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~Moody~ - Tuesday Jul 12, 2011
(Dedication, determination and consistency)
Weight: 191.0

Hello Ladies~

I don't like that I haven't been able to post as much as I would like to, but I've been very busy..working massive amounts of overtime. I was off this weekend, but I didn't do so great..phhht. I have discovered that eating well and exercising go hand in hand for me. The days that I workout, I eat better. I worked out last week, Monday thru Friday and made good choices everyday. Saturday, Sunday and Monday, no workout, and crappy food choices. Sigh. 3 steps forward, 2 steps back..But the imporant thing is, I DO keep moving forward.

I don't really have much to report. This weekend was a very lazy one..it was too hot to do anything outside. I took my dogs to a fenced in soccer field where they can run off leash, and it was even too hot for them. They wilted within 20 minutes and wanted to leave. In the evenings I was over a friends house, hanging outside on the porch while the dogs played, but the stupid mosquitoes wouldn't leave me alone and I got eaten up..They're always bad, but seems like when it's really humid, they're ESPECIALLY bad. The humidity has been gross..Go outside and feel like I can drink the air kind of days/evenings. There's not even much relief in the mornings..yesterday it was in the 90s but the heat index was 106*..and today is 110* with the heat index. M I S E R A B L E

Major storm early in the evening last night. It got dark very quickly and started thundering/lightening and pouring rain. Lightening hit a transformer right outside my house and I lost power for the entire evening. Luckily I have a friend who lives a mile down the road, so the boys and I loaded up in the car and went over there. I was actually kinda scared running to my car because lightening was bolting thru the sky..I could see sky to ground bolts going off all over the sky..I normally don't mind lightening storms, but this was kinda freaky...anyway, when I took the boys (dogs) back home at 10:00pm last night, the power was still out...When I got home from work this morning, the power was back on thankfully...

Ok, so..todays workout:

60 minutes Cardio Intervals on the treadmill..did two 30 minute ones back to back..then I did a 30 minute Weight Loss Interval training as well. Total 90 minutes. Felt GREAT!

Foods: potato/gravy/corn bowl..1 spoonful of frozen brownie mix (i know i know)

I plan on eating mostly fruits and Slimfast for the next 2 weeks. I mentioned recently that I have a trip to Oregon planned for the first week of August and so I really want to buckle down and work hard these next 20 days..

Ok..gonna go check up on you guys..wishing everyone a beautiful day!!

Progress as of today: 26 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

Tbell1389 on 07/12/2011:
Moody thanks for the idea!! Headed to the library now to see if I can find that one too! :)

just42day on 07/12/2011:
Sorry about the mosquitos and humidity. Two of my least favorite things. Great job w/your exercise! :)

Umpqua on 07/12/2011:
Thanks for your nice comment :) Are you watching the new season of True Blood? I seem to recall you're a fan. I am loving it, although it's such a change from the books. I'm such a geek ;P Have a good one!

sweetpea1977 on 07/12/2011:
Great job on the exercise!!

I find I eat better when I workout regularly too. Lets keep it up, shall we?

Maria7 on 07/12/2011:
Hello over there. Hope you are having a good evening. Yep, it's been warm over here, too, but then I say, it IS July...typical for the season! :-D

V on 07/12/2011:
Welcome back!!! How is Jager??? Girl as i said to Moogy we are in the seventh circle of hell here so i feel your pain :(

shaunnac on 07/12/2011:
Glad your power is back on! Your completely right, when I was setting a rigrous schedule for exercise my food choices were better. Live, Learn and Apply right? have a great night

thinkpositive on 07/13/2011:
Interesting observation about eating & exercise going hand in hand. It must be hard to even function at those temperatures. Hope it cools off for you.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/14/2011:
have a good day today. it's cooled down a bit over here, hopefully it's cooled down by you, too!

h82bfat on 07/14/2011:
Sounds like a good workout plan. I'm struggling a little with the heat too. When I go outside & just stand still, my head drips like a leaky faucett. It's crazy. I think I'm gonna have to resort to buying some sweatbands.... the horror of it! ;c)

biscottibody59 on 07/16/2011:
Hope you have a good weekend! Take it easy in the heat!

~WI~ on 09/08/2011:
Hey girl :)

~Moody~ - Thursday Jul 07, 2011
(Dedication, determination and consistency)
Weight: 191.0

Good grief I am having more trouble posting..GRRR. Yesterday I typed 2 entries..the first one my computer froze and I had to reboot..therefore losing my post...the second time, my dog Jager hit a button with his paw and deleted my post..so yeh, I was a bit frustrated and said forget it..I'll try today..And I just had difficulty getting THIS post started..Thought I was gonna have to forget it again today because I do NOT have patience for this kinda stuff!

Been doing good with working out and eating healthy this week. I am back in control! I've worked out everyday this week..Ran two days..Yesterday I did a Dvd that I have only tried once before..a year ago. When I tried it last year it kicked my ass in a big way so I stuck it in the drawer and forgot about it. However, yesterday I decided to dig it out, dust it off and give it another try..And I am happy to report that I was able to get thru it MUCH easier than a year ago! MUCH MUCH easier! Which speaks volumes to me in regards to how much better shape I am in from last year. In fact, I believe I'm in the best shape, speaking physically FIT, than I've been in years. I'm not the thinnest I've been..because I've been 40lbs lighter..but that was 15-20 years ago..And yes, I was in excellent shape from a physical fitness standpoint..But that was a long time ago. So it feels good, knowing I am in the best fitness shape I've been in many many years. Do I want to lose weight? Yes..And I will. But at my age, 44, being healthy is more important to me. So yeh, it feels great, putting that Dvd in and getting thru it...It was a challenge..I was sweating like a pig and couldn't do EVERY move..but I did 95% of it..I am sore today, which is good. It's not like last year when I attempted this workout and it was so hard for me that I literally thought I was going to puke when I finished. And, I couldn't move normally for an entire week!! Today, after doing it yesterday, like I said, I am sore..but it's that good sore..that feeling of working muscles I haven't in a long time..But I'm not in PAIN. It's my plan to do this DVD every other day..It's Jackie Warner btw...from Bravos Workout..some of you may have seen her show. She is hardcore...and I love it! So yeh, going to alternate the DVD with the treadmill, every other day. Today was the treadmill, so tomorrow is JW DVD. It's 40 minutes btw..and it works every group of muscles in the body..Excellent workout!

