- Saturday Feb 03, 2001
(Counting Carbs & Calories)
I have an appointment at the doctor this morning (for my foot). It may be a good idea for me to start entering my measurements & weight once a week. Since my weight will fluctuate daily due to multiple variables, it would not be an accurate picture of my true weight (if I weighed daily). I didn't have time to totally summarize my appointment yesterday with the dietician/nutricianist. He said I (a) wasn't getting enough milk in my diet, (b) needed to eat more non-starchy vegetables, (c) force myself to eat breakfast...even if I graze on it for an hour or so, and (d) start some type of regular exercise routine (I knew this was coming). I will think about how I am going to fit this into my schedule. Bernice told me about a woman named Denise Austin who comes on lifetime at 6:30 in the morning and presents an exercise routine. I think I will start recording her shows and working out at home each morning. Several people I've talked to at work said her program is really good. I'll tape it and see if it's something that will work for me and my lifestyle. People at work are starting to notice a change in my appearence and have commented to me about it. When someone says something to me like this, it makes me feel good because I know my hard work is paying off! Susan came back to work after taking two weeks off for a surgery. The very first thing she said when she seen me is "You've lost weight!" That really gave me a lift. Yesterday, I visited Tina (my bestest friend in the world) and she said, "Wow, you've really lost weight, I can tell a big difference...you look good!" That made me feel good as well. So even though I sometimes feel like I'm having "fat days" and that I'm not making progress, I know I am. I will enter my weight and measurements one week from today.
- Friday Feb 02, 2001
(Counting Carbs & Calories)
Ok, the scales this morning are showing a 4 lbs gain. My measurements are indicating both loss & gain. My left foot has been bothering me a lot lately & I haven't been able to walk as much. I'm going to make an appointment at the doctor for this and see if they can give me something to relieve the pain. I'm seriuosly beginning to doubt if my foot problem is due to my diabetes. After all, I haven't been diagnosed very long and I don't have any of the symptoms of diabetic foot problems. It feels more like a ligament or muscle problem. I'm still comfortably wearing size 26 and I had hoped, by now, that I would be closer to wearing size 24. But, that hasn't happened yet. At first, the weight was coming off quickly and that was great! However, the weight loss appears to be slowing down now and I have to monitor myself to make sure I don't get depressed or discouraged and, as a result, give up. My doctor cautioned me that I would hit a plateau and that I should start preparing myself for that. She never told me how to get past it..but I will ask that when I see my dietician today. Wish me luck! I'm not gonna give up! I don't want to turn back now. Ok, I just got back from my appointment with my nutritionist. He (yes, Amy wasn't there) said that the pounds I am gaining could very well be muscle, not fat...and that it's nothing to worry about. In fact, he said it wasn't unusual for weight to fluctuate up or down 3-5 lbs and this could be due to something as simple as drinking a glass of water. The fat will go away, some of it will be replaced by muscle, and my weight WILL end up evening out appropriately. This made me feel a lot better. He showed me a model of 5 lbs of fat...then he showed me a model of 5 lbs of muscle. Gosh! It was amazing. The 5 lbs of fat was all bulkly, ugly, yellow, and huge. The 5 lbs of muscle was lean, a LOT smaller, and neatly created. I immediately understood why I was losing inches of fat around the waist and yet, the scales were showing a minimal weight loss...that's because some of the fat was being replaced by lean muscle (which is definately a good thing)! Therefore, instead of measuring my success by the scale alone, I need to start paying more attention to my measurements. If I'm losing fat, yet, gaining muscle, my measurements will keep reducing even if the scales are stagnant or showing a larger weight.
- Wednesday Jan 31, 2001
(Counting Carbs & Calories)
Today my weight stayed the same but I lost some inches so I'm satisfied. I didn't sleep well last night (forgot & had a soda with caffeine in it yesterday). I have a class this morning, have to work all day, & then I have to take a test tonight. Tomorrow I have to work and take another test...urghhhh!!!!! (snoreeeeee)! Ok, I am at work now. I finished my psychology class, which was very enlightening. This professor, Dr. Cindy Kennedy, has taught me things that have had a profound effect on me. I am so glad I met her. I handed in a 5 page extra-credit paper during our last class..it was worth up-to 5 points. Cindy loved it and gave me 5 points PLUS 2 additional points for quality and organization! She added the extra-credit to my last test score...raising it to 98.6% In any event, today's class was about schemes formed in children's minds and their use of logic (later in life) to determine whether those schemes satisfy equalibrium or disequalibrium. This information was so enlightening that it immediately lifted my spirits because this logic makes sense of some of the personal problems I've had in my life lately. I'm an adult survivor of child abuse and learning how I came to feel about myself has been very rewarding. Anyway, This morning, for breakfast, I had a yogurt. For lunch, I had a cup of mixed fresh fruit and a mixed salad. I also had 2 chocolate (Snackwell cookies). Other than being tired, I'm feeling great! I look forward to losing that next pound! Total amount lost = 49 lbs.
