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questforthebest - Thursday Nov 14, 2019
(banting)
Weight: 75.0

 Hi everyone, thank you so. much for your comments yesterdaya, and all the support. It is honestly not an easy time right now, there is so much expectation that we should be in a place of perfection adn joy with the wedding being in a month but its so hard not to keep worrying about what is going to happen with my fiance's family... whether they will pitch,and if they do, whether they will be able to be happy for us or whether the nastiness will conitnue.  

She is so used to her family treating her this way and that is the part that really saddens me.  I just don't understand how a father an behvae like this - and for that , I conisder myself eternally grateful and luck to have the family I have ... Trying to see the silverlning here lol

Anyway, for everyon that commented on y cupboard calamity, in some ways its a relief to reach acceptance and stop trying to squeeze myself into things that don't fit and also its a motivation to make the changes I need to.  Thanks for all the support and comment xxx

I think today I am feeling sad that I have left these changes to a month beofre the wedding, so its gonne be some serious fatty photos that will follow me into the future, but at least I know that I am doing something about it.

Todays food plan:

3 x banting crakers with cheese

snack - apple and peanut butter (sugarfree)

Cottage cheese, walnut and egg salad

blueberries and yogurt

Dinner -steak and salad (she was too stressed out last night to eat much, so kept the snacks for tonight)

 

Beautiful days to all of you xxx

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 15 lbs to go!

Donkey on 11/15/2019:
(((hugs))) all you can do is work on the day you've been given.


legcramps on 11/15/2019:
You will have a beautiful wedding because the love of your life will be there with you :)



questforthebest - Thursday Nov 14, 2019
(banting)
Weight: 75.0

I'm sorry, here I go again.  Struggling today, emotionally.

My fiance is going through a really hard time with her family and I just don't know how to support or how to resolve it - which I know I actually can't. I want to control the situation but i cannot.  It's putting me through a rollercoaster ride of emotion and I just don't know what to do - I just don't want to project all of that onto my partner.

Anywya, sorry I'm just venting.

Food today:

Skipped breakfast again

Just had 3 banting crackers with cheese and hummus.

Still wanna make steaks for dinner. 

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 15 lbs to go!

legcramps on 11/14/2019:
Sorry your fiance is struggling. It would be so kind of you to do something nice for her, rather than trying to control or resolve the situation. She probably just wants your shoulder, your ear, or a hug!


Donkey on 11/14/2019:
Sometimes being there is the only thing you can do - and the best thing. I hope she works it out.


BearCountryGG on 11/14/2019:
D and I always have just handled our families ourselves...if it is an issue with his...he makes decisions...if if Mine then I do.


horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2019:
I’m sorry you feel bad and also about your fiancée’s situation . If you cant control the situation try to let it go - at least a little bit.

Do you get hungry skipping breakfast. ? I cannot do it as I have a big appetite in the AM when I get up - but I just drink something and then have breakfast bar work when I arrive


horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2019:
Also, welcome to DD! I have been away for almost a month but now I’m back



questforthebest - Wednesday Nov 13, 2019
(banting)
Weight: 75.0

Hi guys,

Still quite down about yesterday's culling of the wardrobe... but I've made sure to wear something today that fits and is flattering so that I can feel a little confident in my body, but the underlying feeling of disgust is strong. Sad that so much of my self-esteem is riding on how much weight I have gained.

At least I am attempting to do somethng about it, and I know that when I make active choices to change and shift my behaviour, pretty quickly my mindset also starts to shift even if there is no visible change - just have to stick to it!

PLan today:

Yogurt, blueberries

Snack - boiled egg

Lunch - baigan bharta left overs with banting wrap

Dinner - going to go fancy and make some steaks and salad :)

Feel like me and my fiance need some quality time, she's really down, and I am too broke to take her out for dinner but luckily the fridge is full... so, depending on the weird weather we're having I'm thinking of setting up a little roamntic dinner in the garden and spoling her a bit.

I have quite a full morning but plan to gym before lunch.

Have beautiful days! 

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 15 lbs to go!

Donkey on 11/14/2019:
I applaud you for going through your clothes and keeping things that you feel good in and fit properly.

Self acceptance is a huge part of this journey.


horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2019:
The cool thing about weight is you can change it but sometimes it does take a long time to make these changes into a lifestyle change !



questforthebest - Wednesday Nov 13, 2019
(banting)
Weight: 75.0

HI there. I think I'm losing a bit of my shiny veneer.  Can't hold it up today...

I decided I wanted to sort the house, which really really needed to be done... That's a good thing but the sad part was i decided to finally accept my weight gain adn the fact that i actully need to pack my clothes that are too small, too tight or just look bad with the new weight.  It's really got me down and I dont quite know at this moment how to drag myself out of this rut.

Hoping I will feel better tomorrow.

Thanks for listening 

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 15 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/13/2019:
We all have those kinds of days.

questforthebest on 11/13/2019:
ya that Is true, horrid though


happy-1 on 11/13/2019:
I feel the same way today... "Can't hold it up". Good way to put it. Watching TV and trying to figure out what the critical thing is I am lacking, besides a pizza.

questforthebest on 11/13/2019:
Hope today is a better day for you :)



questforthebest - Wednesday Nov 13, 2019
(banting)
Weight: 75.0

 Hi everyone, hope you are all having glorius days!

I've had a bit of an oopsy morning in regards to food... I didn't eat breakfast this morning, which is never a good way to start the day, so am only eating now (1ish).  I have to be careful now to act like a human around food for the rest of the day and not go super savage and overindulge... Thats my pattern.  I restirct and I binge which i shy my weight has escalated and sent my poor metabolism out of whack.

Anyway, this time it was totally not intentional and I just got so busy once I got to work that i didn't have time till i got home.

So:

Lunch - chicken, egg and cottage cheese salad

Definitely going to work a snack in - banting crackers and cheese

Dinner - Baigna Bhartha.

I have a bucket load of marking to do but I want to try go to gym this evening.

Have beautiful days!

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 15 lbs to go!

legcramps on 11/13/2019:
Have a good day!


BearCountryGG on 11/13/2019:
High protein lunch.



questforthebest - Monday Nov 11, 2019
(banti)
Weight: 75.0

Hi guys, its OArecovery here, I got locked out of my account :/ so I think there was maybe something fauty there and that's why I couldn't comment, I dn't know.  Anyway, I will be posting under this name from now.  

Thanks for all th comments, hopefully I can reply to them now!

Plan for the day:

greek yog, blueberries, walnunts

caesar salad - no croutons

banting poppers and salad

snacks, if needed, apple and peanut butter OR a boiled egg

Been avoiding gym for momnths but im going to do my best to stay motivated to go today!

 

Have wonderful days <3

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 15 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 11/12/2019:
Hope you get to go and have a nice workout. What country do you live in?

questforthebest on 11/12/2019:
Thanks :)

I live in South Africa


Donkey on 11/12/2019:
I feel that I should welcome you with your new name :-) Welcome!

Your menu sounds delicious! Good luck at the gym. I kind of miss going to the gym. I'm fortunate enough to have stuff here at home to use to workout with, but it's not the same.

questforthebest on 11/12/2019:
lol thank you <3


happy-1 on 11/13/2019:
I like that name... I really like that... Why didn't I pick that? LOL.


innerpeace on 11/14/2019:
i like your new name way better than the old. Great job with the new name.



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