Today I got home from work at 7:30 this morning..sipped some coffee and watched tv..Then hopped on the treadmill for an hour and 12 minutes..Great workout!

I haven't eaten yet today..it's 3:30pm..so I need to get something in me, but I'm not hungry...Sipping water tho.

Ok Today:

Workout: 30 minute Weight Loss Interval Training on treadmill

                30 minute Cardio Interval Training on treadmill

                   1 Mile Jog

Off to check up on you beauties, then I'm heading to work for a 14 hour shift..yipee!

Wishing each of you a successful day!!

Progress as of today: 26 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

V on 07/07/2011:
I love Jackie Warner!!! BTW I have a little snippet from my fire class on the forum page, photo bucket.click view all sub albums and scroll down.. Great job with the workouts girly!! And maybe Jager had something he wanted to add to the post...LOL Have a good one :)

just42day on 07/07/2011:
Gosh, you're doing wonderfully with all your exercise! You must have a great sense of accomplishment knowing you can do some exercises easier than you could a year ago. Good for you! 1 lb w/in goal? Excellent! Congrats, congrats! Thanks for your understanding note. Depression stinks. I'm doing sooooo much better. I am soooo glad I saw my doctor re: it. RX has made a huge difference. Therapist also made a big difference and was wonderfully helpful - particularly in explaining how depression really changes the chemicals in the body and that sometimes an RX is needed to help get everything rebalanced metabolically. Once that happened, I felt capable of making other changes to help myself crawl out of the hole. Really feel like the worst is behind me. Onward and upward!

sweetpea1977 on 07/07/2011:
Great job with the dvd!!! :)

Yes, the elliptical is tough, especially when you have to pedal backwards!!!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/07/2011:
so you are feeling good about yourself and your fitness! that's GREAT! :=) working a 14 hour shift must be tough, i had a tough time working 11.5 hours today. it seemed like FOREVER. i hope you get more breaks than i did - i just got a 1/2 hour lunch! whew. glad tomorrow's friday. happy early friday to you!

Runforfun on 07/07/2011:
I'm majoring in Journalism.. but I don't really even know if that's what I want to do. So I don't know if its worth it to take more french classes. I took two in highschool but forgot everything so I have to take more. I'm taking french again cause I took it in Highschool.

thinkpositive on 07/07/2011:
A 14 hr shift sounds brutal, but maybe you are used to it. Your exercise is fabulous!

shaunnac on 07/07/2011:
Congrats!!!Yes I did actually do peanut butter and a little spread of chocolate on toasted bread...it was good. eh I haven't eatten anything since then and I am sitting here feeling like I NEED to eat just don't want to.

shaunnac on 07/07/2011:
oh and I was clincally diagnosed for depression in 2008. been off meds for awhile but getting into that all I want to do is hide in bed feeling that I think I might have to go back on =( hate meds.

Umpqua on 07/08/2011:
I think the focus on health is the right way to go, it take the pressure off and if you're practicing healthy habits the weight is going to come off anyhow. I hope you have a great weekend!

biscottibody59 on 07/08/2011:
Sounds good--keep up the good work!

mcwoo40 on 07/08/2011:
Glad your posting again,have a great weekend :)

moogy on 07/10/2011:
Sounds like everything is going great except for the posting!!!! LOL. Lovely to come back and see that you are posting:)

~Moody~ - Tuesday Jul 05, 2011
(Dedication, determination and consistency)
Weight: 191.0

Hola Ladies~

I was lying low for a few weeks. I was really sick and fell off the wagon. I tend to comfort myself with food and lets just say I did a lot of comforting for a few weeks. Phht. Plus, due to being sick, I didn't exercise..double Phht. I started exercising again last week..Doing interval training on the treadmill, followed by a mile run. Then one day I decided to try straight running again and see how my shins held up. I'm happy to report that I have been able to handle 3 mile runs fairly easily!! No shin problems, yay! So yeh, been running 3 miles a day for the past week. Today I decided to try something different (i don't want to do the same routine for too long, because the body is a very efficient machine and adapts quickly to workouts..so it's good to "shock" the body by switching up your routine..anyway)..Today I thought I would try a new interval workout on the treadmill. I decided to attempt an Endurance Interval. I've never tried this before. I remember when the Weight Loss Intervals were a huge challenge to me, now they seem almost too easy. I bumped it up to Cardio Intervals (when I first attempted this, I could only do like 8 minutes before needing to stop)...Now I can fly through those! I break a sweat, don't get me wrong, but I can get through one, sometimes 2, back to back. So today, for giggles and chits I decided to bump it up to the Endurance Interval training. And lemme tell ya, it kicked my butt. I only lasted 11 minutes. LOL. It was extremely intense (running at 5.5 mph on a 7% incline at one point) and I am NOT there yet, BUT who knows, maybe one day I will be in such great shape that I will look at the Endurance Intervals the way I now look at the Weight Loss and Cardio Intervals. I was surprised I lasted 11 minutes to be honest..LOL.

I am rededicated to eating healthy. It's very difficult, after indulging in "bad" foods to get back in the habit of eating healthy. I want cookies and hamburgers. LOL..but no, I am eating fruits and Slimfast. I know the first few days of getting back into routine are the most difficult. Almost like going thru a detox and getting past the cravings. I know I will feel better after a couple days of being back in control, then it will get easier.

