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thinnside40 - Sunday Feb 22, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 202.0

Good Morning All...I'll have to be back later to post, catch up & comment....As soon as I catch up with myself!....... It looks like beautiful cotton is falling from the sky....Heavy & fast too....SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Been a very busy weekend and I'm going to bed early.... Did go to my parent's yesterday for about 5 hours...My g'ma was there, so that was perfect timing..... I fixed supper... Pulled pork & bbq chix sandwiches, h.m. french fries, coleslaw... When we got there...My poor dad said "wher'eve yuns been? (he's from Arkansas) I sure wish you was here a couple hours ago!"... He had been busy cleaning carrots out of his garden for some people in the church who wanted some & a couple other things he needed to get done... Leaving my mom to bake some cookies for a youth activity camp fundraiser.... I looked in the oven and the cookies were a "flop"... He was frazzled, so was mom... He hoped she would be able to at least make cookies, but it didn't work out that way... I felt so bad for them both... He is having a very tough time coming to grips that she just cannot remember from one minute to the next.. Long term memory is fair, but short is zilch...... I pulled up my sleeves and started mixing some P.B. cookies to salvage their pride a bit to be able to take cookies to church today..... Made 5 dozen... I'm not a "cookie baker" by any means, but thank the GOOD Lord that these came out nicely... I cooked pretty much the whole time there (between cookies & supper), but we enjoyed some laughs and mom almost cried that I had taken over in helping her out..... Dad just looked at me with a wink & huge sigh, slumping his shoulders in exhaustion and relief..... Now, I have 5 dozen to make for what I said I would contribute.... Where is Otis Spunkmeyer when I need him? Oh ya, I told Meg we weren't doing that fundraiser this year.....

I hadn't eaten much (Breakfast & LS V-8) by the time I sat down last night (7:00), so I did eat the menu items I fixed in moderation.....

Eating today has been fairly good, ending with a bowl of cereal for supper..... Sticking with plan 85-90% I'd say (good foods, just added a couple cookies).... I did walk about 2.25 miles.... Headed to church to see how far I could make it before the family caught up with me.. They picked me up, so I wouldn't be late...... It felt good to pound pavement (not gravel road) for a change... 100% on track tomorrow... Weekends have got to be flexible this time around..

With all of this babble being said... I'm off to hit the hay earlier than usual, so I can get up to get a few things done before the boys are here in the morning... Oh, and Friday's all day testing for the pre-schooler came out as being a 7 out of the 10 scale in Autism instead of having Asperger's...... I'm not sure what all of this is going to mean, but God is trying out the strength of my patience between my mom & this little boy who is like my own child for some reason....  I am not going to let any of it effect my journey, as I need to devote 110% to myself just as much to be the best I can be for those who need me, whenever they need me & not losing the fact that I need to take time for "me" and not feel guilty for it..... I WON'T feel guilty  to say "no", when I NEED to and a situation isn't going to mean the end of the world for someone if I do take time for "me"... ... That is what has messed me up before...

Night Night... I'm done... I promise!


Progress as of today: 35 lbs lost so far, only 47 lbs to go!

Maria* on 02/22/2009:

starfish on 02/22/2009:

Maria* on 02/22/2009:
I've checked back a few times...hope you're having a wonderful day in the Lord!

omahagrl on 02/22/2009:
Hope the snow is not too much. Been busy today with housework. We did go to the store and I thought we would spend some of a rebate check we had but MJ did not seem to want to buy things I wanted. I ended up leaving the cart in an aisle and decided to heck with it. I get so fustrated when I shop with him...ever have those moments?

mama_nurse on 02/22/2009:
Happy Sunday thin! You're in my thoughts!!!

Maria* on 02/22/2009:
YOU ARE A DIAMOND. This is what came to me after I read you comment to me. Thank you so much. For helping me to 'see' everything in perspective. Thank you. And I hope you and yours have a good nite, too. It is 12:23 a.m. here...y'all take care. :-)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/22/2009:
glad you had such a good weekend! wow, how old is your grandma? that's great you can get together with your whole family.

Maria* on 02/22/2009:
Just read your update....AMEN!!!! Very well said!

Glad you had a nice visit w your folks...sorry to hear about your Mom. Glad she has YOU for her Daughter. That's a BIG BLESSING to her and your Dad!

As for the PB cookies, I'd have liked to of had a couple, too!!!! :-) Nitey-nite!!!

selina on 02/23/2009:
Good job!

Maria* on 02/23/2009:
Mornin'! This is the day the Lord hath made! We will rejoice and be glad in it!

thinnside40 - Saturday Feb 21, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 202.0

MeMe & mommy are staying home to do some cleaning while the guys took off HotWheels shopping to see if they could find what they need to finish off a couple sets... KMart (Yes, we still have one) has a special Saturday 3-4 times a year and to see adults (I have went a couple times) FIGHTING over those lil' diecast toys is a laugh.....Paul & Ben just set back and watch after they get their case to paw through, not wanting to get into a tiff.....Meg is a bit miffed that dad "forgot" her this time... She was sleeping too hard & well to wake this time. We had our shopping last night together... I have been looking @ microwave popcorn poppers in the stores ($19-$25), in wishes of getting one sometime... As I was walking the aisles @ the Value Village, I kept thinking "Lord, please let me find one of those hot air or microwave popcorn poppers one of these days....Now, this is something I do often when in need or want something in particular and 9/10 times I find what it is I need or want within a very short period of time (instantly at times or sometimes a bit of time passes).... Whala, I turned the corner and there was an Orville Redenbocker Microwave Popcorn Popper in the box, tape sealed..... I opened it up & it had never been taken out of the plastic wrapping. There were 8 EXTRA paper discs (16 all together) to boot..... $4.99.... When I got home, Ben looked at me as I showed him the popper (he was with me last time I was gandering in the store at them & talking about how I would wait til I found one more reasonable (our budget) or put it on a "wish list" for an occassion). .He said "Mom, God sure is good to you".... He knows how I am constantly asking the Lord to provide what He sees fit in our needs/wants..... Now, I don't have to concern myself with the mini bags anymore and can have PLAIN popcorn (yes, I like totally it naked)..Much more of it at a time too..... Someone asked me a while back about how I find good buys & nice things like I do... I told them that I just have faith our needs will be met.... Plus, my motto is "I don't pay full-price for anything, scept for my utilitites, vehicle gas, mortgage & fresh produce/meat"....On sale, clearanced or thrift store finds are my deal!....I even go to the bread store itself (.99/loaf or pack vs. $2-$4). I don't trapse all over town, but get what I need where I am close to at the time usually.... May sound cheap, but it is fun & you NEVER know what you may find.....We look mighty fine I think. People (most) NOT knowing where I shop give us compliments, just the same and never know the difference... I have stock in Lysol, Clorox & Spray n Wash BTW too...... Everything gets sanitised & clean as a whistle..... Which reminds me, I gotta go get my new shirts outa the washer to hang-dry...Now to decide which to wear to church tomorrow....

