- Wednesday Oct 08, 2008
I'm totally blaming TOM for the weight gain. I hate him.
Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 62 lbs to go!
- Wednesday Oct 01, 2008
Finally I'm in the last stretch of the 200s!
Eid Mubarak everyone! This is perhaps the best Eid gift I could have received.
Progress as of today: 18.8 lbs lost so far, only 59.6 lbs to go!
- Wednesday Sep 24, 2008
I'm blaming the slight weight gain on my new fall clothing. :)
I need to get back in the game.
Progress as of today: 16.8 lbs lost so far, only 61.6 lbs to go!
- Thursday Sep 11, 2008
Hooray for 210! One more pound and I'll be in the final stages of the 200s!
I have an even bigger reason to lose weight now. I went to the doctors for a physical (I had never even had one before) and found out I have high cholesterol! I'm only 29! So, I'm not sure how to lower it, but I'm going to look up some information. He also said that I have extremely low B12. I have to begin taking an extra supplement, aside from my daily vitamin. If the supplement doesn't work, I have to get B12 shots!!! I hate shots. :(
Other new things in my life are that my husband passed his citizenship test! On Friday the 19th he will officially become a US citizen. I'm so happy and proud of him! :) We've been waiting for this for a loooooong time!
We also have a puppy now. His name is Raja. We got him on Tuesday night and he's amazing. He's a toy fox terrier, and he's playful and fun. He's also very cuddly. :) It's been a rough few nights though, since he's been crying. It breaks my heart to hear him whimper throughout the night, but I know that I have to leave him in his area. :( I want to grab him and snuggle him! I can't imagine what it would be like to be taken away from my family and have to go live with new people who didn't even snuggle me when I cried. Poor little puppy. I got him a snuggle toy that gets heated in the microwave. It seems to work until the heat wears off. Does anyone have any other suggestions?
Okay, another day another work-load. Bye all!
Progress as of today: 18.2 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!
- Wednesday Aug 27, 2008
This is the lowest I've weighed in YEARS!! :)
I'm so excited!!!
Progress as of today: 17.2 lbs lost so far, only 61.2 lbs to go!
- Wednesday Aug 20, 2008
Duhn.Duhn.Duhn. And another one bites the dust!
Progress as of today: 15.8 lbs lost so far, only 62.6 lbs to go!
- Wednesday Aug 13, 2008
I'm back down to 213 although I haven't been caring about what I put in my mouth. I've been going through some very stressful situations at work, and my doctor put me on a new pill. I'm taking Lexapro and Xanax now, and I've found that when I'm calm I seem to eat less.
I know that my biggest problem with weight is emotional eating. As I've said before, I eat to build a scab over pain, sadness, stress and even boredom. Hopefully the new medication will help me with my anxiety issues which will then help me get out of the house more.
A lot of times I stay at home because I'm afraid of what strangers are going to think of me. I hardly ever go out to bars with my husband and our friends. In the back of my mind I'm always thinking that people are looking at me wondering why that fat girl isn't at the gym.
And don't get me started on going to parties with new people who never knew the skinny me. If I somehow manage to make it out of the house, I usually break down in tears before we get to the front door and force my husband to take me home.
All of this is pretty strange to me. It's like anxiety strikes when I least expect it, and I never really know when it's going to happen. Once I was going to the zoo and I had a major melt down right in front of the gate. I had to get out of there. Then. At that moment. People were looking at me. Now, looking back, I'm sure no one was thinking about my weight, but at the time it sure felt like it.
I guess I find this weird because I'm normally a pretty self-confident person. I think I'm pretty. I care about others. I'm smart. I don't want this to come off sounding like I think I'm the King Cake of the Mardi Gras party, but I know I have good qualities. It's just that sometimes I forget them and focus on the fat.
I really hate this fat.
Progress as of today: 14.6 lbs lost so far, only 63.8 lbs to go!
- Wednesday Jul 30, 2008
I feel very frusterated that I gained 1.4 lbs this week. I ate within my points (I had 15 flex points left) and exercised a total of 4 hours. I even did yoga one day. :( I'm upset. I'm angry, and I'm crabby now.
Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 66.4 lbs to go!
- Thursday Jul 24, 2008
I did really well with the eating aspect of WW yesterday. I ate my points, and even though I felt like I wanted to eat more, I stopped! :) I haven't done that in a week. I believe that the weight gain that showed on the scale yesterday was a kick in the pants. I don't want my August weight to be more than my June weight. I WANT THAT BAR TO GO DOWN, DOWN, DOWN!!!
As for the exercise front, I'm beginning weights TONIGHT. For some reason I've been putting it off. I keep saying that I'm going to add them (and I know that I should), but for some reason I get freaked out when I get to that point in the workout and stick with cardio instead. This is because I'm very afraid that I'm going to have very sore muscles and stop working out completely if I begin weights. When I lost weight several years ago, I noticed a huge change when I added weights to my workout. I not only became stronger, but my body toned up and I lost weight quicker. Even though I weighed 145-150, I was really, really tiny. Sometimes I look at my size 6 pants and wonder how I ever fit into them. Blah, blah. That's another story! :)Anyway, I just have this habit of trying to go back to where I was when I was thin and really fit, rather than easing back into a program. I think I'm going to look up information on a beginner's program. Does anyone have a suggestion for where I can find a good program?
Okay. 'Bye all.
Progress as of today: 13.4 lbs lost so far, only 65 lbs to go!
- Wednesday Jul 23, 2008
I'm up 1.4 lbs. :( Talk about a slump week! I think that this is good though. I didn't work out (I was only at the gym for 15 min!) or eat well this week, and my motivation level was nil. I did, however, write down my points even when I went over (and I went over almost every day!). I feel much better today and able to get it together. Having to shell out $20 to my husband this morning was absolutly a motivator. I'm going to make sure he gives that back to me next week. Grrr!!!
Other than that, things are pretty much the same with me. I'm going to read your journals now and catch up!
Progress as of today: 13.4 lbs lost so far, only 65 lbs to go!