I have a trip coming up in August. Flying out to Oregon to visit family and friends, so I want to do REAL well these next several weeks..exercise and restriction is my mantra. Control. I am down 26lbs since I visited in December and would like to add another 5 or 10 lbs to that number and really surprise everyone!

Exercise today: 11 minutes Endurance Interval

                           30 minutes Cardio Interval

                           1 mile run

Foods so far:  Blueberries for breakfast~Slimfast for lunch~Watermelon for snack...

Going to catch up on you lovely ladies, Wishing you all a wonderful evening!

Progress as of today: 26 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

FitAmbitions on 07/05/2011:
Wow love reading about your workout progress and good for you bumoing it up to the next notch! next thing we'll be cheering you on as you run a marathon!

Maria7 on 07/05/2011:
26 since December is OUTSTANDING!!!! :-D

sweetpea1977 on 07/05/2011:
Yay! You're back!!

I love how the once hard treadmill workouts became too easy. I recently experienced this with my 1 hour long interval workout on the elliptical. I have now started alternating between forward and backward pedaling. Much more challenging! Once that becomes too easy, my next mission is that evil Stairmaster!!

mysterywoman100 on 07/05/2011:
welcome back and congrats on your workouts and weight loss

Em17 on 07/05/2011:
Have a fantastic day =)

Umpqua on 07/06/2011:
Sickness really throws me off track too. Good to see you back and I think you are gonna Wow Em when you go back to Oregon for your visit!

hollybelle on 07/06/2011:
You mean join th eFB DD group? You should - see KathyBlue's diary posts for instructions on how.....we'd love to have you. I don't usually have time for both so I keep up here. But I check in and read a lot n the FB group!

V on 07/06/2011:
Welcome back!!! I am so happy to see that you are right back at it!! Woohoo!!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/06/2011:
well, it's best to know you are back, doing your thing again. we must always get right back on the wagon. :-D when you do, you'll be thankful and happier...

~Moody~ - Thursday Jun 09, 2011
(Dedication, determination and consistency)
Weight: 191.0

Hihi ladies~keeping this kinda short..been a busy day..I am applying for Nursing School and today was spent running around to a couple colleges I have attended, requesting transcripts. Always a fun thing. I filled out my application and will put it in the mail tomorrow, and then the waiting game begins. The deadline is July 1st, so I will not be hearing anything until the end of July or first part of August..It's a very competive program, based largely on a point system. I don't know what I am competing against out there...All I can do is try. I just graduated in December with my BA in Psychology, and am hoping to go to nursing school for 2 years, then marry the two degrees and be a Psychiatric Nurse. That would be wonderful...But first things first, I need to be accepted into this program...Been praying hard on this one...

I am exhausted, can barely keep my eyes open. I am sneaking on the computer at work right now..I am doing a 14 hour shift tonight and a 16 hour shift tomorrow. My weekend beach plans for Chesapeake Bay are on hold for now..T, the guy I was going to go there with, contacted me today to tell me his step son (he's divorced, but this was his step son for many years, and they still had a close relationship) OD'd yesterday and is dead, at the age of 36. So sad...so needless to say, he will be with family this weekend during this awful time..and our beach plans are on hold..Which is fine with me because like I mentioned yesterday, this is my sons last weekend at home before moving across country to Oregon on Tuesday...So I will be hanging at home this weekend..My son will probably be out with friends most of the time, but I feel better knowing I was home for him...

Ok..no workout today as I spent the majority of my time riding in the car going to 2 different colleges to get transcripts...and they are both in opposite directions..figures. Logged over 100 miles driving today..yipee...So yeh, no workout..I went and tanned, went home and began filling out my application..then had to come to work...I'm looking forward to the weekend...

Ok, gonna go and catch up on you amazing ladies~Stay strong beauties!!

4meandmegan on 06/09/2011:
Good luck on nursing school, It's a great thing to help someone.Have a great day and good luck to you.

V on 06/09/2011:
I am so sorry about your friend's loss :( I will keep my fingers crossed that you get in your school of choice :) I am sure you will!!!have a good evening and PLEASE don't get busted at work on the computer...LOL

Em17 on 06/09/2011:
Good luck on the nursing. When I graduate hs next year I am going to college to be a Neonatal Nurse =)

KathyBlue on 06/10/2011:
Good luck on nursing school! Now look who's talking, 14 hour shifts and 16 hour shifts... OMG. That's a workout indeed. I always work on weekends anyway. And I don't have a car, nor driving license, hehe...

Umpqua on 06/10/2011:
Good luck with the program, it sounds like a wonderful blend of your degrees. I'm very sorry for your friend's loss, but it's good you'll get to be home for your son this weekend. I don't get back to Oregon too often these days since it's a long 3-plane journey with the boys. We've only brought them once. I loved living out there briefly, it was so gorgeous! We camped outside Salem....was it Silver Falls? It was a gorgeous state park. Heck, all the state parks out there are so beautiful. I hope we'll be able to take the boys for some real hiking and skiing out there when they get older. We also play disc golf (or used to before the boys came along) and Oregon is full of courses! Have a good one!

selina on 06/10/2011:
Your future professional plans are TERRIFIC! Keep the fire on!

So sorry to hear about your BF's loss, how terrible to lose someone so young!