Thinking about going to see my parents sometime this afternoon..Hubby is due for a haircut & we haven't been over there in a few weeks, due to all the sickness... Need to go to WalMart sometime too...... Just a good day in general I forsee....

Day #4 (and still on track -whoot whoot..Hi Jen!)

Scrambled Egg/Egg Whites,Healthy Nut EM, Orange & Coffee

The guys made it home.... They BOTH scored a $uper Treasure Hunt... A 99 cent car (GMC motorhome) that goes for up to $85 on Ebay.... This is one that has real riders (rubber tires) & the S is a $ sign.... in the TREASURE HUNT series... 1 T.H. style  per month of the year.. There are plain T.H. cars too, but the ones with the rubber tires go for more money, as they are like the original cars....Ben is still on a "high"....... They were they only 2 people out of 25 that got these in their case (each given a case when they get there to open @ 9:00 a.m.)... They gave a couple guys some other treasure hunts they found, so everyone at least got a T.H. of some sort....


Progress as of today: 35 lbs lost so far, only 47 lbs to go!

biscottibody59 on 02/21/2009:
I have the very same popper--the second one I've had. I think I made plain (no oil) popcorn once. I use just a spot of canola or peanut oil depending on what I have on hand--it doesn't take much--use the smallest amount--but it makes a huge difference to the taste--to me anyway! (In fact, I've used as little as a quarter teaspoon of oil.)

Also, unless the disk gets scorched, you can use it at least a couple times. Again YMMV!

Have a good one!

haha_love2laugh on 02/21/2009:
good job today!!!!!!

selina on 02/21/2009:
I hear you, Thin! This is for US and only WE can do it for ourselves. Others can try to support, but that's all: support. The responsability and hard work falls ultimately on us. I do believe, though, that mutual support weighs a lot and plays a tremendous role in this journey. Case in point - I have never lost this much weight before without gaining it right back. I do value the support of fellow DDrs and am very grateful for this lucky chance of finding a support group such as this...

Don't worry, I like to think that only the positive enthusiam of others rubbs off on me, hehe.

So happy to read about the fun things you and your family have been up to. Congratulations!

I am also going to go back to weighing myself every week... I feel really positive about this! Thank you so much for being there with me!

Maria* on 02/21/2009:
Outstanding entry! What a wonderful Christian family y'all are!!! The Lord knows what we want/need even before we ask Him. I've had people tell me He will supply our needs but not our wants...not so... Psalms 37:4 tells us if we delight ourselves in the Lord, He will give us the desires of our heart!

Beth201p on 02/21/2009:
Have a wonderful rest of the weekend. :)

selina on 02/22/2009:
Good morning to you, too!

I agree, thankfully, we do grow wiser as we grow older! Have a restful Sunday with your family!

hopinforachange on 02/22/2009:
I also have one of the popcorn poppers. They are handy things to have no doubt. I hope that you have a great day. :)

thinnside40 - Friday Feb 20, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 202.0

Fantastic Friday to You!

Well, seems as though my sinus issues are about over with... We'll hope so.... The weather is very foggy & I need to go out in a bit... My first trip to town with the baby & T together... I have no choice but to go, as the bank lobby closes before I'm able to get there usually.... Will be going to a couple other places, if everything is going alright that is....

Felt good to get a bit of fresh air yesterday evening in walking a couple miles before music practice.... That lasted 2.5 hours, so hubby & I barely got to see each other again.... Tonight we are planning on watching Open Season 2 as a family.... The kids & I already watched it on Monday.... It's funny!

Headed into day #3 already and it feels "old hat" to be on an auto-pilot path.... Amazes me the difference that I feel..It is not like the other times this last few months I have "started over".... Looking at it as a "fresh start" instead has made a world of difference.... Play on words maybe, but the outlook & mind-set is "determined to succeed".... That feels AMAZING!!!!!!!! I will take it as long as it lasts! I have been looking at foods this last couple days that I fix for the kids & my family. Automatically KNOW I am not going to take even a taste of those things that I shouldn't ( I do fix healthy for them, but some foods are just plain ole' yummy kid's stuff).... Hmmmm.. That hasn't been the case for at least 6 months.... No more thoughts of "just a little", cause it was a little of this and a little of that...Making a HUGE serving of "mess" by days end..... That adds A LOT!.... My plan is moderation (no taboos, but common sense). Special occasions will bring the ability to eat foods that will feel like "treats", not the norm.....

Healthy Nut EM, Honey,Scrambled Egg/Egg Whites,Grapefruit, Coffee

Apple & SF Vanilla Coffee

Just got back from town and I'm hungry!.... Got my banking done & mailed off my $$$$$ check... Feels good to have that done.... Stopped by the Goodwill (next to p.o. depot) and found a couple spring tops for myself.... Ben will be so suprised when he sees the 2 shirts I found him too..... I do need to go grocery shopping still, but the boys were being so good & getting tired at the same time... Decided it was a good trip for our first outing together... I haven't been out n about with a baby in a LONG time.... There isn't any telling them to "shhh" a bit is there?..I was quickly reminded of how good little lungs could scream (yikes)..... He fell asleep on the way home.... Off to eat my scrumptious dindin...(late late late ~ 2:45)


Salad (Chix, sprinkle of Taco Seasoning, Lett, Tom, Cuc, 1/2 Avoc, Black Beans, Tstd. Pine Nuts & W.B.Lite Ranch)




Oatmeal, Walnuts,Skim Milk, Few Raisins


H2o = No less than 120 oz.

