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Jayhawkjen - public bio

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Birthdate: January 1


Education: College Graduate

Occupation: RN

Family Info (spouse, kids, pets): Married, four kids (two boys, two girls) and a pet bird.

How do you feel about yourself, your weight, your decision to change? I feel weirdly self-destructive and out of control, ongoing for several years. I have never been this heavy, except at 9 months of pregnancy, so that doesn't count. I notice that I've gained about 25 pounds since getting a smart phone and I think there's a cause and effect situation going on. I also think that the heavier I get, the less motivated I am to eat well and exercise, so it's a vicious circle. I felt very happy this morning when I decided to make a change and came up with an initial plan.

How long have you been overweight? It feels like I've been overweight forever, but in reality, probably only since college. Granted, that was forever ago! But I thought I was overweight since probably age 8 or so, when I was playing "Red Rover" with neighbor kids and someone said, "Red Rover, Red Rover, Send Fatty right over!" They weren't talking about me, but I thought they were and that's the first time I can remember becoming concerned.

What things have you tried before to lose the weight? Atkins, Protein Power, Calorie counting, Weight Watchers.

What is the number one reason you want to lose weight? I can feel my health deteriorating. I am losing energy and strength every day. I am tired. I am too ashamed to go to a doctor, which is ironic since I'm a nurse.

What are some other reasons? I would love to look good in clothes, be able to buy something -- anything -- cute! I want to feel good about myself. I am so tired of being ashamed and hiding! I am also realizing that my strategy of doing nothing is leading to even more weight gain. Maybe it's not my fate to find some kind of "set-point." It seems I am either trying to lose, or I am gaining. I never, ever thought I'd pass 200...

What is your goal weight? 170 for now

What is the first thing you want to do when you reach your goal? I don't know... I should think about this.

Are the people closest to you supportive? If not, why? They don't know.

What is the worst thing about being overweight? Feeling unhealthy and being ashamed. I avoid reunion-type situations because I believe people are noticing how much weight I've gained. I hate social situations that require a swim suit, which is a problem since I have a lake house and we entertain there quite a bit.

What is the best thing about you? I am fun, funny, generous, loving, smart.

How will losing weight affect those around you? Since I plan meals and grocery shop, my healthy habits affect my family.

On a scale of 1 to 10 (low to high) how determined are you to reach your goal? 8