Hi everyone! I am new at this, but not new at struggling with my weight! I am 30yrs old with 4 children! My youngest are twins, that are 2yrs old. After having my first kid, 11yrs ago...I have struggled with my weight. I can't do this anymore! I want to be thin and healthy for myself, husband and kids! I am going to be BRUTALLY HONEST with you guys and to myself! First, I love food and the joy of eating! I know this! I eat way beyond the healthy portion! I NEED to stop. I am out of shape..I can't even walk up stairs without being winded, breathing heavily! I am TOO YOUNG to be achy and out of breath! LOL!!! I am 5 feet 10inches...pretty tall girl...I weigh 237lbs! Within the last year I put on the xtra 17lbs...my weight that seemed steady since having my first kid...11 yrs ago was 220lbs, but over the last yr I put on the xtra 17. So Im 237lbs...this is my HEAVIEST...I haven't even been this heavy while pregnant! I LOOK pregnant! LOL! This isn't funny, but it is! How could I do this to myself??? You would never guess I weigh that much, I guess being tall has benefits..I carry my weight well..physically, but NOT emotionally! Anyways...I don't want this to be tooo long of a blog, so My goal is to get fit, thin, and healthy. I plan on doing this by better controlling my portions, what I eat and working out! IAM BEGGING FOR A SUPPORT GROUP, ENCOURAGMENT AND A CONSTANT FRIEND ON HERE, THAT WILL RESPOND WHEN I NEED THEM TO! I will be brutally honest! Please be there for me...I can be there for you! I will log in daily to tell u how my day with food/exercise went....If I get tempted to eat inappropriately, I will login and blog! I need a sponsor...just like in AA. "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can...and the wisdom to know the difference!" Amen!