 Walk } Jan-66 miles/ Feb -19 miles

Bike } Jan- 25 miles/Feb- 2 miles




Progress as of today: 35 lbs lost so far, only 47 lbs to go!

Maria* on 02/20/2009:
Wow, y'all must have a REAL GOOD music practice...ours usually lasts about an hour to an hour and a half.

Hope you have a good trip to town...I did that yesterday...the bank and groceries stuff...

I LOVE your 'fresh start' attitude....maybe when I finish getting over this, I can have that attitude again, too! (I had it a while back and let it go...had gotten down to 150...:-(....)

Have a happy day, Friend! Enjoy the FRESH AIR outside! :-)

Maria* on 02/20/2009:
I didn't know what Open Season 2 is so I just now looked it up online and it looks like a funny, cute animation show... what channel/time does it come on? Looks like something fun to watch!!!

starfish on 02/20/2009:
Keep up the great work! :-)

Maria* on 02/20/2009:
I'd sure L-O-V-E to hear you play!!! Bet your piano-playing sounds BEAUTIFUL!!!! As for us at our church, we just have me on the piano and sometimes (not often), a drummer on the drums. We also have cd music...when I'm out and also sometimes when I'm there, too (we sometimes mix cd music in with piano music, like have a couple cd songs and then have piano-played songs). The younger crowd likes singing with cd music. The older crowd (most of them) likes hymns and choruses played on the piano.

As for fishing...I bait my own hooks but haven't ever gotten it 'down pat' about how to take the fish off the hook.

grumpy on 02/20/2009:
Ahhh i love the starting over idea. I am with you, starting tomorrow, because today I wont be able to eat all healthy and how i did in the beginning, but i will try to keep it little. xoxoxox

hollybelle on 02/20/2009:
No, no disappointment really - at all. I'm so glad I'm not continuing on the path I was on because I was eating a little too much and too much sugar and fatty foods. It's all good. I know I can't eat perfectly everyday-but I need to stay in the game, at least. Yesterday was really pretty good. I have to be careful to walk the line between watching what I'm taking in and obsessing over it. For me that line is very thin. I must stay on this side of it. So far so good for quite a long time, actually. I'm not sure why I'm that way, exactly. I know there are many things that contribute to it. I really do very well, considering my past issues with eating and body issues (you may not have been around this site long enough to have seen any of my comments about my past, and mine and my daughter's struggles but take my word for it!). So all in all every day is a good day as long as I'm swinging he pendulum mostly in the middle range! and I stay off the scales! LOL!

loveray on 02/20/2009:
your comment meant SO much to me. you were really like a DD "mom" to me when i first started and always gave me encouragement to shine. it is very strange, but i feel so close to you and i am grateful that you have always had support and love to give even in your tough times. it was also helpful to hear that i have come a long way (in your eyes) since i tend to think that i can never do/be enough. xoxo- happy weekend

haha_love2laugh on 02/20/2009:
yuo get 2.5 hours of music practice!!! wow we only get a little bit!! hope it was fun abnd i'd just LOVE to hear you play. haha =P

Beth201P on 02/20/2009:
Sounds like you are doing good. Keep up the great work. Just wanted to stop in and say hi. ((hugs)) Beth

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/20/2009:
it's good you're feeling better! :)

i love egg whites/eggs for breakfast bc they are soooo low cal! can't beat them! i find a glass of milk VERY satisfying with them. i find milk with any meal helps a lot! too bad i'll be skipping dairy next month. i NEED to stick with my plan. elementary/junior high reunion/wedding month in April. ugh!

selina on 02/20/2009:
WOW! I love that energy just glowing from you... yay! I am just like you in a sense I don't have taboo foods. Like yesterday, I ate chocolate and felt very good about it. Moderation is the key! Have a good weekend and keep it up!

hollybelle on 02/21/2009:
Oh, I wish I could have one of those fresh eggs you told HOP about. I used to eat fresh eggs at my grandmothers. Have you ever looked into selling them locally? There is a market for them, I know. Just an idea.

Maria* on 02/21/2009:
I paid over $2.00 for a dozen BROWN eggs when I bought groceries Thursday. There is just something about the BROWN eggs...they are SOOOO pretty!!!! I hope you're having a good morning. Glad you were able to find you a couple of pretty springtime tops at the goodwill store! You and I LOVE to shop the thrift stores, don't we??? Why waste money going to a mall when you can just go to a thrift store and get you something for 2 or 3 dollars that someone donated, who already paid the MALL COST, huh????? Hehehe!!!!

thinnside40 - Thursday Feb 19, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 202.0

Sleep last night wasn't well, but I still feel awake despite.... Not sure what was going on, other than a lot of tossin-n-turnin... Hubby was snoring for one thing I know..Poor guy was up and gone by 4:00a.m. in hopes of being home around 7:00 tonight.... Didn't get the Devil's Food cake made yesterday...The baby got sick and I had to tend to him first & foremost.....

This is Day #2 of my starting fresh... For some reason that mindset of pretending nobody has seen me "fall away" has helped me already in a way I cannot describe...Thought about changing the user name, but figured no sense in doing that, cause it reflects how I feel to a "T" ... I do feel like I did on January 21,2008 again... Non-stoppable & having that determinatoin/drive/grit/tenacity that nothing is going to shake my routine of eating ONLY what I set my mind to for the day... Being a very determined person hasn't changed, but my routine had this last several months, not "setting my mind" solid enough to believe that I COULD DO what I set out to...... No more!... Determination & inspiration are BACK to ROCK-N-ROLL in this house! Having food repetition is a great tool for me personally... I may tire of foods and change them occasionally, but will stick with what works in the time(s) it is working....  Saying that, I ordered my favorite whole dried cranberries yesterday. Those will start popping up again to accompany my oatmeal in about a week...