Umpqua on 06/10/2011:
The boys are 3 and 4 1/2 now, such fun ages. I wish I could freeze them here ;)

mcwoo40 on 06/10/2011:
Hiya Moody,well your weekend away was'nt meant to be.That's awful news and so young too.Jeeze there long shifts,and i think i am badly done too.I worked twelve hour shifts before the girls came along,then i could'nt relax as i was on call(worked with the elderly)Anyway have a good weekend with your son,and don't work too hard :)

moogy on 06/10/2011:
I do hope that you get accepted for a course that you want. That would be wonderful. It is lovely that you can spend your son's last weekend at home, at least he may see you as he comes and goes. You never know he may actually spend a few hours with you!!! Exercises for driving hold your tummy muscles in for the count of 30 and then let go - repeat 12 times, squeeze your bum cheekes together for the count of ten and repeat 12 times. At least you get some type of exercise in and help with a tight tum and bum:)

shaunnac on 06/11/2011:
hugs. I am sorry ur plans got put on hold because of such a reason. best wishes and positive vibes with the application. do u have a back up choice just in case? have a great day

legcramps on 06/13/2011:
Whew! Hope you had a good weekend even if you didn't make it to the beach. Sorry to hear about T's step-son, that's horrible news and just so sad.

P.S. "A" is not a bf, nor am I dating him. It's one of those things where you know something COULD happen, but it just isn't happening. LOL, I probly make no sense, but whatever!

I hope you have a good day today :)

~Moody~ - Wednesday Jun 08, 2011
(Dedication, determination and consistency)
Weight: 191.0

Once again I have to say thank you ladies for all your words of kindness, support and encouragement. Means more to me than I can say~thank you.

I just finished a workout~showered and am sitting here with a wet head, sipping water. It's gonna be a hot one today in WV and so I am gonna let my hair dry naturally~don't feel like blowing it dry..and once I get out in the heat/humidity it wouldn't make a difference anyway..lol I have yet to eat...don't really have an appetite. Yesterday all I had was a leftover BLT from a couple days ago..I know my lack of appetite stems from being depressed..and it will pass. So not going to worry about it right now~when I'm hungry, I'll eat.

I was invited to the MD for the weekend. A guy I used to date..well, not really even date..a mutual friend introduced us..but he lives in Washington DC and I live in WV. We spoke on the phone and online for several months, then last November I went to DC and spent a few days with him. NOTHING happened between us, we didn't even sleep in the same bed..he was a complete gentleman. He's quite a bit older than I am, so I think that is part of why he was such a gentleman..anyway..at the end of our long weekend last November we continued talking, but decided to simply take the "friends" route. And that's what we've done..we've continued talking these last 7 months and I adore him, as a FRIEND. Anyway, I spoke with him this morning and he invited me to his Maryland house..He has a gorgeous beach house, right on the Chesapeake Bay (i think..that's in MD isn't it?) So yeh, am considering driving up there Friday and coming home Sunday..we'll see. I am not sure I will tho because this is my sons last weekend home before leaving for Oregon on Tuesday. I don't think my son would care at all if I went..he'll be spending time with his friends here..but as a Mom, I would feel guilty. So, I doubt I will go~I don't know..we'll see..I just know a weekend on the beach, sipping wine by a bon fire with good company sounds just like what the Doctor ordered. I'll talk to my son about it and see how he feels~

Trying to keep my mind occupied~trying to stay positive~I keep telling myself that even if he wanted to get back together with me I wouldn't. I don't want a man that can't make up his mind if he wants to be with me or not..He admitted Saturday to being f*cked up...that he has done this in the past..that once he has something, he's not sure if he wants it..that kind of thing...Like the whole committment thing scares him..he said it suddenly hit him how "real" this was with me and it kinda freaked him out..Whatever. Like I said, I don't want a man that can't decide if he wants to be with me. There is no security, no stability in that..As much as it hurts, as badly as my heart is broken (and it is), he can kiss my ass. I'm done. Now having said that, it doesn't mean I don't still feel sad over things and have to basically force myself to keep going...but yeh, he can seriously kiss my ass. End of chapter, put a period at the end of it and move on.

I'm going to work on ME. Focus on making me the best Moody I can be~Inside and out...

Todays workout: 1 Weight loss interval workout, 1 Cardio interval workout (on the treadmill) ..then I ran a quick mile..oh, and a 3 minute wall sit~Total: Just over 4 miles and over 600 cals burned~

Wishing you all a wonderful day~Sending love from hot and humid WV~=)

Progress as of today: 26 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

liza36 on 06/08/2011:
This is a great time to focus on YOU, as you mention. You deserve someone who values you and wants to be with you, so good for you for not taking him back. Have a great day!

hollybelle on 06/08/2011:
Put your thumb on your forehead and point your index finger toward the sky and say - "so long LOSER!". You are headed for better things. He is just a small piece of your history. A line the the story in the book of Moody!

getmebackto150 on 06/08/2011:
I love your idea to focus on you... Sounds like a great plan!!! Hope you have a great day!!

Umpqua on 06/08/2011:
The MD trip sounds interesting, do whatever makes you happy. This should be about YOU!

Supercheese on 06/08/2011:
cheasapeake bay is so pretty!!! glady ou have the right mind set and youll get through everything headstrong! promise! :)

shaunnac on 06/09/2011:
hugs. u r an amazing woman. sending much love from fl lol get u on the heat & humity

~Moody~ - Tuesday Jun 07, 2011
(Dedication, determination and consistency)
Weight: 191.0

Hello ladies~Hope everyone is having a great day~I am feeling kinda crappy..R and I are OVER. It's the real deal this time; not by my choice, but now that it's over, I'm Done. Finished. Not sure what happened..everything has been wonderful, really really wonderful...we spent Friday day/night together, had the most amazing time..then Saturday; it's over. Once again, the rug has been pulled out from under me and I am lying there thinking what the hell just happened? I hate that I let him back in my heart, only to have him break it again. Oh well, life goes on..and there's nothing I can do..this is something that only time will help..I keep praying for strength, peace and healing..