- Tuesday Jan 30, 2001
(Counting Carbs & Calories)
Lost another 2 lbs (yoo hoo!) I certainly didn't see that coming! But I'm not going to complain...I gained a half an inch around the waist & hips but that could be muscle mass; who knows? It's not anything I'm going to worry about. I've been doing really good so far. I tried Tybo last night and didn't like it at all. I'm going to have to find another activity/exercise. My goal today is to drink more water and so far, I've achieved this. I'll post more tomorrow. Lisa
- Monday Jan 29, 2001
(Counting Carbs & Calories)
Ok, lost another pound & also 3/4 of an inch around my waist! Yipee! Yesterday was an emotional rollercoaster for me but I didn't pig out (which is what I use to do when I was upset). Actually, I'm proud of myself for keeping things in perspective (food wise). My husband got up this morning & helped me take my measurements. So I was off a little bit on my measurements yesterday, but not much. I feel as if I'm getting a slight stomach bug or something. My appetite hasn't been very good and I'm nauseated. I ate a third of a cup of cream of wheat this morning for breakfast. I know I should have eaten more (for the diabetes) but I seriously couldn't stomach much. But, maybe my appetite will pick up at lunch. When Bernice came to work, I told her that I had dropped 7 pounds since my cycle ended. She was thrilled and gave me a hug. She said I look really good and she can see the difference big time! Several people here at work are telling me they can see a difference (even people who don't even know I'm dieting). That makes me feel as if what I'm doing is paying off. I still have to lose another 13 lbs before I can take a picture and post it on my web page. I have been trying to take pictures and line them up beside one another each time I drop twenty-pounds (so that I can see the difference...it's motivational!) The last time I took a picture was at 299 lbs. Next picture will be taken when I reach 279 lbs. I'm on my way! I didn't sleep well last night, very emotional, tearful and depressed. Trying to concentrate on my academics, which means a lot to me, but can't seem to achieve it for any length of time. I'm very angry with my biological family right now and I have to express it somehow. Maybe I'll go to the gym and beat up a punching bag or something. Bruce is so supportive and loving, it's amazing how he's evolved and matured through these years. Five years ago we were on the verge of divorce...but today, it's better than it's ever been. Some women say that men never change. That's not true. God can work miracles in even the proudest man's life! As my husband gets older, he just keeps getting better! How lucky I am that even when doors shut, windows open!!!
- Sunday Jan 28, 2001
(Counting Carbs & Calories)
Yipeeee! I lost another pound and some more inches! I love tracking my progress this way. I never would have thought of taking my measurements without this program! Usually, I only measure my progress in pounds, not inches. With this program, I can do both. Since I initially began taking my measurements, I've lost 6 lbs, 3.5 inches around the waist, 3 inches off the hips, 1.5 inches from the chest, 2 inches off the thigh, and 1 inch off the upper arm. It may not seem like much, but it's leaps and bounds for me! One thing I have to be cautious of is "eating out of stress." I have tons of homework and projects and find myself wanting to nibble while trying to complete some of them. That urge to nibble is not hunger, but stress. I also need to drink more water (which I haven't been doing lately). I'm going to talk to hubby about my leaving early on certain mornings and visiting the gym at the college. He would have to get the kids off to school on those mornings. But, at least I'll be able to work in some type of exercise. Now that the water weight is receding, I am better able to get a grasp on how much weight I've really lost (thank God). I was really beginning to get depressed thinking that I had gained weight or not lost any at all. My blood sugars are great...I'm eating right and feel good. The only problem I am having is the nerve damage in my feet. The doctor said it's due to the Diabetes and there's nothing they can do other than prescribe muscle relaxers; which aren't working too well. I am not waking up in pain at night anymore. But my feet are hurting severely in the mornings and throughout the day. I thought this would improve as I lost weight but the doctor said what damage is done, is done and even with my losing weight, chances are, my feet will continue to get worse (Diabetes). I'm going to talk to him again about this during my next visit. Total lost since last year = 46 lbs.