Found an article in "FIRST" magazine a couple nights ago that maybe answered my question a couple weeks ago about "monthly munchies". Answer to the reader's question of "Help!, My Diets Falls Apart When I Have PMS" was : Too much estrogen....It can heighten hunger mid-cycle....So, limit your intake of copper-rich foods like regular tea, shellfish, soy & organ meats...Then get 15-25mg of zinc to absorb the excess copper by eating 3-6 servings of foods such as lean beef, lamb,beans,pumpkin seeds & eggs...Results will show within 2 months..Now, I remember in the beginning I ate A LOT of legumes..I didn't have the monthly munchies near as bad as I do now.... So, back to eating more and I was going to anyway starting today actually, just cause I like beans!.....BTW ~ The answer was given by Ann Louise Gittleman Ph.D and this isn't an official diagnosis I know, just worth a try naturally.....

I started a hand-written journal last night as well.... I had bought a pretty journal @ Goodwill for 99 cents last week in hopes of finding the desire to write just a little each night before going to bed the things I felt & just for me to read. This way I can go back to read without having to weed through these on DD, even though I do time to time. Just nice to be able to not sign-on to find it in a hurry if need be.....

Off to finish dishes while T is the only one awake..... Looking for another great day!

Egg/Egg Whites, Healthy Nut EM, LS V-8, 1/2 Banana, Coffee

Yogurt, Honey, Ground Flax

Chicken Breast, Brown Rice, Caul/Broc/Carrots/Black Beans/Lil LF Italian Cheese 

 1/2 Fiber One Bar

Came across this reading below in quotation just a bit ago and thought it sure was the truth..... A speck of doubt can sabotage a whole plan for ourselves (how am I proof of that one).... The strenth lies in us, not in what others say..It is what we do with what we read, are encouraged in reading in comment, how we respond to compliments & how we put our own words into action... Those words sit idle if we don't believe we CAN do what we say we are going to do......OR those words from others will sit idle even though we believe them... If someone believes you can, that isn't going to make it happen...YOU ARE if/when YOU believe YOU CAN succeed...As have said plenty time before, nobody else can do this for me.. I HAVE to DO IT...... I got it...I got it... I got it.....BUT, there is one thing that has to be done first/foremost and that is to have FAITH in your source of strength....

"""Success has everything to do with belief. You must believe, really believe that you will succeed if you want to be triumphant. When you believe in your heart that you can succeed, oddly enough you will! Belief energizes, motivates, and gives your goals the momentum that you need to make things happen."""

Oatmeal, Skim Milk, Walnuts, Few Raisins

Walked 2 miles

Peach S.F. Jell-O w/ few Peaches OR Orange (will decide later)

H20 = No Less than 120 oz.

Walk } Jan-66 miles/ Feb-19 miles

Bike } Jan- 25 miles/Feb- 2 miles


Progress as of today: 35 lbs lost so far, only 47 lbs to go!

YepItsMe~ on 02/19/2009:
Wishing you a wonderful day Thinn!!! Huggggz!!

mama_nurse on 02/19/2009:
your cranberries sound delicious! so glad you are feeling inspired and ready to go!! i know you have it in you and i know you can do this! hugs

omahagrl on 02/19/2009:
Just got back from a walk during lunch .50 miles so that if I cannot get on the treadmill tonight my body got a little exercise and some Vitamin D. I always hate when MJ works a lot and I am like you and try to spoil him. There has been times where he has had to work at the shop 7 days a week and I try to make a point to let him know how much I appreciate what he does. Here is to hitting the gazelle and staying on track!

Maria* on 02/19/2009:
I LOVE beans, too!!! Especially lima beans! There was a time in my life that I ate lima beans almost every day and I was very, very slim then, without EVEN TRYING!!!

I hope the baby is feeling better today. You sound well....hope you are well.

Good on the hand-written journal...I have lots of them and like to go back and read them from time to time!

Have a happy, blessed day!!! (smile!)

haha_love2laugh on 02/19/2009:
Good job on trying to start over, and not worrying about anything coming in your way because it WON'T if you dont let it! your food looks good for today!!!

selina on 02/20/2009:
I have no doubt you will succeed, wow, your enthusiam is rubbing off this way all the way across the ocean! And I am very happy for the two of us. We can do it, my friend! Thanks for the enthusiastic greeting this morning - you make me smile! I'm also back to my set menu of fish, slads, beans and totally healthy stuff. Go girl!

Donkey on 02/20/2009:
Donkey was here to cheer you on!

loveray on 02/20/2009:
i love that you are trying some new and old tactics. it never gets to be at a point where we have it "figured out" does it?! although frustrating, it is kind of neat to know that we have the ability to alter our attitude and path when we need it the most. have a great weekend. i love you!! ps- the party was a hit! i put up another photo of the whole and healthy fam for your viewing pleasure;) xoxo

omahagrl on 02/20/2009:
I do have a poodle skirt so thanks for the idea! have fun on your walk

hollybelle on 02/20/2009:
thanks for the encouraging words. It helps to know that certain people will read my diary and that they are looking for me to succeed (not be PERFECT, but to succeed). I do that with you and others - so don't forget that, either.

thinnside40 - Wednesday Feb 18, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 202.0