Another thing that has me blue, is my son is moving to Oregon on Tuesday. We are originally from there, but moved to WV 7 years ago..He is moving back. Sigh..So I will be alone. I just feel like so much is changing in my life and I am fighting anxiety all the stinking time. That feeling of being worried..unsure of my future..that scared somewhat panicked feeling..I know I will be ok..I really do. This too shall pass~

Sorry for the downer entry...one a good note, I am down 4 more pounds..one pound from my mini-goal. I also was able to get into and wear a pair of Levis that I had outgrown..pulled them out of my closet Friday and slid them right up..a tiny bit tight, but not bad..

I'm not up to working out today~I am drained..I have to go to work at 5:00pm until 7:00am~14 hour shift.

Looked into going back to school today~I graduated in December with my BA..but am thinking of going for another 2 years to get certified in Drug Counseling...Something to think about...

Hope you all have a beautiful day~

Progress as of today: 26 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 06/07/2011:
I was a prisoner to anxiety and fear for so many years! These bible verses (reading them multiple times a day - I keep them on my desk taped to the bottom of my monitor) helped me get over that anxious feeling that always seemed to be lurking in my mind. I hope you will be comforted by them as well.

For God gave us a spirit not of fear (anxiety/panic/doubt), but of power, and love, and self-control 2 Timothy 1:7

He will cover you with His pinions (protective feathers), and under His wings you will find refuge. His faithfulness is a shield and buckler (sword). Psalms 91:4

Submit yourself, therefore, to God, resist the devil and he will flee from you. James 4:7 (this one is special because if God didn't give us a spirit of fear like 2 Timothy 1:7 says - who did? - therefore, can resist him and he will flee - along with that spirit of fear.)

God bless you Moody!

KathyBlue on 06/07/2011:
I hope that situation with R will be resolved, it doesn't sound definite to me, I hope it's not! Why finish if everything's been wonderful? I hope you solve it for the best. Sorry about your son. My mother felt the same when I left for Portugal. But now she's proud of me, and Internet is the 8th wonder of the world - we speak each and every day online! I guess we spoke less during all those years living together, LOL!

moogy on 06/07/2011:
Men, whether our or somebody else's, they always seem to be put here to cause pain and test our abilities. Fortunately woman have been blessed with abilities of strength, understanding, empathy, spirituality and competance that men do not have. I hope that you can call upon your strengths during this particularly difficult time in your life and learn what a strong and capable woman you are. We all get tested in the furnace Moody, it makes us like gold:) Good job on the weigh loss, a little silver lining amongst the pain, hold onto the positive and let go of the negative. You are right "This too shall pass", good or bad, the only constant is change. Hugs for you today and the coming weeks:)

V on 06/07/2011:
I am so sorry girl :( I know how much you loved him and it didn't take long for him to show his true colors again :( Shame on him and I hope you can gather the strength to move on soon, you are far too good and beautiful for him... Love you girl please stay strong...As far as your son goes this is onna be tough for both of you but maybe it is time for both of you to spread your wings, ya know...You know I have your back so if you ever need to talk...

thinkpositive on 06/08/2011:
Tough day & situations but you sound strong, with an inner strength . Sorry to hear that your son is moving and that your relaionship isn't working. Weight loss-4 lbs. wow & the Levis fitting-outstanding.

Umpqua on 06/08/2011:
So sorry things didn't work out with your relationship. And it has to be really difficult to watch your son move. Whereabouts in Oregon? I think I've told you I used to live in Grants Pass and my parents have been out there for almost 20 years. Hang in there and great job on your loss!

selina on 06/08/2011:
So sorry to hear about the sadness in your life... going back to school sounds like a very good thing!

liza36 on 06/08/2011:
I'm sorry you are going thru this right now. Hang in there! Congrats on being down another 4 pounds - that's awesome.

legcramps on 06/08/2011:
Ah, that sucks, sucks, and sucks some more! I hope you realize that you're deserving of a much more healthy relationship, and I hope someday you find it. I'm looking for that too, and I won't settle for anything less than an equal partner. Your weight loss is great; congrats!

~Moody~ - Tuesday May 31, 2011
(Dedication, determination and consistency)
Weight: 195.0

Hola Ladies! Thanks so much for the sweet comments regarding my picture~and concern/advice about my passing out~you guys know how to make a girl feel good

I have had pretty good day. Started it with coffee as usual...then I loaded my dogs in the car and took them to a friends house to play, but it was so stinking hot and humid already (at 10:00am) that they didn't want to play, and I couldn't handle sitting outside anyway. There was no breeze whatsoever..high temps today of 96*..yipee. I didn't stay too long at her house..Came back home, dropped off the dogs, then headed to Walmart. I spent nearly 300 bucks there today..goodgrief. Most of it was on nonfood items..I bought some champagne and wine..went to check out and the checkout girl asked for my ID. I said "seriously?"..she said "yep"...sigh. I didn't bring it in with me. I told her I was almost 45 years old..she didn't care..So yeh, had her set my alcohol aside, took my other stuff to the car, grabbed my ID, and went back inside to show her. I was just a tad annoyed..owell~

Came home, unloaded everything..ate around 6 potato wedgies..(bad bad Moody)..I had grabbed some potato wedgies and popcorn chicken from the Walmart deli for my son..and I hadn't eaten yet..big mistake. I couldn't resist the wedgies. But, I have to look at it from a positive point, in that I stopped at 6 of them..I could have EASILY sat down with a plate ful and a side of ranch dressing and enjoyed myself. But I resisted. Instead I hopped on the treadmill and worked out, showered, then came to work.

