums and it applies here as well.


sweetpea1977 on 09/01/2010:
It happens to the best of us. At least you recognized it as unhealthy behavior and will have a better shot at succeeding next time. I'm sure both were quite yummy!!

When I joined in 2005, I think I posted my calories (which were about 1200 calories/day). Then I got pregnant and didnt bother posting calorie counts since I wasnt in weightloss mode. Then I had the baby and started posting calories again (dont remember the average daily intake). This year, I think I was averaging 1400-1800 calories per day but stopped posting them once I became pregnant. I have no idea what I am eating now, but I feel like most days it is less than 1400 because of the nausea. Anyway, I am not going to post calories unless I start piling on the pregnancy pounds. Right now, I seem to be maintaining at 171-172lbs. At least I dont seem to be losing weight anymore!


V on 09/01/2010:
Moogy!!!! I am gonna tell you like you would to me that no one is perfect! please don't let this get to you.It has to be hard having forbidden foods in your home for the little cherubs,so lighten up buttercup. I love you mini binges and all :)


V on 09/01/2010:
You are welcome! Yes i was back at work today so wishing I was in Chicago,LOL


thinnside40 on 09/02/2010:
Have a wonerfully successful day!!!!!!!!!!!!! :o)


skinnygrlwithin on 09/02/2010:
Thank you for yesterday's comments... I guess someone looking in sees my situation better than myself... and it definitely helps to have someone point that out to me


biscottibody59 on 09/02/2010:
Glad you got the tech things taken care of--slices of cake--woops! It happens:-)

Thanks for your sentiments, I will be back full force eventually.

You so remind me of a diarist who was here when I first started and who eventually went through several different nicknames (leaving and coming back about 5 times over the years). Her last incarnation was dearerdiarist. She's not posted in a long time.

Of course you couldn't know my thoughts on the above, since you've been here such a short time--but I believe most of us (eating disordered or not) are seeking validation or even someone to share in our scolding of ourselves, though that usually doesn't happen.

Over the years I've seen two diarists who stuck around long enough (months) and lost enough wt eating generally 700-900 calories (documenting it all every day). Some of us did the standard, "You aren't eating enough!" BLAH BLAH BLAH. They have never come back to say whether it was ultimately good for their health or not; whether they kept the weight off or gained it all back plus a bunch more.

Personally I don't comment anymore if someone appears to be eating too little, I've done my fair share and it generally falls on deaf ears or is something the diarist never knew or thought of. That's my take.

So this forum has pretty much seen it all. Someone who lost tons during the Atkins nuttiness of the last 10 years. Someone who lost tons on gastric bypass. There was a guy who did his own version of the Jared/subway diet, but with Healthy Request soup--very inspirational diarist--I miss him and his perspective so much even today--he gained a bunch back after it so looked like it was a lifestyle change for him. Such is life.

DDs is unique--not quite what it was when I first started--the most motivating diarists for me in my early days are long-long-long gone, but the kernel of help, support and hope is still here!

As for me, I credit DDs alone for helping me "stay in the (MY) game" so I could keep a certain amount of weight off--I've gone back up to 169 a couple of times. I started at a time when my life was very different than it is now. It was a time when I thought anyone who drank more than about 20 oz of water/day was CRA-ZEEEE and when I thought the worst thing was to start over. Starting over is the key to success, for me at least. Though it may look as if some of us make that a lifestyle from time to time--there's no other way.

Have a good Friday!



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