Dawned on me last night that there is something missing from my current plan..... I haven't set a goal since setting the original on January 21,2008 of "down by 40 by 40", which was May 14, 2008... I didn't meet that goal, but had given it a pretty good effort.... I wasn't discouraged by not making it, due to knowing I would make it someday... I did make that 40#'s gone, but have messed that  up..... Sooooooooooo, next weigh-in will be March 1st.... From there, I will set a realistic goal to be reached... I don't want to weight just yet, as I haven't been such a good girl & don't want to get discouraged...Waiting til the 1st & having a couple weeks prior under my belt of "being good" will give me a good starting point... Easter is the next "Holiday".... I will be 110% back on track starting today....Strict expectations EVERY SINGLE DAY... I have to look at this like I am starting all over again right from where I am at (without looking @ the number right now though).... No looking back (again)... I can look at what I've accomplished to fuel my desire, but that's it.. My "starting fresh" may show a repetitious menu, but that is due to me knowing what I can eat to make me stick to regime & make it work in success.. I know before some got tired of seeing yogurt/honey, turkey burger or salmon EVERY DAY, but I have certain things in the menu for reasons and they will be "staples" again (not the turkey though)... The menu listing is for my accountability to me... I would certainly be "off track" & back to 237 if I didn't write my bites..... I hadn't "given up" in the giving up sense, just gave up a bit I think when I was told my efforts had not helped my high cholesterol issues, etc....I was on such a high to get my results this ylast year... It was discouraging to hear "too high this and too low that". It effected me more than I thought it did....Maybe it had helped and my cholesterol would of been way worse..That I will never know & I have to think that way.... I need to get with it though as next testing isn't that far off..... Along with my Vitamin D levels now I'm on the 50,000 IU twice a week....

Got to the bank last night...As I turned the corner in the parking lot, it was remembered that the lobby closed @ 5:00 (it was 5:40) and I wasn't going to be able to get my cashier's check... I made a deposit, so at least it wasn't a total waste of gas money.....

Going on 7:30 a.m. and none of the kids are here yet....Meg needs to get outa bed.... I did get coffee made this morning & have my eggs on the griddle...Actually made french toast for the kids this morning too..... Hubby will be home tonight.... My domestic side won't be able to shine very long.. I'm just not a morning person...Waiting usually til the very last minute to get up.. He gets up @ 4:30 every day almost, so I give him his alone time in the house of the mornings..I'm the night owl (maybe that's why I don't like to get up in the morning..ya think)..

Best get my hair fixed before my day gets to rolling too fast.... Looking for this to be a great day...Feeling a bit better this morning....

Egg/Egg Whites, Healthy Nut E.M. w/ Honey, 1/2 Banana, Coffee

Yogurt & Honey w/ Ground Flax

Broiled Salmon, Lettuce, Tomato, Cucumber, 1/2 Avocado (drizzled with 1 tsp. EVOO & Red Wine Vinegar)


Hubby is on his way home.... 250 miles away... Will have to go back tomorrow, as he was picking up parts @ a Napa store before finishing his last machine something happened that he didn't realize until getting to the job destination... Someone STOLE the harness & tool belt off the back of his truck while he was in the store... He went to put it on & it wasn't there. He climbs 50' towers and can't not have his harness.... None, but here @ the shop..... He isn't happy!.... I have been cleaning / dusting to spruce the house up & going to bake a Devil's Food Cake to maybe put a smile on his face when he walks in the door...... Oh ya, and I have some baby food stain to shampoo .. The baby got sick again.... I just told someone that my life is so spontaneous....Ha Ha...LOL.....

I have felt great this afternoon about re-starting my journey...Has changed by mindset for sure... Ahhhhhhhhh....  Putting words into action can be so empowering.....


Oatmeal, Walnuts,Raisins, Skim Milk, Lil' Brown Sugar


Day #1 = Success in sticking with eating plan..... YES!!!!

Extra Exercise (Gazelle/Bike) = ZERO..

Cleaned, scrubbed, dusted, washed dishes, laundry, cared for and cleaned up after a sick baby, walked the long way around everywhere I could & welcoming hubby home  

End of Day #1


H2o = No less than 120 oz.



 Walk } Jan-66 miles/ Feb-17 miles

Bike } Jan- 25 miles/Feb- 2 miles


Progress as of today: 35 lbs lost so far, only 47 lbs to go!

Maria* on 02/18/2009:
Will check back to read your entry...hope you're having a good morning.

WI3 on 02/18/2009:
Just wanted to tell you that I've been reading your entries and I hope you are feeling much better today. I also used your testimony of strength and courage and took care of my financial issues before they became a nightmare. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. I have so much more peace now! xoxo

Maria* on 02/18/2009:
Thanks for the info...

I hope you have a good day...Looks like you've got a good plan going!!!

Glad you are feeling better!

selina on 02/18/2009:
Hey Thinny! I really like your entry - I need to set a goal, too. Oh, I forgot I still have Omaha's Feb challenge... will try to set a goal also. Have a good day!

mcwoo40 on 02/18/2009:
You sound very positive Thinny.I'm making a fresh start too.I bought the easter eggs early,and i have eaten one,I would'nt mind i don't like kit-kats,just pure greed.Take care me dear.

biscottibody59 on 02/18/2009:
I for one have no problem with your choices thinnie! You have to do what works for you foodwise. Have a good day!

mcwoo40 on 02/18/2009:
No Thinny, it was a chocolate hollow shell,with 2 chunky kit-kat bars BUT i did space them out during the day.I don't like nestle choc it's too sickly i prefer cadburys evertime but when you are in a bingy mood anything will do.I do like cad creme eggs,but i mus'nt be weak willed must i.There are 7 in the cupboard for the family and friends.My next food hurdle is saturday,birthday bash.I think i will take a ham salad,be prepared that's the motto.

biscottibody59 on 02/18/2009:
RYC: Routine can be a life-changer, especially with food--and I don't think you're going to keep eating anything if you don't look forward to it. And I know how badly you want this weight off--it's your journey!