Oh! A good thing happened last night! I got to work and one of the girls I work with said "are you losing weight?" Woohoo!! She is the first person to mention it!! I'm down 22lbs and nobody has said a thing. My best friend sees me all the time, so I don't think she notices...but this girl I work with, I haven't seen for a couple of weeks..She said she could really see it in my tummy area..Yay!! She asked what I was doing..I told her walking and watching what I eat. She said "you can really lose your tummy like that from walking?"..(she wants to lose in her tummy area)..I said "yeh you can..it just takes consistency.." I've been at this for eh, hmmm, not sure how long I've been doing this consistently, but it IS finally paying off. Dare I say it, my legs are becoming more shapely?? Oh! Annnnnd, I forgot to mention this, but before I went to the beach a couple weeks ago, I was trying on a pair of Levis I have tucked away in the closet..I had outgrown them quite awhile ago, but refused to get rid of them. Every now and then I have pulled them out just for giggles and chits, to see how they fit. They've always been way too small..with a 3-4 inch gap btw the button and the hole...But, like I said, before I went to the beach, I decided to try them on..and, I was able to button them!! hahaha! They were still way too tight and I wouldn't be able to breath in them, BUT, I was able to button them!!! So yeh, definite progress is being made...Slow n steady wins the race!

Workout Today: I did 2 Weight Loss Interval trainings on the treadmill, then ran a mile.  2 minute wall sit. Total: Over 4 miles, just over 600 calories burned.

Foods so far: 6 potatoe wedgies. (i have watermelon, grapes and Slimfast here at work)....That'll be my dinner later...

Ok, I gotta get some stuff done here at work..but will catch up on you guys..

Hope you all have a beautiful evening!!!!

Progress as of today: 22 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 05/31/2011:
You are just cruising along! Yay on getting carded, what a boost and no way do you look your age. I never would have guessed that! I have to say, I have gotten carded more often since losing weight and getting a haircut. For me I suspect it's a combo of both things, but dropping the weight definitely seems to turn the clock back, haha. Yay for fitting into your Levis!

V on 05/31/2011:
Feels great when your fruits of labor start to show :) You rock!! Have a wonderful evening :)

Supercheese on 05/31/2011:
to your picturaroooo. you are sooooooo beautiful!!! i wish i had red hair!!! ah -sigh-

thinkpositive on 06/01/2011:
Nice post- I enjoyed reading it. You are right about the 6 potato wedges- good job stopping at 6 so no harm done. Plus you burned off 600 calories on the treadmill. And congratulations on fitting into the levis. I have a pair of pants that I can zip into but couldn't wear out.I'm in the slow & steady club as well!

legcramps on 06/03/2011:
I would love to get carded!!!! LOL, just means you are looking good, girl!

~Moody~ - Monday May 30, 2011
(Dedication, determination and consistency)
Weight: 195.0

Monday~woohoo! I hope you all had a great weekend! Mine was busy as usual, but I did manage some Moody time as well~I cleaned house big time Saturday, even mopped..heh. Yesterday I did more cleaning (mostly my bedroom) and laid outside soaking up some beautiful sun. It was gorgeous yesterday, and today as well. I got up this morning, had my coffee, eased into the day..worked out, showered then went outside to soak up more sun. It was pretty hot tho..around 90. My hair was wet from the shower so that helped keep me cool. I relaxed out there for about an hour, came inside and passed out on the floor. Literally. I walked through the front door..my dogs went out..I was calling them to come inside..and I felt it happening..that light-headed feeling.  I was calling my dogs, they finally came in, I swung the door shut, started walking towards my couch..but never made it.  I went down right in the middle of the living room~totally passed out.  I was only out a few minutes..came to..laid there for a few minutes..my dogs weren't around..I saw that I actually hadn't shut the door, and they were outside. Anyway, I know what happened..it's happened before, just not in a very long time. I am borderline hypoglycemic. So yeh, with my no eating, then working out, then going out in the hot sun...equals one passed out Moody. If my dogs would've come in when I called them, and I could've made it to my couch to lie down, I wouldn't have passed out...owell..I feel a little weak now, and tired...So am thinking a nap is in order.

I was a total pig on Friday~I need to confess..I ate 14 cookies. Major binge. Who eats 14 cookies? It was over a 7 hour period or so, but still, c'mon..14 cookies??? Big ones too, not your little store packaged ones. but those big bakery ones. Ugh.  Chocolate chip ones, chocolate chocolate chip, MnM cookies, and oatmeal raisin. Sigh~oink oink. Saturday and Sunday I made better choices..no formal workout tho, but like I mentioned earlier, I cleaned house...deep clean..so I am thinking that counts for something. 

Got on the scale and was thankful for no gain..No loss, but no gain either...which after Friday, I was happy to see and grateful for.

Todays workout..2 Weight loss Interval workouts and I power walked for 1 mile at an incline. Total calories burned: just over 600. I don't think I want to do 4 or 5 interval trainings everyday like I had been. My feet were hurting and I found myself being very tired. I tend to get a bit obsessive over exercise sometimes..Like putting pressure on myself to always push..to do what I had done in my previous workouts..and if I don't, I feel like I've failed myself somehow...But I have to admit to myself that I simply don't have it in me to walk 8 miles everyday..and they are not easy miles..they are fast paced and at in incline...I don't know..I need to think about it. I know this tho, I will not do anything LESS than 60 minutes per workout. And I am being pretty good about my 2 day rule..where I won't let myself go for more than 2 days without working out...I guess the bottom line is: I am working out more than I am NOT working out...Does that make sense?

Foods today: 1 small bowl of spaghetti...1/2 of a personal watermelon.

I feel weak. Wonder if I'm getting sick? I better not because this is NOT a good time for me to get sick. I refuse!!!

Ok, gonna go catch up on you guys..fold a load of laundry, then lie down for a bit. I have to work tonight so I think a nap is definitely in order..

Oh, and thanks to Umpqua, I finally figured out how to post pictures..so yeh, here's me, taken on Mother's Day~

Hope you all have a Wonderful Memorial Day!

Progress as of today: 22 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

biscottibody59 on 05/30/2011:
Even with knowing you're hypoglycemic, I'd get today's loss of consciousness checked out. I know you know yourself pretty well, but there could be something else going on you hadn't thought of. Take good care of yourself!