- Saturday Jan 27, 2001
Well I appear to be back on track today. I wasn't hungry this morning, but I ate a cup of yogurt anyway. At dinner we went to Ponderosa. I was really afraid that I'd lose control and pig out at the buffet. But, I suprised myself. I ate a salad. Afterwards, I ate a chicken breast, a very small serving of mashed potatoes, 1/2 of a dinner roll, and a small serving of corn. For dessert I asked what they had that was sugar-free and the lady told me the only desserts that were sugar-free were the jello and spice cake. I had a little jello and a tiny piece of spice cake. That was it, I was satisfied! I felt proud of myself that I was able to exercise some self-control. Normally I would have eaten whatever I wanted, going through the buffet as if it were an assembly line. This was the very first time that I had eaten in a controlled manner at a resturant/buffet. I'm really excited about being able to fit into the size 26's again (some of the water weight receded) and am trying to keep myself motivated to lose enough to fit into the 24's. But it isn't easy being motivated all day, each day. But I'm trying. My goal this week is simply to find a way to curb the sweet/chocolate cravings. I went to the store down the street and checked out nearly every candy they have. The only one that I found to be low in calories and carbs was York Pepperment Patties. I can have 3 (they're thick) miniature bars for 50 calories and 10 grams of carbs. I haven't eaten any tonight (I am not craving them right now). But I put them up (out of sight) so that they will be available when I do begin to crave them. This craving sweets during my menstual cycle has been the most challanging thing that I have encountered since I began trying to lose weight. But, I think I may have it under control. I bought scales tonight and weighed myself. The scales say I weigh 294 lbs. Apparently the bloating is leaving and my actual weight is emerging. I'll try to weigh more often so I can curve things if my weight begins increasing. I'm also thinking about slowly incorporating some exercise into my life. So far, I've lost weight with little effort. I've just been changing the way I eat. But I'm going to hit a plateau one day and will not be able to lose any more unless I exercise. I may as well start doing it now. Lisa
- Friday Jan 26, 2001
Well it's Friday again. I'm trying to take my measurements and weigh in the same day each week. Today is that day. I don't feel as if I've lost any weight this week, but who knows? I took my measurements this morning and was suprised that I had lost some inches. I'm still a little bloated from my menstrual cycle. That should go away in a couple days (hopefully). Next Friday's weigh-in should be more revealing (all of the water weight will be gone). I haven't did too good this week with the chocolate/sweet cravings. However, I've still been doing my best to monitor and count up what I have eaten (even when I cheat). This time of the month is very difficult for me because of all the cravings. Well, I have to go to the doctor. I will post my weight (regardless of what it is) when I return. Ok, I am back from the hospital. I weigh 300. I gained one pound. Hopefully it's just water weight. If not, I'm really confused because I lost an inch & a half around my waist, an inch around my hips & breast. Oh well, next Friday will tell. Lisa
- Wednesday Jan 24, 2001
Ok, everything was going along perfectly until the 22nd. My menstrual cycle started and I've been craving chocolate like crazy. Yesterday and today (both), I attacked a bag of Sweet Escape candy bars. I was so mad at myself. At first I thought about chucking the diet until my cycle was over but this would only make me feel worse about myself. So, I forced myself to count up my calories and carbs (accountability). I called my dietician this evening and talked to her about it. She said to eat either tootsie rolls or peppermint patties (which are both low in fat). I'll try that the next time I get that really bad craving. I can't just flush my progress down the toilet and start eating like crazy again. In addition to this, I'm bloated really bad (which makes me feel like I haven't lost an ounce). I weighed myself yesterday in the gym at the college and still weighed 299. This makes it appear that none of my efforts are working. However, it's been my experience that I get bloated and gain weight during my menstrual cycle. However, once it's over, I weigh about 3-5 lbs less. Hopefully that will happen this time as well. I just can't allow myself to indulge into chocolate binges.
Wish me luck, Lisa
- Friday Jan 19, 2001
I am so excited right now! My pants (size 30) are quite a bit too big for me so tonight, while out shopping for other things, I wandered over to the section of the store that sold jeans. I took a pair of 26's off the shelf and tried them on and they fit perfectly!! I didn't have to suck my tummy in or anything!! They zipped with ease and I could still breathe (laugh). I bought 2 pairs (one black and one blue). This was the first time in years that I bought pants in a normal store, opposed to buying them at a large woman's store (Lane Bryant's, Catherine's, etc). I also bought a tape measure and took all my measurements. Wish I would have done this when I first started losing this weight. I'm curious to know what those measurements would have been. Oh well, I can only monitor my progress from here on. My next goal is to fit into a size 24. Wish me luck. This has been a wonderful day for me. First I achieved my goal of getting below 300 lbs. Then, I found out that I dropped from a size 30 to a size 26. This really motivates me to keep doing what I'm doing! My friends, Bernice & John (coworkers) are so inspiring! They're so supportive and understanding. I don't know what I would do without them! Hubby & the kids have also been a God-send, very supportive and cheer me on each time I lose a pound! Thank you God for giving me such wonderful, caring, and supportive people in my life (smile).