Maria* on 02/18/2009:
Don't let what others say get to you!!! You don't depend on anyone's opinion for your confidence. You have done EXTRAORDINARILY WELL...look at where you are now compared to just beginning last year. Think back to then and think that when you first began at 237 how you would have felt if you knew that you would successfully lose AND HOLD OFF 35 pounds for a year how happy you would have been to have known this, Thin. Some people are not as mature as others and no I do NOT condone unkind remarks but at the same time, you can't let it destroy what you have achieved and what you are in the process of achieving. I'm sorry that you are hurt. Just leave it to the Lord. It has been my experience that the Lord doesn't like for others to say or do unkind things to His children. Much Love, Maria

Maria* on 02/18/2009:
Thin, I also gave advice on Jan. 14th, which was not heeded. Some people don't take advice...they have to learn from their mistakes. Good on the prayer!!! Love ya, Maria :-)

Maria* on 02/18/2009:
ps...there were 2 entries on Wed. Jan 14th...it was the first entry....

haha_love2laugh on 02/18/2009:
oh i know that!! but thanks for the concerns. And as for you today i think you are doing great!!!! and setting a realistic goal is the key, because you just get too upset if you set an unrealistic one and you dont meet it.

hopinforachange on 02/18/2009:
Hope you are having a great day!

loveray on 02/18/2009:
goals are great! i am so proud of your continued success and drive. xoxo, much love!

Maria* on 02/18/2009:
Okay...I read that now...I was going by something else I'd read (entry)....

Hope you're feeling much better now. Love, Maria

biscottibody59 on 02/18/2009:
I would gladly have handed those scones over:-) Such a treat--first time I made choc chip ones!

mama_nurse on 02/18/2009:
Hey you!!! Just wanted to stop by and say HI and your are in my thoughts (and thank you for your thoughts as well....) Have a wonderful night!

mama_nurse on 02/19/2009:
Hey again~ thanks for such a KIND comment.....really appreciate it!!! So glad to know that I have people on DD, such as yourself, who are rooting for my success!!! :) I'm rooting for yours as well and I'm so happy to hear that you feel refreshed and ready to tackle your goal!! I know you can do it!!! Have a great day!

biscottibody59 on 02/19/2009:
RYC: No biscotti--I bake alot, but that's not something I've tried!

Maria* on 02/19/2009:
It is a virus/cold that has been going around at church...lots of people have had a good dose of it. I hope you're having a FANTASTIC day today! (smile!)

starfish on 02/19/2009:
I can feel your enthusiasm! Wonderful! Good luck :-)

thinnside40 - Tuesday Feb 17, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 202.0

Kids & I had fun in town yesterday afternoon..... Came home to make spaghetti & ate too much of it..... Had eaten a order of fries on the way home... Breakfast had wore off by 4:30 p.m. and I hadn't taken any snacks with me (bad bad bad)... Kids got meals, so I made spaghetti my way (lotsa tomatoes), beings as I don't get to very often....... I need to get back to planning in the event of not being home & getting hungry....

Everyone is on the mend...I'm still having a lingering H/A and sinus issues....Dealing with each day as symptoms seem to be better/worse/better/worse/better....

Off to get boy's snack & get them dressed (all 3 came in jammies).... Need to get a fire going to get the chill off the house.... With hubby gone..My chores are added by coffee making (havent had any yet this morning still) & woodstove duty when Ben is in school........ I bought 12 totes for receipt/ bill organization and need to get started on that system sometime today...Toss in a couple loads of laundry, cleaning off the kitchen table (totes come in here) & re-making beds.

WGF English Muffin, Yogurt,Banana,Fresh Strawberries

LS V-8, Apple,Coffee (still in the micro )

8 Dark Kisses, Coffee (going to have it sometime today)

I have a whopper of a H/A, even across the bridge of my nose........... Stomach is "off" a bit (growly/rumbly).... I hope I'm NOT going to get the stomach yuck that everyone else has had..... I don't feel yucky, just "off"..... I NEED to go to the bank this evening soon as the boys are gone....I just realized I'm a cup away from being out of milk too.....  Have done 3 loads of wash, sorting receipts & the kitchen table is almost clear, so I can set it with a pretty tablecloth & some kind of centerpiece....Hubby called a bit ago to let me know that he isn't coming home tonight afterall... Oh ya, & I asked him about chicken food... Whoops, outa that too! I better make myself a list or I'll forget something for sure...Probably forget the list then...I'm so bad! Anyway, about time for the boy's quiet time, so I can eat & take some Ibuprofen, then make my bed.....

Left-Over Spaghetti (Barilla Plus Pasta), 1 sl. Bread..

Orange or Grapefruit Vanilla Wafers attacked me (idiotic)

Oatmeal, Skim Milk, Few Raisins & Walnuts



Progress as of today: 35 lbs lost so far, only 47 lbs to go!

Maria* on 02/17/2009:
Glad you are feeling better!

Your totes for bill/receipts sound real nice. Sounds like you've got a good plan going for today w getting a lot of things done.

Hope you're having a blessed day! (smile!)

Maria* on 02/17/2009:
THIS IS WEIRD!!!! But would you believe HUBBY just called me and told me to make sure I have some chicken soup as soon as possible!?????!!!! (WOWWWWWWW!!!!)

legcramps on 02/17/2009:
My goodness you have a lot to do today!!!! AND you're not even feeling good! Well, I hope you find time to relax and rest so that you can great tomorrow morning fresh and healthy! Good luck!

omahagrl on 02/17/2009:
Do you take any sinus medication or Ibuprofen. Ibuprofen does not help me at all. I recommend tylenol sinus as it gives me relief fast!

mama_nurse on 02/17/2009:

biscottibody59 on 02/17/2009:
Hope your evening is restful--looks like you need some peace and quiet!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/17/2009:

biscottibody59 on 02/17/2009:
You mentioned coffee earlier, if you didn't get it finally perhaps you've got a touch of a caffeine withdrawal headache. Just a thought!

sweetpea1977 on 02/17/2009:
I hope you get to feeling better. However, I will say that biscotti may be on to something. If I dont get caffeine one day, I tend to get a bad headache that night!

selina on 02/18/2009:
Awww... feel better soon... I love the picture above, cute! I find it very difficult to curb my appetite when I have a cold... you seem to be doing very well! Hugs to you!

thinnside40 - Monday Feb 16, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 202.0

Slept in... Felt so good to be able to not worry about the alarm... Paul took off @ 6:30 and is out of town for a couple days... None of the boys are here today & my kids kept quiet when they got up.... I wasn't far behind them anyway in getting up... I feel better..Feels like I just have a cold now.. Pressure has released & evidence of a sinus infection is about 10%-15%... Praying that Saturday was the worst day before getting better....