KathyBlue on 05/30/2011:
Maybe you're feeling weak because of the workout, it happens to me too. Make sure you get enough protein in. :) I eat 14 cookies (biscuits), too. You're not alone... I had a whole pack (200gr) of cookies yesterday. Felt like cr*p but still, I finished the whole pack. I knew it was wrong, but my brain went berserk. Hope we have a healthier week... but... one day at a time. XOXO

greengirl on 05/30/2011:
I agree with Biscotti, just to be on the safe side I would mention that episode to the doctor. Your photos are lovely, very pretty :-)

V on 05/30/2011:
Well Hello there gorgeous!!! It is nice to put a beautiful face to your posts :) Don't let this indiscretion get you down!! You will put it back together but be strong and next time don't buy so many cookies...LOL have a good one :)

hollybelle on 05/30/2011:
Thanks for the encouragement. Regarding the P90X or Insanity.....they are both really intense. Daughter has both. And I've been "through" them - meaning I have played them and done what I can through the time, but I can't actually do most of the things they ask you to do and probably never will. Too much impact for my knees. In my opinion, though, almost anyone can get them and do what they can until you improve. They are really a challenge. Check out http://bit.ly/CoachRachel This is my daughter's Beach Body site. She's a BB coach and you can actually sign up for her to be your coach and hook up for your BB DVDs (if and when you are ready). She also sends motivational Tweets out from her Twitter Page which is RachelEMcCord. I know she would be tickled if you were to follow her on Twitter, anyway. Great pictures! Your hair is so pretty. Sorry you aren't feeling well. You probably should go get checked out a bit to make sure hypoglacemia hasn't "morphed" into anything else. When's the last time you had a glucose test? :o)

Umpqua on 05/30/2011:
You look beautiful, I'm glad you were able to post some pics! Please take it easy with the sun, etc. and stay hydrated, we need you conscious :)

Hackersdiet on 05/31/2011:
You are beautiful. I love your hair! Your pictures are great! Thanks for posting them. Make sure you get enough iron. If you are anemic, you can get light-headed and pass out too. I'm glad you are ok. That was pretty scary.

KathyBlue on 05/31/2011:
I hear you on the relief felt when others do the same, lol... You know, I doubt I would be able to keep counting, that's the weirdest! Because at some point I lose all the good sense and say: "from now on, it doesn't matter how much cookies I eat, because I've already passed the limit..." I think this is what they call dark side of the diet. This is why people should let themselves go wild once a week, and eat without restrictions (what they feel to eat but in moderation), because the barriers we set are constructive but destructive if they're set too high.

KathyBlue on 05/31/2011:
I'm seeing the images now (it took ages to load)! I have to agree, you're so pretty :)

~Moody~ - Wednesday May 25, 2011
(Dedication, determination and consistency)
Weight: 195.0

Trying a larger font today~My eyes are so crappy, even with my glasses on, that sometimes I have a hard time with the "small" font..So I apologize if this font is huge..anyway..

Hope you all have had a wonderful Wednesday! Mine has been really good! Came home from work this morning, had coffee...talked to my honey..had chicken breast again for bfast..weird I know. I just figure its low cal/fat..high protein..would be a good pre-workout meal. I had 2 of them. (boneless/skinless)..After that I worked out, then showered...did some chores around the house..Watched Oprahs last show..I got teary eyed. LOL..Who does that?!! Geesh~I don't know..it was a very powerful show today~her message was amazing..I guess it's just kinda weird that her show is over..I've been watching her since a teenager..Stupid I know, but yeh, it kinda got to me~sigh

I bought 2 more watermelons yesterday (personal sized ones) and both were crappy. I tossed one..and picked at the other. I think it was Sweetpea that said don't buy one for another month and I am going to listen to her! I'm sick of over ripe melons..just nasty.  I wish I didn't love watermelon so much tho...

My sons friend is home from Afghanistan~he is staying with us. I've known this "kid" since he was a teenager~I feel like I'm a second Mom, so yeh, I was very happy to see him today~My son has some friends over, they're drinking beer..I know some people may be against that, but hey, if you are old enough and brave enough to fight for our country, you're old enough for a beer (they're all over 21 btw)~My only rule is, if you drink here, you STAY here. So, I expect to come home in the morning and find 4 or 5 guys crashed on my couch...


Workout: 5 Interval workouts on the treadmill..3 Weight loss ones, 2 Cardio..Totaling 2.5 hours.. 8 miles walked/1200 calories burned~WootWoot! I did a 3 minute wall sit afterwards...Felt great!

Food: 2 boneless/skinless chicken breasts for  bfast..Little bit of watermelon this afternoon, then dinner were 2 more boneless/skinless chicken breasts.

I drank more water today than I have in awhile. Drank 2 bottles while working out. I needed the water, but I noticed I was getting side aches after I would sip~didn't like THAT.

Oh, before I forget..How do you post pics? I was going to post one of Jager and it came out HUGE..How do you guys get yours so nice n small~? Help!!!!

Otay~gonna go check up on you lovely ladies..have to be to work at 9:00~Wishing each of you a beautiful evening!!!

Progress as of today: 22 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

Em17 on 05/25/2011:
Sounds like you had a good day today =). Btw, no it is not, she also has a 1 yr old who turned 1 on May 19th so twice =)

mysterywoman100 on 05/25/2011:
I have been getting good cantalope at my store but let them ripen 3 or 4 days on the counter before eating. When they smell good they are ready.

V on 05/25/2011:
I like your rule BTW :) Now if you are impressed with my Jagerator you should see my full stocked bar...NO ONE drives home after a few here at my place...There have been a few to fight me on this and they are NEVER invited back... Hey I am a big fan of protein for bfast, i am usually not that hungry though in the morning...Try not to work too hard tonight!!

shaunnac on 05/25/2011:
Yes it was a quote from Bruno Mars song! :) I myself agree with you. however because of my job I can not sell to anyone underage. It's a crappy rule but if I got busted selling alcohol to minors i'd go to jail which would be way more crappy. have a great day

V on 05/25/2011:
http://youtu.be/T5ABj8oHVIc Turbo Baby!!!