Going to do a load of wash, have the kids help do a few things..Then we are going town to get some organizer totes for my monthly receipts.... Told them we would stop by Blockbuster to maybe rent a couple movies if they weren't on PPV right now.....Ben wants to see Prince Caspian (Narnia) & Meg wants Space Chimps or Snow Buddies...

I didn't eat oatmeal last night like I thought I would... I had a few chips w/mozarella & a turkey sausage.... I didn't eat the apple, but did eat the orange... Today so far have had oatmeal w/banana & coffee...... Weather is so-so and taking a walk sounds inviting.... Shall see if I can fit it in when I get home...




Progress as of today: 35 lbs lost so far, only 47 lbs to go!

loveray on 02/16/2009:
thanks so much!! glad you got some sleep. i hope you are well- and had a great weekend. xoxo

omahagrl on 02/16/2009:
Glad your feeling better and got to sleep in. I commented on your facebook page and you are always welcome to view any of my photos as I have a lot of family and friend pictures that I love. Have a wonderful day and I recommend the Narnia flick as MJ and I really liked it!

haha_love2laugh on 02/16/2009:
Glad you got to sleep in, that lways helps me in everything that i do!

YepItsMe~ on 02/16/2009:
Glad that you are feeling better! Sounds like you had a relaxing yet busy day~did that make any sense??? LOL

Have a great night!

panda22 on 02/16/2009:
Hey Thin =) Glad you are feeling better today! The weather here was nicer today too, wish I could've gotten out for a walk myself! I need to get back in gear but I'm always too tired! Hope you have a nice movie night with your family and get to relax! Have a great night!

Maria* on 02/16/2009:
I like your idea about the hand-sewn 'x' at the top of the socks....even told Hubby about it. Will see if it 'flies' w the nursing home staff. Thanks a lot for this idea. Hope you're having a real nice evening.

selina on 02/17/2009:
Thank you so much for the truthful comment you left for me - you are wonderfully wise and I value your words... thank you, I needed it. You are so strong physically and mentally for keeping up with your busy schedule and for sharing your wisdom around... Have a wonderful day, my friend! And stay well!

Maria* on 02/17/2009:
Good morning to you! Hope you are having a nice day!!! :-)

thinnside40 - Sunday Feb 15, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 202.0

I am alive... Sinusitis is a bit better.... Ate an English Muffin on the way out the door to church...Ate a Tuna Sandwich & few Blue Corn Totilla Chips for dinner when I got home...Took (or tried to) take a nap...Now had 2 small slices of Cinnamon Bread, A Banana & an Orange...15 minutes til time to leave for church music practice... I'm filling in on the pianer.... Off to re-arrange the hair & apply a lil' lipstick... Hope your day has been a good one... Not sure what I'll eat when I get home...Probably oatmea. That is tasting good & fulfilling for supper for now at least....



Progress as of today: 35 lbs lost so far, only 47 lbs to go!

mama_nurse on 02/15/2009:
get better soon.....hugs:)

Donkey on 02/15/2009:
I HATE sinus infections. Get well soon!!!

biscottibody59 on 02/15/2009:
Yeah, hup-hup-hup is right--thank you!

Hope you get alot of rest and whip that thing!

selina on 02/16/2009:
I hope you are having a good day... Happy President's day to you!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/16/2009:
have fun with your rehearsal! :)

sorry about your inflamed sinuses! i never experienced that but from what donkey wrote i'm glad i haven't.

have a wonderful day. i bet you look great today.

Jen40 on 02/16/2009:
Oooh, I hope your sinuses clear up soon! The plane crash~ we live about 20-25 min. drive from the site, so no we were not involved, but I was listening to the radio news coverage right from the first reports, which was just so horribly sad and shocking. I ended up listening for most of the night, praying for those lost and their families. Everyone in the Buffalo area was mourning the next day~ you could just tell. Even going to the grocery store, it was just like everyone had it on their minds and hearts, these things just don't happen here. Know what I mean? Thanks for asking about me, that was sweet!

Maria* on 02/16/2009:
Glad you were feeling better last nite. Hope you're having a good day today. Bet your piano music sounds beautiful!

thinnside40 - Saturday Feb 14, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 202.0

Not going to write much... I know for sure I have a sinus infection.. Trying to decide whether or not to go to the Medi-Center.... Plan is to treat symptoms full bore today, rest & get plenty fluids.... Not better by tomorrow a.m... I will go to the Dr. (maybe).... Been reading online that sinus infections will usually clear up on their own within a few weeks, with just treating the symptoms...Just not sure how long I want to endure such pain & misery.... I'm stubborn, if you can't tell....

Off to make brunch ( too late for breakfast & too early for lunch).... Not sure what it's gunna be yet.... Hubby is feeling much better..... Ben is bragging about being the only one not getting sick... I told him to tread lightly!

Menu & Activities


Biscuits n Gravy (White & Chocolate gravy - 1 of each flavor)..Ben helped me make the biscuits... Had 1 piece of LS Bacon too....

Coffee, Pom/Cran Juice, tons of H2o.....

Going on 2:00 p.m. and we ate about an hour ago.... Hub & Ben are going for wood. Meg & I are folding laundry, then I'm taking a nap.....

Grapefruit & Apple




Progress as of today: 35 lbs lost so far, only 47 lbs to go!

mcwoo40 on 02/14/2009:
Hope you feel better soon Thin.They say sleep is the best medicine,not here though it's too noisy.Take care Julie.

biscottibody59 on 02/15/2009:
Hope you have a good day!