Umpqua on 05/26/2011:
Sounds like a good day! On the pics, there's a way to change the size after choosing the file you want to upload. You can resize to 200x200 pixels for example if you play with the numbers in the width and height box. Have a good one!

V on 05/26/2011:
650 calories per workout!!

selina on 05/26/2011:
I hope you have better luck with watermelons in the future ;) I love watermelons, too! Hey, I LOVE your new/larger font :) that's the only way for me, nowadays, ha! Stay well and have a great day!

nemogirl on 05/26/2011:
That's a lot of cardio, that will really melt the calories away, good for you!

hollybelle on 05/26/2011:
You burned up that treadmill, girl! Also - I hate getting crappy fruit - I take it back.....get $$ back. Makes me so mad! Here's to better watermelons!

legcramps on 05/26/2011:
Great job!

moogy on 05/26/2011:
My font is even bigger than yours, I guess we will just keep upping the size as we age!!! LOL The chicken breast was a great choice, good for you with the workout and also with opening up your home to those boys. I love the rule by the way!!! Have a great day Moody:)

thinkpositive on 05/30/2011:
Your workouts are incredible. Hope somebody helped with advice on pictures. Love to see them.

mcwoo40 on 05/30/2011:
Hope you are ok and being good :)

~Moody~ - Tuesday May 24, 2011
(Dedication, determination and consistency)
Weight: 195.0

I just started an entry, and hit some button and deleted it dangit! Luckily, I hadn't gotten too far into my posting before I did that...anyway

Hope you are all having a wonderful Tuesday! I got off work early this morning...5:45am instead of 7:00am..so I came home, climbed into bed and crashed til noon..Got up, made coffee, then made a phone call to my internet provider...we've been having issues with our internet for a week or so..anyway, that took awhile to get straightened out...hopped on the treadmill afterwards and only had time for 3 interval workouts...It's kinda funny, in a good way, that I now find myself saying "only 3" interval workouts..It was a total of 1.5 hours and almost 5 miles walked, but I have been doing 2 to 2.5 hours on the treadmill lately..So I feel like I didn't get as good a workout as I would have liked..I had to stop after 3 workouts because I needed to shower and leave for work by 4:30. I didn't start my workout til nearly 2:30...I finished at 4:10. (i was interupted by a phone call while on the treadimill..normally i wouldnt take the call but it was R)..Oh, and after the treadmill, I did a 2 minute wall sit. Where you "sit" against the wall..like in an invisible chair. I haven't done this in a VERY long time..When I first attempted it a couple years ago, I couldn't even make it for a minute...I slowly built up to 4 or 5 minutes...but stopped doing them for some reason...Anyway, thought I'd give it a try today, and was happily surprised to make it to 2 minutes..Probably could've gone longer, but was happy with this for a start....

Foods today: 1 boneless/skinless chicken breast this morning when I got home..weird breakfast, but it was what I wanted...Dinner: another bonelss/skinless chicken breast. I have watermelon, grapes and bananas to eat this evening. And Slimfast..

Workout: 3 Weightloss Intervals totaling 1.5 hours..equaling just over 4.5 miles/and over 600 calories burnt. I had started a Cardio Interval workout, but about 10 minutes into it, I accidently pulled out the emergency plug in thingy and my treadmill came to a complete stop..I was irritated and said "screw it"..didnt feel like restarting the Cardio workout, so opted for another Weightloss interval instead....

Ok, gonna go check up on you lovelies..Wishing you all a beautiful evening!!

Progress as of today: 22 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

loveray on 05/24/2011:
wow!! early morning for you - im impressed you still got on the treadmill! awesome job. xo

moogy on 05/24/2011:
It happens to us all regularly, I just copy after every paragraph just so that I don't lose everything. I think you are amazing, great exercise and good food. Should be a great weight week:)

V on 05/24/2011:
awesome job girlie!!! Yes my jagerator is a monster right??? LOl I would not reccomend it at home if you can't resist passing by it and doing a shot...Until i get my body to where it needs to be i can only glance at it and dispense it to my friends ;) LOL Have a good one!!

hollybelle on 05/24/2011:
Good workout! You are getting on track!

Bikiniwax85 on 05/24/2011:
wow.. You work at night or something? Sorry you said you got home early like in "AMs". Thanks for the compliment dearie. It is kind of you. Yay!! post some pic when you got some ink on! :) I always think when you start doing exercise you cannot stop if no it will only take you to stage 1. Well at least for me if I stop I would not want to do it anymore. Lol..

shaunnac on 05/24/2011:
"screw it" LOL should be the motto for this tuesday! <3 hey can I come hop on your treadmill while your at work? lol. I told the hubby that is my christmas pressent to myself this year! Have a great day/night

liza36 on 05/25/2011:
Awesome workout! It is funny how we change our perception along with our ability, and it's "only" 3 intervals, or whatever it is. I'll have to try the wall sit too. I don't think I could even do one minute at this point. I'll have to see. Have a great day.

Maria7 on 05/25/2011:
Hey, there! Your menu looks wonderful and congrats on your workouts...wow! :-)

h82bfat on 05/25/2011:
Sounds like a great workout! I know some of those intervals are pretty tough!

Umpqua on 05/25/2011:
Great job getting your exercise in and another pound gone, woot!!

legcramps on 05/25/2011:
That's a great workout - good for you!

mcwoo40 on 05/25/2011:
Thanks for your comment Moody,your doing brill :)

nemogirl on 05/25/2011:
Good job on the wall sit. I'll try it, now that you have mentioned it, I haven't done one in years!

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