Maria* on 02/15/2009:
I'm so sorry that you are still not feeling well...it does sometimes take a while to get over sinusitis....Have you got a vaporizer going? I know that helps some. Something to keep moisture in the air. Take care and try to rest. Love, Maria

thinnside40 - Friday Feb 13, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 202.0

No school today... Ben took off to work with dad, Meg & the brothers are sleeping... As mom handed the baby to me this morning,  she said "he just got sick a bit", so after he wakes from sleeping we will see how it goes.. One toss of his formula or cereal and she will have to come get him.... I sit and hold the kids when they are sick,wash their dirty clothes etc..But, I have had my share this last 2 weeks & kids just sometimes need their mom.... Hubby wasn't feeling so great this morning either.... This is a NASTY bug!!!

Looking forward to having a nice weekend... Praying hubby just had a twinge this morning and not really coming down "sick"...Ben is with him at least...

Best be getting to eatg my breakfast and read the newspaper.. House is quiet... Watching the "TODAY" show and getting disguested (Drew Peterson & his 24 yr old fiance story)... Keeping tabs on the plane crash in N.Y. too... Lots to get done today....

Feeling better in the place I am in my journey and how I am handling things right now...... Working towards that prize of "155"....


Scrambled Egg, Tomato, 1/2 Avocado, Apple Cinnamon W.G. English Muffin, Coffee


 Paul called a bit ago.. They are headed home... Got about 50 miles into their 85 mile trip when he realized he just wasn't going to be able to make it all day working..... Baby has awakened and just had a bottle..Shall know how he is in about 30-60 minutes.... I bypassed the grocery store last night to be home earlier.. SHould of stopped to get some ginger-ale, etc.... I will do that A.S.A.P., as I fear Ben and/or I are next in line for the on knee/head down/eyes staring at a bowl of toilet water position... Oh man...... I don't like thinking about that.....Welp..on that note, gotta go..Baby didn't last even 20 minutes with the bottle... I'm CALLING MOM NOW!!!!!!!!!!!

Fiber One Bar (I love these things - they tide me over  well).... EMergen-C

2 hours later, mom showed up to get the boys.....I didn't eat any dinner and holding out for a good supper..... Hub got home & has been "iffy" all afternoon.... Meg & I headed to the store... I bought some Hansen's G-ale (not just flavored, but the real ginger formula).... I am hoping to stay away from getting this stomach bug, but if I don't I NEED gingerale.... I'm demanding when I get that kind of sick.... Turn into a whole nother person.... Anyway, figured I'd pamper myself for a change and go get my hair "evened out" while it was just Meg & I for a change.... The lady actually listened to me too... I love it!... No more length off, just thinned & evened out... Hubby loves it too... "HAPPY VALENTINES DAY" and a good smooch would of happened, but I told him I would take a rain-check.......FOr tomorrow I bought a bag of Dark Kisses, a card & then the kids got a lil' sweet treat....Planned on making biscuits n gravy tomorrow, but may wait til Sunday now..... Off to make supper & watch "Sammy the Way Out Seal"...

Few Blue Corn Baked Tortillas & Garlic Hummus (bought at the store and ate between the stores we shopped)

Grilled Chicken Salad (Like all the others before now ~ adding some crisped in the oven onions this time)..... 



Walk } Jan-66 miles/ Feb-17 miles

Bike } Jan- 25 miles/Feb- 2 miles

Progress as of today: 35 lbs lost so far, only 47 lbs to go!

mcwoo40 on 02/13/2009:
Where are you?.Hope you are ok,Julie

mcwoo40 on 02/13/2009:
There you are,are you getting all luvvy for tomorrow.No dipping strawberries into melted chocolate and feeding them to hubby.We don't normally celebrate cos all the other days of the year you tend to argue.I saw about that plane crash on the news,how awful.They are still looking into it at the moment are'nt they.Have a good day,Julie

glycrina on 02/13/2009:
I hate that Drew Peterson too. What happened to that poor girl that she feels she is has to settle down with THAT guy. Why is he still on TV???? Your breakfast sounds delicious!

mama_nurse on 02/13/2009:
Hope you & your family have a WONDERFUL weekend!!

mama_nurse on 02/13/2009:
Hope your hubby feels better soon....enjoy a quiet weekend! I hope I can make it through my shift....I'm not feeling well AT ALL....wish I could stay home, but unfortunately, it's not an option.

Maria* on 02/13/2009:
Hope you all feel better...try to get some rest.

biscottibody59 on 02/13/2009:
RYC: I hope your family's and your sick spell is short!

On the other subject, I'm speechless--I'm too old for DDs some days! Thirteen and 267 is just not anywhere in my points of reference in this life--except for mine at 13!

To your point, to tell a 30-40-50 year old woman to go "do whatever it takes" would be negligent. If my CHILD were told that . . . well, I'd be in jail right now for manslaughter I'm afraid!

And, so many here have children--it must really be creepy to think your son or daughter would be consulting total strangers (whether on the internet or the street corner) concerning health and well-being!

Okay. I'm done!

Hope you all get to feeling better soon!

YepItsMe~ on 02/13/2009:
I am disgusted by Drew Peterson too~sick man who needs to be in prison...

Anyway, I hope that you and your family have a relaxing weekend..crossing fingers that hubby just had a little bug and not a big one..

Have a great night!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/13/2009:
...ugh! 2700 was my total today. (so now i'm one step back from my goal.)

i hope your hubby feels better.

Maria* on 02/13/2009:
I LOVE oven baked onions!!! Tell ya what else is good...had this yesterday for supper...oven baked onions/oven baked 'french fries'/oven baked okra pieces (all mixed together)....YUMMMMMMM!!!!! The onions taste so sweet and add a lot of flavor!!!

Maria* on 02/13/2009:
Nite-nite. Beddy bye time over here...10:45pm. Hope y'all feel better over there.

selina on 02/14/2009:
hi Thin! Hope you and your family are feeling better. We have had flu shots so none of us got sick, although many in my daughter's class got really sick and had to stay home for several days. I think she was the only one who didn't miss one single day of school, knock on wood! the flu shots this year were not exactly shots, they were inhalers, up the nose... easy and no pain... No, your entries are never "downers". Stay well my friend!

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